Am I crazy to feel this way?

jamiegww

I cried off and on Thursday when the county scraped up the chipseal they had put down 4 or 5 years ago and left us once again with a gravel road to drive on. I think, in my mind, this personifies a cancer that I thought was gone and has now returned. Never thought I would compare myself to a road, but the road didn't appear to need anything so drastic just as I didn't appear to need anything so drastic before my cancer diagnosis in 2009. I feel like the road has just been through surgery/chemo/and radiation and it looks and feels terrible. It reminds me of how much better I looked and felt before treatment. No, as far as I know, my cancer has not returned but why am I so depressed over a stupid road? Does this make sense to anyone or am I just crazy?

Aahmie

No! You're not crazy!
I am just newly diagnosed but I understand the odd things that set you off. Sometimes, I catch myself crying over things that really have nothing to do with breast cancer. And then yesterday, my phone wouldn't work the way I needed it to and it nearly went out the window!
I'm guessing that the emotions last long after the treatment has been completed.
Jennifer

mom62

It does
make sense. We all make comparisons in life. You see the road as a symbol of what you yourself have gone through, there is nothing wrong with that. It is perfectly normal. I do things like that all the time.

((hugs))

Terry

aisling8

not crazy!


You're a person who has thoughts and feelings and that's not crazy:)

Big hug to you,

Victoria

madsters1

am I crazy/
No, my friend this is not at all insanity. Quite the contrary in fact. It's the long lasting, deep effects of a tragedy. It's another cry of mourning for what you have suffered and lost.
It sometimes seems that we're expected to "chin up" through treatment, telling everyone (mostly for their sake) that we're doing fine, hanging in there. Then when the "harsh" treatment (ie; chemo & radiation)is over, we're seen as all better and expected to "pack it up", emotions and all and just move on. Now to be stamped with the title "Survivor".
Cancer however, I've discovered, changes us forever. We have lost something. Gratefully not our lives, but we have been invaded and marred, some much more than others. Therefore, we mourn at times, but only at times. And that's VERY much okay. Most of the rest of the time, we live, we laugh, we love and we consider ourselves blessed beyond measure.
Thank you for being so real to share the hard moments. We all definately have them.

eihtak

Not Crazy///
You are not crazy at all. I have always compared things in life like that, and after a traumatic event like dealing with cancer, I think we gain a new and deeper way of looking at all things. Embrace your new found emotional skills, it will serve you well later in life. Emotions, both joyous or sad are a wonderful thing. Unfortunately the world has produced too many cold hearted un-feeling people, you are not one of them!!!! Cancer has probabaly left some scars, and that old road will be scared for a while but every bit as useable, than once again it will be recovered and have a new strength, but buried under the future new blactop will be memories of those who have trusted its strength all along. (or maybe I'm crazy too....lol) As always,all in my prayers

disneyfan2008

we all have misc
we all have misc thoughts...no right or wrong way to deal with illness...

Totally understand...

Denise

Jobi

This makes perfect sense!
You are not crazy. This crazy cancer does a number not only on our bodies, but our minds and feelings as well. It is okay! This too shall pass, and you will begin to feel amazing again.

Dorene