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Round two

kikz
kikz CSN Member Posts: 1,345 Member
in Ovarian Cancer #1
Got home a couple of hours ago from my appointment with my onc. I made a few calls and then came to the board.

I will start Tamoxifen tomorrow once I have bloodwork done as onc wants a CA 125 to see what my starting point is.

My son was with me and after asking a lot of questions we agreed I should try this option. As I told the onc, "If this doesn't work, the heavy artillery is still there."

I feel at peace now. I told Dr. Ivanov that for the last couple of months I have been putting my life on hold. Now, I must tell you, I lead a quiet and fairly mundane life so there isn't really a lot to put on hold but I want to stop doing it at all. This disease is all about making us wonder and worry and I refuse to let the monster have the upper hand.

I told her how I attempt to take a day at a time as I believe everyone should. Sometimes today may not seem that good but we all know tomorrow could be a lot worse. I look back at some of the times I thought my life was the pits and feel like slapping myself for not realizing how good it actually was.

I had my haircut today and I told my hairdresser I wasn't sure if I was going to have to cancel the appointment because if I was having chemo...what was the point? But since I had pretty much decided I would try the pill I kept the appointment. Before I left she asked, if we were dying it next month? I said yeah, because I won't be losing my hair. She said, I didn't mean that I just meant it's time, right? I said yes, and I think I want to go red! You might see a new picture of me here.

Thanks again for all your support. You all mean so much to me. My sisters.


Karen
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  • debrajo
    debrajo CSN Member Posts: 1,095 Member
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    wAY TO GO kAREN! Remember,
    wAY TO GO kAREN! Remember, it's not a bad LIFE, just a bad DAY! Best, debrajo
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  • lovesanimals
    lovesanimals CSN Member Posts: 1,366 Member
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    debrajo said:

    wAY TO GO kAREN! Remember,
    wAY TO GO kAREN! Remember, it's not a bad LIFE, just a bad DAY! Best, debrajo

    Hi Karen
    I could feel the calmness coming out of your message. Having that sense of peace is real good place to be at. I hope and pray that your first chemo pill went smoothly, with no side-effects or minimal side-effects. Have a good weekend!

    Kelly
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  • Mwee
    Mwee CSN Member Posts: 1,338 Member
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    Our sister
    OOOO... red.. I'll bet that'll be flattering. Best of luck with the Tamoxifen. I wouldn't wish this constant battle and worry on anyone, but it certainly does teach us how to appreciate the day to day.
    (((HUGS))) Maria
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  • JoWin615
    JoWin615 CSN Member Posts: 150 Member
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    Keep on truckin'!
    Isn't it amazing how much better we feel once a decision like this is made? I salute you, and am SO glad you are at peace. I, too, have a mundane life, and I'm not apologizing for it! A friend of mine wrote a wonderful song about a little South African boy dying of AIDS. In it, she uses the lines: "Do what you want, with what you have, in the time you've got, in the place you are". To me, that about says it all.

    Cheers,
    Jo
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  • kikz
    kikz CSN Member Posts: 1,345 Member
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    JoWin615 said:

    Keep on truckin'!
    Isn't it amazing how much better we feel once a decision like this is made? I salute you, and am SO glad you are at peace. I, too, have a mundane life, and I'm not apologizing for it! A friend of mine wrote a wonderful song about a little South African boy dying of AIDS. In it, she uses the lines: "Do what you want, with what you have, in the time you've got, in the place you are". To me, that about says it all.

    Cheers,
    Jo

    I feel so comfortable and understood
    when I come here. You are all terrific. I wish we could all meet somewhere. Wouldn't that be amazing? You should all come to my house, because even after all I've been through I still won't fly. In fact I'm waiting for a bridge to be built to Europe so I can go to Italy. I'll drive to the east coast and keep right on driving across the Atlantic.


    Karen
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  • garden gal
    garden gal CSN Member Posts: 212 Member
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    kikz said:

    I feel so comfortable and understood
    when I come here. You are all terrific. I wish we could all meet somewhere. Wouldn't that be amazing? You should all come to my house, because even after all I've been through I still won't fly. In fact I'm waiting for a bridge to be built to Europe so I can go to Italy. I'll drive to the east coast and keep right on driving across the Atlantic.


    Karen

    I have oftened thought the same thing
    wouldn't it be nice to meet in person. I live on the north shore and although I respect everyones privacy would love to know where everyone lives. Kathy
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  • kimberly sue 63
    kimberly sue 63 CSN Member Posts: 421 Member
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    Karen, it is good to hear
    Karen, it is good to hear you are at peace with your decision. I am a firm believer that when we are at peace with the choices we make, then they are the right ones. I am all for no hair loss!! I think red would look good!! Kim
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  • kimberly sue 63
    kimberly sue 63 CSN Member Posts: 421 Member
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    kikz said:

    I feel so comfortable and understood
    when I come here. You are all terrific. I wish we could all meet somewhere. Wouldn't that be amazing? You should all come to my house, because even after all I've been through I still won't fly. In fact I'm waiting for a bridge to be built to Europe so I can go to Italy. I'll drive to the east coast and keep right on driving across the Atlantic.


    Karen

    I agree, it would be nice if
    I agree, it would be nice if we could all meet. We talked to each other about some of the most difficult things in our lives. It makes us all close. Kim
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