Leaving Las Vegas

mixleader
mixleader Member Posts: 267 Member
in Head and Neck Cancer #1
No, I don't live anywhere near there. As I am sitting here today, enjoying a beer while the wizards are trying to figure out what type of chemo may kill the little beasties invading my body, I can't help thinking of the movie with Nicolas Cage. Have any of you been tempted to just say 'screw it' and head off somewhere and try to enjoy as much as you can before the hammer falls? I know that sounds like loser talk, but there are times when it sounds almost reasonable.

Roger

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  • Hondo
    Hondo Member Posts: 6,636 Member
    #2
    Hi Roger
    Enjoy the beer and keep dreaming, it’s the only thing free these day and no one can stop you from doing. We all have times when we just want to just go for it, but with me I have to look back as the see the wife & grandchildren that keeps me here fighting. I do go out side into my workshop some days and put on Reba, while she sings I dream.

    All the best my friend
    Hondo
  • hawk711
    hawk711 Member Posts: 566
    #3
    Hondo said:

    Hi Roger
    Enjoy the beer and keep dreaming, it’s the only thing free these day and no one can stop you from doing. We all have times when we just want to just go for it, but with me I have to look back as the see the wife & grandchildren that keeps me here fighting. I do go out side into my workshop some days and put on Reba, while she sings I dream.

    All the best my friend
    Hondo

    Wondering thoughts....
    Roger
    We all have wondering thoughts about "what if", or "what now". Your fight is a tough one with the new recurrence and all, but I have seen many, many people here with recurrences that have stayed the course and beat the beast for a second and third time!! I am hopeful that those folks will post here and give you there thoughts also...
    Keep fighting the fight Roger. You have a lot of good times ahead...Believe and have faith
    My thoughts and prayers are with you...
    Steve
  • Skiffin16
    Skiffin16 Member Posts: 8,305 Member
    #4
    Making The Best
    You should be making the best of it everyday.....regardless of your diagnosis.

    I know those words are easily said when I'm not the one going through what you are. But I like to think it would be that way and hoping some positive re-enforcement will help you as well.

    If nothing else when it all boils out, "It is what it is, and you do what you have to do"... You're tough and will keep on kicking, but a beer to reflect can be a good thing on occasion.

    Thoughts & Prayers.....

    Keep on going bro,
    john
  • luv4lacrosse
    luv4lacrosse Member Posts: 1,410 Member
    #5
    LIVE FOR THE NOW AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
    I have had this discussion with my wife many times. I am cancer free as of my last PET Scan in February, and all looks good with the every 90 day ENT Prod, Poke and Probe. My kids are soon to be 22 and soon to be 20 and in College. If I died tomorrow, I have been a good husband and a good parent. If I die 40 years from now, the same would still apply. I do not advocate purposely doing anything that will cause harm or make a current situation worse, but I am not going to let a few beers or a good steak scare me from living my life.

    It feels so good to return to just about my old normal self, minus a few annoying side effects that I accept and can most definitely live with. I am good with now only eating 4-8 ounces of a good Ribeye Steak once every one to two weeks VS the 3-4 times a week, and I am perfectly happy not drinking Grey Goose any more but will drink a few beers if I feel like it. Cancer has forced me to eat better than ever before, (I ate a good diet before, but too many helpings), I also cannot tolerate any hard liquor, and feel it is worse for your body in general. I am very happy with my new normal, and intend to enjoy my life weather I am here for 4 months or 40 more years. I tried the "abstain from everything" because it will kill me, and was completely miserable. Sorry to ramble, but your post makes allot of sense, and trying to live and be truly happy VS just having a pulse but still alive is something I bet we all think about.

    Best!!

    Mike
  • adventurebob
    adventurebob Member Posts: 691
    #6
    Yep
    Hey Roger,

    The hammer has always been poised to fall. Enjoying as much as we can before it does has always been a great idea. I've found a new freedom in knowing that it will most likely fall sooner than later for me. Work is much less important. TV feels like more of a waste of time than it already did. Time with friends is more precious. Time in nature is more sacred. I also considered throwing on my pack and disappearing into Grand Canyon instead of doing treatment. Glad I didn't as I'd most likely be dead in Grand Canyon right now. I'm hoping I don't have a recurrence anytime soon but if I do I'll most likely do what needs to be done to kill the f'in thing again. Each day alive brings us closer to a cure I believe or a new technology that works better. Here's to the wizards finding a good one for you and for many more days.

    AB
  • DrMary
    DrMary Member Posts: 531 Member
    #7
    Life as Fiction
    I read a thriller a while back in which a guy, having thwarted an attempt to infect the US with an unstoppable virus, realizes he got contaminated at the last minute. Rather than head for quarantine to die (after lots of nasty treatments) he heads for his favorite spot, high on a mountain, to await the end. Of course, in the next chapter, we read that scientists just determined that the virus was rendered inert at high altitudes. . .

    I think the author knew someone going through cancer treatments. . . .it's a nice dream.

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