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Hurts So Good

mswijiknyc
mswijiknyc CSN Member Posts: 421
in Grief and Bereavement #1
C'mon baby make it hurt so good/Sometimes love don't feel like it should/You make it hurt so good

Ever get a massage when you're really tensed up? It's so freaking painful but OMG it's the most incredible feeling. A good hurt, a good pain.

Yes, I know I'm speaking in oxymorons, just bear with me.

This Sunday past (July 17, the five month mark) I went to the Nu-Voices summer party. Nu-Voices is a support group for laryngectomys and their families. I had a good time hanging out with everyone. I'm always the youngest in the room, but it's fun.

The part that hurt so good was listening not the the ELs, but hearing the larygectomys with ELs breathe. I can't accurately describe the sound that a lary makes when they breathe, but it's very distinctive. The air coming from the stoma is a very particular sound.

And it sounded and felt like Patrick was with me. Just with that sound.

Hurts so good.
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  • Tina Blondek
    Tina Blondek CSN Member Posts: 1,500 Member
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    Good For You
    Hey April
    Good to see you posting with some good feeling news! Glad you have found a support group, made some new friends, and felt Patrick was with you. God bless you and continue to give you the strength you will need. Keep in touch.
    Tina in Va
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