I felt that the title of my post is very appropriate.
I have tried to log on, but of course this site was full of issues. Seems to be my sort of luck lately. Anyway, I'll try to fill you in before the site goes crazy again..
I had a long chat with the Doc this morning. He was able to answer most of my questions. He and the Radiologist agree that the scan images along with all my fairly new symptoms and a belly full of acites lead them to a dx of some type of ovarian cancer. Crap crap crap!!!
As of right now, I am not upset just trying to fully get it.
I have thought that this was what might be going on for a little while now. I had not told anyone what my symptoms were and what I was thinking. You already know that I have just been needing a break from the Doc visits etc. So, between your words of encouragement and my inner voice telling me to wake up, well here I am today with another cancer.
After all the cancer I have had and still have, it just felt better to say nothing and try to believe that everything was a result of the huge amount of stress I have been in. Not denial, just self protection mode. Time to get real again.
Many of you know that the past bunch of years have been extremly stressful for me. I have worked really hard at reducing some of that stress, but a lot just is there.
Caring for my Mom for 5 years till she passed away in Feb. My only brother dying unexpectedly 3 1/2 years ago and the ongoing battle over his Estate. My MIL dying after we moved her out here 1 1/2 years ago, I could go on and on. You get my meaning of stress.
My ongoing cancer concerns and treatments here and in Texas have also worn me down some. Stress is so unhealthy. I will try to stay less stressed, but impossible to be stress free.
I will gather my strength and fight as best I can.
I know that this new journey is one that you are not a part of. I'll stop by the Ovarian boards also. But you are all my friends and my most needed support. So I hope that you will still be able to be there for me as I start down this unknown path. I really need you all right now. Okay I better stop for now, the tears are welling up.
Not much else to say except CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
I love you all, thank you for always being there for me.
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