well tommarrow is my halfway point of 8 treatments of my hodgkins lymphoma stage IIA which i been being treated for. tommarrow i have my halfway point PET scan to see if the treatment is working or not. If the treatment is working i will have 4 more treatments before i get a cancer free where i need no more treatments. if the cancer has not reduced or gone away i then have the choice of continueing on with the current ABVD chemo treatments and another PET scan after 4 more treatments or i can go an aggressive route where i do different chemo and radiation for 21 days. which would also include me to be hospitalized. i am kind of nervous and scared for the PET scan tommarrow. As i know this is only one of the many more PET scans i will have throughout the rest of my life as i am only 41. but i am afraid of the what if and if the cancer treatments havent been working as well as they should have. do i want to just do the 4 more treatments or do i want to struggle and deal with the 21days of treatment and radiation which have a much better cure rate. i can go either way as the choice is mine. all i know is i am sick of being sick the way it is and i just want to be cancer free. i am hoping for the best for tommarrow. i just wish there was some financial assistance programs out there that would actually help. i have applied with 4 different ones and cause i have insurance they say i am not eligible for assistance. ok so i have insurance and copay for my meds. but what about all the other expenses like rent, heating bills, electric and water, food, car insurance and expenses. i mean i am unable to work due to the cancer and my sickness from treatment and my lowered immune system and yet they say i am ineligible for any assistance. why do i make donations and support the american cancer society and programs when in times of need they are quick to respond with NOT ELIGIBLE.. what a crock. i am really disappointed in how they treat people in times of need and want to know where all those donations go and the thanks for support is. its just like all you ever hear about or alot about on tv is breast cancer. well there are so many more cancers out there why is there never any tv or big promotional campaigns for other cancer other then breast cancer. i just want to know why all cancers aren't campaigned and promoted as hard as breast cancer. i can bet if i was female and single and applied for financial assistance i would not be ineligible but since i am a single male and white and don't have breast cancer it makes me ineligible. just a personal opinion there.