Hello everyone. My name is Trishell. I was diagnosed with stage 3c ovarian cancer two weeks ago. I don't know anything about cancer or what is going on with me. I had extremely bad abdominal pains and after several diagnoses and ER visits, I was told that I needed surgery for a total abdominal hysterectomy. It was after the surgery when I was told that I had cancer. They took out all of the big lumps of cancer and the tumor. I have to go through chemo on the 22nd of this month. I am so scared and depressed. I have a very supportive family but no one to talk to about being depressed. I am tired of them telling me to be positive when I don't feel that way. I would give anything to be happy and optimistic. It's just not that easy. I have 6 children that I love dearly and was about to work on my last. Yes, I am blessed that I had my kids before this happened but was not ready to stop just yet. Most people do not understand how I feel about that since I have so many. I feel so weak most of the time and cannot interact with my young children like they would like for me to. It is a hurting feeling. I am so scared. I don't know anything about chemo. I have lost 25 pounds already. I try to eat but cannot. I try to sleep but cannot. I NEED help/advice/something. PLEASE. I just want to give up. I dont think that my body can take it. I have read some of you guys' posts and you are so strong. I am used to listening to peoples stories. Not writing my own. Well, that's the best short story about what's going on that I think I can give. ANYTHING would probably help right now. I have so many questions.