It has been 18 months since I had a radical nephrectomy. I have still been struggling with awful lower back and pain at removal site. Some clothes just are too much to stand some days. I exercise daily and a chiropractor helps sometimes. Sitting, standing, or lying down for too long makes moving excruciating. I get so anxious, can't sleep, and have panic attacks often. I have had good scans, but the fear can be overwhelming. I'm usually a very positive person, but I'm struggling with this pain, anxiety , and tremendous fatigue. I teach in a high stress, high poverty school and it just wears me out every day. My emotions are all over the place. My family just wants me to shut up because I'm " cured". Nobody understands or wants to understand the pain and fear. I realize that I am blessed that it was found and removed, but the fear and pain are not removed. Anyone experience this? And also residual memory loss? Yay..I vented!