“The Fight Has Come to a Stop” – Not the Results Post

Sundanceh

Once Again - Many Thanks.....
Well, I just wanted to drop back into this post and acknowledge and thank everyone for their participation in this thread. I really appreciate your replies.

Getting ready to return to work again next week, so it will good to get back into the workflow and as the days continue to pass, I expect to start feeling much better. I'll be glad to take that:)

And thanks to everyone for the PMs, it was nice to hear from you.

This past year seems like "another lifetime" for me - I remember all too well staring out the hospital window and watching life pass by before me and wondering what it would take this time to get back there once more.

I must have looked like some kind of sight walking those hallways - 2 gowns on, cheap clogs, my yellow "fall risk" socks, 2 chest tubes hooked up to those "suitcases" where your blood plasma drains, and an oxygen tank - all in tow.

It is nice to be coming out of all of this...I hope that the results will be good - until then I'll practice "patience" and hope for the best.

Thank you again for your continued support and thanks to all of the new folks I met on this post:)

-Craig

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Sundanceh said:

Once Again - Many Thanks.....
Well, I just wanted to drop back into this post and acknowledge and thank everyone for their participation in this thread. I really appreciate your replies.

Getting ready to return to work again next week, so it will good to get back into the workflow and as the days continue to pass, I expect to start feeling much better. I'll be glad to take that:)

And thanks to everyone for the PMs, it was nice to hear from you.

This past year seems like "another lifetime" for me - I remember all too well staring out the hospital window and watching life pass by before me and wondering what it would take this time to get back there once more.

I must have looked like some kind of sight walking those hallways - 2 gowns on, cheap clogs, my yellow "fall risk" socks, 2 chest tubes hooked up to those "suitcases" where your blood plasma drains, and an oxygen tank - all in tow.

It is nice to be coming out of all of this...I hope that the results will be good - until then I'll practice "patience" and hope for the best.

Thank you again for your continued support and thanks to all of the new folks I met on this post:)

-Craig

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kristasplace

Wonderful to hear from you, Craig
I come to the board only once in a while, and every time i do, i first scan all the posts looking for one from you. Thank you for keeping us up to date on your status. I think about you, and many others on this board every single day, and try to send positive thoughts your way. You really are one of the toughest people, both of character, and determination that i've ever had the honor to know. It's your enlightenment and awareness of the gifts cancer can bring that will carry you through this. You're an amazing light that cancer cannot squelch, as hard as it may try.

Much love, and many hugs, darlin! I'll be watching for those results.

Krista

sharpy102

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Craig: you might remember me...I'm still far off for being able to work, hence no penny here whatsoever. And although, luckily, I do not have to worry on spending money for CT scans, but I know how sucks it is when you know that there's so much you can do since you don't have the money. I will be here always on this board...this board became sort of my family after I lost mine, and...long story. Now I'm back in children's home and probably that is how it will stay until I turn 18, or 21? I don't know when we could leave. LOL Anyway, I'm not saying it's heaven here, but I'm not in a rush to leave either as I would not survive too long out in the middle of nowhere. And you are amazing! You've gone through so much and you fight so hard! I really really value that, and I wish I was half as strong as you are! I only fought once....lost. And ever since my world changed, and I am not willing to fight for anything...I know it's not a good attitude, and yet, I do it. But you are of the opposite! Something that makes me really jealous! Don't give up! We need you here! All the best!
Sophie

mommyof2kds

sharpy102 said:

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Craig: you might remember me...I'm still far off for being able to work, hence no penny here whatsoever. And although, luckily, I do not have to worry on spending money for CT scans, but I know how sucks it is when you know that there's so much you can do since you don't have the money. I will be here always on this board...this board became sort of my family after I lost mine, and...long story. Now I'm back in children's home and probably that is how it will stay until I turn 18, or 21? I don't know when we could leave. LOL Anyway, I'm not saying it's heaven here, but I'm not in a rush to leave either as I would not survive too long out in the middle of nowhere. And you are amazing! You've gone through so much and you fight so hard! I really really value that, and I wish I was half as strong as you are! I only fought once....lost. And ever since my world changed, and I am not willing to fight for anything...I know it's not a good attitude, and yet, I do it. But you are of the opposite! Something that makes me really jealous! Don't give up! We need you here! All the best!
Sophie

Craig, wish I could give you
Craig, wish I could give you a big hug. You are an inspiration to all of us, your words are so real and full of feeling. Please know I think of you often. You are always in my prayers. God Bles Petrina

relaxoutdoors08

What a Journey - Demonstrating Real Courage
Craig,
Each day I pray for Courage, Hope and Health. When I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer, had surgery and had a three week wait for a scan for final diagnosis, I had the Catholic Priest give me the Blessing for my Journey. I share with you these powerful Words of Prayer for you as you wait for the RESULTS. You have certainly demonstrated the Courage, and Hope on your Journey so we pray for your Health.

My husband Craig has had a tough time knowing how to provide support and prepare for all possibilities as we go through the Journey. Sometimes we have higher expectations for our spouse that they can "be all at all times for us" = They have a tough time knowing what to say or do to make it better for us.

I must admit that when our best man from our wedding lost his 15 year battle with cancer I remember having our last meaningful conversation when the cancer was back for the 3rd time and I am sorry that I did not go see him as he fought the final few months of his journey. I now understand that I was afraid. Afraid of what to say, because I did not want to make it harder for him but I also was afraid because I wanted to remember him when he was at "his fighting spirit" so I feel bad that I was not there for him. I think the people you think would be there for you might also have the toughest time in knowing what to say and what to do.

I just found this board after I finished my Folfox Treatment but I am appreciating it now. Thanks for your comments and support on the board for all of us.

Paula G.

Still peeking
I still look in now and then. Craig, you are such a great person. I just had to let you know that I still think about each and every one of you.

It has been hard with John (JR) being gone. He loved reading your posts. My bets are always going to be on you LOL. Paula

pepebcn

Paula G. said:

Still peeking
I still look in now and then. Craig, you are such a great person. I just had to let you know that I still think about each and every one of you.

It has been hard with John (JR) being gone. He loved reading your posts. My bets are always going to be on you LOL. Paula

Sorry Craig for hijacking your post but....
Paula it's great to see you and hear from you! .
Just a big hug,

braelee2

wow
wow, You have been through alot but it shows how strong you are. I will always keep you in my prayer. I cried reading your post. We are all hear for you never fill that you don't have someone to talk to . We are all ready to talk. Love ya

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kristasplace

sharpy102 said:

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Craig: you might remember me...I'm still far off for being able to work, hence no penny here whatsoever. And although, luckily, I do not have to worry on spending money for CT scans, but I know how sucks it is when you know that there's so much you can do since you don't have the money. I will be here always on this board...this board became sort of my family after I lost mine, and...long story. Now I'm back in children's home and probably that is how it will stay until I turn 18, or 21? I don't know when we could leave. LOL Anyway, I'm not saying it's heaven here, but I'm not in a rush to leave either as I would not survive too long out in the middle of nowhere. And you are amazing! You've gone through so much and you fight so hard! I really really value that, and I wish I was half as strong as you are! I only fought once....lost. And ever since my world changed, and I am not willing to fight for anything...I know it's not a good attitude, and yet, I do it. But you are of the opposite! Something that makes me really jealous! Don't give up! We need you here! All the best!
Sophie

Sophie, I love seeing you
Sophie, I love seeing you post! I think about you a lot, and always use you as an example when my neice and nephew complain about their mother! Someday you'll see what a pillar of strength you were during your roughest time, and you'll realize you own the world. I wish i could adopt you!

Craig, you're just amazing!