Sad Eyes

those beautiful chocolate brown eyes are full of sadness & she tries so hard to hide it with a smile.

I've never seen anyone loose muscle mass so quickly.

I'm still angry , but just too tired to feel it any more. I just know it's there.

my hope for a miracle or divine intervention is fading faster than she is and I feel like a ship going down in calm water.



  • LilChemoSmoker
    LilChemoSmoker Member Posts: 185
    I know what you mean!
    Hey V~V,

    I know what you mean. Not even a year ago my husband was 180 lbs and for all intensive purposes looked healthy. Then the bottom fell out. Between September and October (2010) he lost 40 lbs (we thought it was all the lattes he stopped drinking). Then in June he was dx with stage IV Esophageal Cancer and it is a terminal dx. Between August and September he lost a huge amount of muscle mass and though his weight is stable at 140 lbs. it is not the same. I hate how it makes him feel about his appearance. He is no longer able to do any physical things and that too has wore on his mental state. It is terrible and a very helpless feeling to only be capable of watching this terrible disease take his life. Try to make as many moments as you can and know we are here to just listen if need be. Thank you for sharing with us, as you are not alone.

    Love to you!
  • jimwins
    jimwins Member Posts: 2,107
    Hello V~V,

    My heart goes out to you and I really don't know what to say
    other than I feel your pain. I pray things get better
    for you. Thank you for sharing with us.



    Some quotes I found:

    I find hope in the darkest of days, and focus in the brightest. I do not judge the universe.

    Dalai Lama

    We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.

    Martin Luther King, Jr.

    If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe
    we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is
    there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally:
    give up, or Fight Like Hell.

    Lance Armstrong
  • ddpekks
    ddpekks Member Posts: 162
    I am very sad.....
    that you are so broken. I understand and appreciate where you are coming from, but I hope that you can put it on hold for a while and make some tiny, but wonderful, memories of her before she goes. Grap on to the beauty of these memories and hang on for your life. I know she would want you to.

    V~V, we are here for you and will talk it out with you if you want to. We are all on this ship together and we must cling to each other.

    Peace be with you.
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    V~V, I am praying for God's grace to sustain you both.

    We are here for you.