I am a mother of two boys age 7 and 9 and I just lost my husband on October 2nd 2012 to Refractory Diffuse Large B-Cell Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. He fought hard, as it was already stage 4 when diagnosed in November 2011. I miss him. The pain hurts and I have no time to grieve, as I will have to return to work to support my boys. Matt and I had no life insurance policies on each other outside of work. Well his work life insurance police did not continue after he was done with FMLA and had to resign due to the fact he was so sick. He was my best friend, my love of my life and the one I would go to for anything. Does the pain ever get any easier? I still cant believe he is gone. Any advise would be great!