Bottom of the barrel.

I feel like I've hit rock bottom.
I feel like there is no more hope.
There is no bone marrow transplant, becuse I have no one to stay with me.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up.
Maybe it would be better if I just die now, instead of waiting for it to happen, becuse this is enough to drive someone insane.
I've cut myself off from everyone, and the world. I can't think of anything that I enjoy anymore.
Im losing my faith.
-Feeling hopless, Denise.

Comments

  • diazr1
    diazr1 Member Posts: 101
    Why give up. I'm sure
    Why give up. I'm sure volunteers can stay with you. You are one of us and we are here for you
  • vinny59
    vinny59 Member Posts: 1,032
    you don't mean that
    As a good friend of mine told me, once you hit rock bottom, there is only one place left and thats up! You need to tell yourself that you can, and will get though this. We have no control over any of it. The only thing you can control is your attitude. Giving up is not a option, life, no matter how bad it may seem, is worth living...........
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    vinny59 said:

    you don't mean that
    As a good friend of mine told me, once you hit rock bottom, there is only one place left and thats up! You need to tell yourself that you can, and will get though this. We have no control over any of it. The only thing you can control is your attitude. Giving up is not a option, life, no matter how bad it may seem, is worth living...........

    I agree
    Denise, did you read my other post to you??? Vinnie is so right. Please see a social worker
    at the hospital.

    If I lived close by, I would wrap my arms around you and tell you everything will be alright. Just imagine all of us around you, and giving you a big hug.

    Are you taking anti=depressents??? If not, get a prescription asap?? It will help. I th

    Please keep in touch. Love you. Maggie
  • anliperez915
    anliperez915 Member Posts: 770
    Worried
    Denise I'm really worried about you, wish I could do something! Is there any possibility that you could stay in the hospital after the SCT? Please ask to talk to a social worker, I'm sure there is a solution but hasn't been offered. Don't lose faith, please think positive. (((Hugs)))


    Sincerely,
    Liz
  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    Hugs
    Hi Denise,

    I can only agree with the other posts.
    I've been in some dark places in my life and
    Vinny is right, no place but "UP" when you hit rock bottom.

    Also, I've learned many times that even though I've
    been in dark places, the light does come.

    Please take heart and know we all care about you.

    Hugs from us all,

    Jim
  • catwink22
    catwink22 Member Posts: 281
    Help
    Oh Denise,

    The tears are welling in my eyes and my heart is hurting for you. There MUST be someone to help you! Is there a church near you or one you belong to?

    You need a life line - right now, you have to reach out to people that can help you, they are there! It’s hard to accept help sometimes, but this is one of those times where you don’t have a choice. Your daughter needs you Denise, hang in there!

    Right now you’re passing through hell and once you come out on the other side you will be grateful for not having given up.

    Send me a private message and let me know where you are, I will make phone calls for you if you need me to. Let me help you Denise.

    Big Hugs
    Cat
  • trustinJesus
    trustinJesus Member Posts: 59
    catwink22 said:

    Help
    Oh Denise,

    The tears are welling in my eyes and my heart is hurting for you. There MUST be someone to help you! Is there a church near you or one you belong to?

    You need a life line - right now, you have to reach out to people that can help you, they are there! It’s hard to accept help sometimes, but this is one of those times where you don’t have a choice. Your daughter needs you Denise, hang in there!

    Right now you’re passing through hell and once you come out on the other side you will be grateful for not having given up.

    Send me a private message and let me know where you are, I will make phone calls for you if you need me to. Let me help you Denise.

    Big Hugs
    Cat

    help
    There has to be someone who can help. Do you go to church? My church is my extended family. Reach out and someone will help. I have alot of trials in the last couple of years and giving up is not an option. Put your trust in Jesus. Hugs