To all here with feelings of Hopelessness...A gift and short journal from a Saint and a Survivor...T
Today they said I had cancer.
They patted my leg and I could feel their sorrow in delivering this news.
Today I learned I was entering a new world, none of which I had ever dreamed of.
Today my life changed forever.
Today nothing will ever be simple or taken for granted.
Today I start my life over, every moment a blessing.
Today I learned to fight the foes in my own body.
Today I told my family I WOULD LIVE.
Today I gave up hope.
Today I regained my hope.
Today I gave up all hope.
Today I trusted in the Lord.
Today I trusted in my friends and family.
Today is never a constant, today is what I make it.
Every day is my only today.
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Thank you, I'm going to hang
Thank you, I'm going to hang in as long as this cancer will let me. My six months live to date is in August, I'm going to beat that, I'm going to see Christmas and beyond by golly.
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Stanford
I called today to see what, when or where.
They called back, and they are meeting tomorrow at 3:30PM, so I may not hear until Thursday, the three "w's".
The only hold up will be Dr. Visser, as his surgery takes hours, and so he is usually booked pretty solid, just one a day for him. So waiting for the news.
June 25, 2010 - 10:37pm
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Ah ...but Alas the Starfish
with 5 appendages thought that if one appendage was lost it was doomed to peril, but then only to find that the appendage that had been taken off was to grow back even healthier than before. The liver is another that will regenerate itself if given the opportunity to do so. So as the Starfish thought the loss of a leg was soon to be its doom, it turns out that it was a blessing in disguise to be replaced by a healthier one. Yours Im sure will turn out the same some day. To become resectable and then offered the capability to regenerate itself, and there my hopeful one will be the answer to your diliema and the start of a new journey in life...
June 28, 2010 - 12:05am
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Remember all that Doom and Gloom?
Heck, I sure do. Not going to live, gave my stuff away, made my plans for this super nice wake for everyone to go to, you'll never have surgery, blah, blah, blah.
And here I am, was scared about CEA last couple of weeks because it went up .2 the last visit and lots of aches in bones.
Well, turns out it's arthritis and I'm gonna live a few years, well, many if the surgeons are correct in their predictions.
So I guess I'm going to be around awhile, so pardon me, while I go do a happy dance, heck I might even wait for nightfall and do a naked happy dance in the back yard.
Love at all you, and thanks having been here and for being here for me.
Winter Marie
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Awesome
Powerful post from the author and the poster. Thanks Winter Marie for being so honest with your feelings. You, my friend, have been through so much and I'm so proud of where you are at now. Hope you did that naked happy dance Thanks Buzz for reminding us of those few simple sentences that can give us hope.
Hugs! Kim0 -
Beautiful!
That's so beautiful! Thanks for taking the time to glean all those gems from our dear Winter!
*hugs*
Gail
PS Winter, may I borrow the firt part of that (with all the today's)? My Relay team is doing a Cancer Awareness Day at church on May 15. We'll have a tree with angels that people can purchase for $1 to honor or remember someone with cancer, and we'll be doing special songs and readings during the service. I think what you wrote would fit in so beautifully.0 -
Tootsietootsie1 said:Beautiful!
That's so beautiful! Thanks for taking the time to glean all those gems from our dear Winter!
*hugs*
Gail
PS Winter, may I borrow the firt part of that (with all the today's)? My Relay team is doing a Cancer Awareness Day at church on May 15. We'll have a tree with angels that people can purchase for $1 to honor or remember someone with cancer, and we'll be doing special songs and readings during the service. I think what you wrote would fit in so beautifully.
Be my guest my dear.
Winter Marie0 -
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AnneAnneCan said:This sounds vaguly
This sounds vaguly familiar.....
Probably because these are old posts of mine that Buzz found and posted.
Winter Marie0 -
Winter Marieherdizziness said:Anne
Probably because these are old posts of mine that Buzz found and posted.
Winter Marie
I know; I was being a smart azz! I love your story + appreciate Buzz stringing those posts together. I still remember your first post + how it pulled at my heart, but look at you now! Are you still dancing or are you taking a break?0 -
AnneAnneCan said:Winter Marie
I know; I was being a smart azz! I love your story + appreciate Buzz stringing those posts together. I still remember your first post + how it pulled at my heart, but look at you now! Are you still dancing or are you taking a break?
Still dancing!!0 -
Good!herdizziness said:Anne
Still dancing!!
I want to be like you when I grow up.0 -
first of allAnneCan said:Good!
I want to be like you when I grow up.
what a blessing to read this post on Easter morning.thanks buzz for the effort and time you put into this.it is wonderful.and last but not least thank you winter marie for being who you are.i have not yet got to know you very well but you seem to be a very strong person,one who i admire and gives me the hope and strength to go on.thanks again to you both....Godbless....johnnybegood0 -
good research buzz !johnnybegood said:first of all
what a blessing to read this post on Easter morning.thanks buzz for the effort and time you put into this.it is wonderful.and last but not least thank you winter marie for being who you are.i have not yet got to know you very well but you seem to be a very strong person,one who i admire and gives me the hope and strength to go on.thanks again to you both....Godbless....johnnybegood
Winter happy ehh!...
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Thanksherdizziness said:Anne
Still dancing!!
Thanks for the postings and positive attitude. I too believe in the power of prayer and positive thinking, and I think I'm going to like it here....many of you have such strong positive feelings - it's awesome!0
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