Well we're here

Well we got all settled in this evening to Hope Lodge. It's a really nice place. I just want to break down and cry tonight, but don't feel like I can. Leaving my house was the hardest thing I've had to do in years. I don't want to leave my home, my hubby, my dogs. The list goes on and on. I don't want to be here. I don't want to go through this transplant. I don't want cancer.

The harvest hopefully will start tomorrow provided there are enough stem cells floating around in my blood.

Well I think my body is way too tired and I need to go to bed. I will write more tomorrow.

Take care,
Beth

Comments

  • forme
    forme Member Posts: 1,161 Member
    So hard
    Hi Beth,

    I'm glad you are settled. I can't fully understand how hard this is for you, but I can feel your pain. I'm keeping you close in my heart and will be thinking of you tomorrow.

    I wish I could be there to hold your hand or lend you a shoulder to lean on, but all I can do is offer you love and support and sends you cyber (((hugs))).

    I know that you will write when you are up to it. I am glad that your sister is with you.
    I'll be praying that the time will fly by and you will be home heading into remission.

    Peaceful healing
    Lisha

    PS I miss you on the chat...
  • vinny59
    vinny59 Member Posts: 1,032
    stay strong
    Beth, I hope all goes well, don't push yourself, you are doing the right things to get better, time moves very quickly, you will be home before you know it!!!! Vinny
  • Chris17
    Chris17 Member Posts: 175
    vinny59 said:

    stay strong
    Beth, I hope all goes well, don't push yourself, you are doing the right things to get better, time moves very quickly, you will be home before you know it!!!! Vinny

    Will be praying for you
    Beth i know its hard, but you arent alone , you have alot of ppl on this site that are with you in spirit giving you support and prayers along your journey,you are stronger than you think, remember we are here for you sending good thoughts your way
    Chris
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    Your pain
    Dearest Beth,

    How well I know how you feel. In Sept 2009 when my bowel perforated, I was in
    the hospital 3 whole weeks. When I thought I was feeling better, and wanted to
    go home to my house, my grandson who was staying with me at the time, and my 2 cats.
    The doctors said NO. They wanted to make sure I had a support system at home (my
    husband passed away in 2004). My grandson wasn't enough. My dearest friend then
    put up her hand, and said she would stay with me, and she did for over 1 week. The
    doctors were even thinking about a nursing home while I recuperated. My daughter could
    not stay because of her job. All I wanted to do was go home to everything familiar, and
    all my friends who would stop by. I missed my cats so much also.

    Beth, it came to an end. Just remember, everything comes to an end. The good and the bad.
    Here I am typing at home, and feeling good. Just remember this is for you getting better,
    and you will go home. It will end.

    Prayers and angels watching over you. All my love Maggie
  • Michele23
    Michele23 Member Posts: 168
    Chris17 said:

    Will be praying for you
    Beth i know its hard, but you arent alone , you have alot of ppl on this site that are with you in spirit giving you support and prayers along your journey,you are stronger than you think, remember we are here for you sending good thoughts your way
    Chris

    Peaceful thoughts
    Beth,Grab hold of the guardian angel I sent you and hold on tight.She'll be there with you and we'll be there in thought.Hugs,Michele dx95FNHL3
  • miss maggie
    miss maggie Member Posts: 929
    Also
    Beth, I cried everyday, every night at the hospital. They had to give me something to
    calm down.

    Maggie