I am having a rough day, sort of. I know I should not be. I feel like I am just in a war zone. I would think that I would be happy, but I find myself in a bad mood. I am thinking about my mother... last year around this time, I was on a rollercoaster with her. I am sort of anticipating her anniversary death date. I find myself sad all day thinking of her and what she was going through around this time. We had been in and out of the hospital, then she was put in hospice. She did not understand that she was dying. As I look at my husband, I am just grieving. Can someone talk me through this time? I feel like it is a fairy tale--a sad one--- when I see my spouse. Just like my mom, eventually the day will come. I get so mad!