So it's my 3rd day post 6th chemo and I am achey and sore and in the middle of moving and I am tired. I try to stay positive but everything is pissing me off. I try to put on a front that I am okay because I don't want to burden any body, but I am finding it more difficult and I am trying to relax, but can't. Because I am 31 everyone I know is having kids and that is upsetting me too because I can't. I dont want to act mad around them because it's not there fault I can't gave kids but it's hard for me to get excited for them and I am just putting on a fake front and I feel like i have nobody to talk to about it. I just want to feel normal again. I want my ostomy reversed and I don't want to be a cancer patient anymore. I need words of encouragement. Before I loose it. Thanks teal sisters.