Mom admitted to the hospital.
She won't eat Nor drink any nutritional supplements and she refused the placement of a peg feeding tube before we even began treatments.
I had taken her several times to be hooked up to an IV for some nutrients but this was just a bandaid for the malnourishment she was experiencing. I just could not sit idly by and watch her starve herself to death.
Since she has been admitted. She has a constant IV going with fluids but she is barely eating anything. Just tea, and broth and not even enough to consider "eating".
I could understand if it was a pain issue but she seems to have no difficulties in swallowing . She just complains the tastes are not there or gross.
It has gotten so bad her dietician told me she has the protein of a woman with anorexia.
I am so scared. Now that the treatments are over I do not know what to expect. Her moods are horrible. She looks at me like I am the devil. She glares at me with glazed mean eyes.
Yesterday when I went to visit her I tried to open my heart. I told her how much I missed her, and loved her and tried to get her to focus on something positive and she treated me horrible. She was mean and extremely rude to me. I asked her why she wanted to speak to me so poorly when all I am trying to do is be there and she told me to back off and stop thinking of myself. ( I am telling you a much kinder version).
I do not know what to do. I feel like she hates me. Honestly for the last 5 days she has been like this to me and I have taken it and sucked it up telling myself "this is not really her" but It really does hurt.
I had to cut my visit short yesterday because I simply could not hold back the tears anymore. I left and held it in the whole 2 hour ride home but when I got in my home I collapsed on the stairs and had a massive panic attack. I almost dialed 911 for myself because I could not catch my breath.
She refuses to see anyone for a visit. She gets mad and swears at me when I tell her who has been asking about her and wants to see her. She is isolating herself from the world and now even from me. I made a call to the doctors in high hopes they could send a social worker or someone to her to help.
I wish I knew what is happening.
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