One more treatment after today and I'm mopped up!

TMac52
TMac52 Member Posts: 352
in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hey Guys awhile back I posted my concern about staying on the folfox train. I was truly afraid of the damage it was doing I stuck it out after reading all of the responses. Some were for stopping and some were for staying on the chemo. Most importantly all the responses I recieved were from people who were concerned for me and wanted nothing more than for me to be comfortable with my decision. I think the response I got from Clift (Buzzard) was the one that made me decide to stay on the chemo. Thanks to all who cared enough to comment.

I was pretty sick as i'm sure many of you have experienced. 2 weeks ago the doctors decided my feet were pretty bad and stopped the oxcaliplatin so I had the lucivorin(I think this spelling is wrong But Yall know what I mean) and 5fu and did that again today. I feel much better but still have lingering effects that I think will last awhile and a few issues that will last forever but I'm alive.

2 weeks from today will be my last chemo (i hope forever) and the docs were talking today about port removal,scans and colonscopy. This was a very welcoming discussion because I didnt expect it. But got really excited (for a littl while )about the possibility that this nightmare may almost be over. My prognosis for cure is very good but I'm afraid to get my hopes up too high.

I still take it all a day at a time it's the only way to keep my sanity and remain very aware of the people here who continue to fight for their lives on a daily basis in some cases for many years. I pray every night for all of you. You have done so much for me. I am full of gratitude tonight (can you tell) and just wanted to share it with everyone, i'm out. goodnight, Tom
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  • Buckwirth
    Buckwirth Member Posts: 1,258 Member
    #2
    Great News
    Congratulations on making it through! Hopefully, in a couple of years, this will all seem like a bad dream.
  • HollyID
    HollyID Member Posts: 946 Member
    #3
    Tom,
    So glad you decided to stay on it. Folfox wasn't too bad for me. I'm wishing and hoping that the foot thing goes away! Congrats on doing finishing in two weeks. I LOVE being done with chemo.

    Holly
  • Buzzard
    Buzzard Member Posts: 3,043 Member
    #4
    Yeah, Its hard to tell that you are a little bit happy......LOL
    Don't blame you bud...I certainly hope that you never have to deal with this again either, but something to think about...Myself, so that if something might actually ever happen to me again. I have already picked the place, my option for removal (if tumour) (Canuck spelling) my treatment regimen will hopefully be RFA ...I just get kind of a pre plan simply to trick my sub conscious into thinking that if it happens a plan is in place. There should be less of a jolt if it does. If it doesn't then by getting a plan pre planned out it helps me to forget it all a little easier cause it has me with all of my ducks in a row...everything planned ahead of time now I can forget about it...If it comes, im ready if it don't Im ready...its a mental thing but it works for me.....
    Tom, You most likely will always look back over your shoulder . Its something all of us try not to do but hard not to...In any form or fashion that will keep you from doing that very thing you need to find something as I have done to allow you to really truly enjoy your life and be able to plan for 5-10 even 20 years out...and be serious about being there to do those things...What ever it takes to allow you to forget cancer do it...If it means leaving this site, do it, we'll miss ya but do it. I know that dismissing yourself for a while does let you go a lot longer not thinking about this. Do what you must to enjoy 110% of life...You have been through enough and we need a great success story, might as well be you...LOL. Im sure you agree with that one...You have been through the worst, now its time for a little payback...be your best at enjoying what you have worked so hard for....Life....Love, Hope, and a cure for us all in 2011..................buzz.....
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    #5
    Tom
    I am truly happy for you + hope only smooth sailing is ahead for you.
  • SisterSledge
    SisterSledge Member Posts: 332 Member
    #6
    Buzzard said:

    Yeah, Its hard to tell that you are a little bit happy......LOL
    Don't blame you bud...I certainly hope that you never have to deal with this again either, but something to think about...Myself, so that if something might actually ever happen to me again. I have already picked the place, my option for removal (if tumour) (Canuck spelling) my treatment regimen will hopefully be RFA ...I just get kind of a pre plan simply to trick my sub conscious into thinking that if it happens a plan is in place. There should be less of a jolt if it does. If it doesn't then by getting a plan pre planned out it helps me to forget it all a little easier cause it has me with all of my ducks in a row...everything planned ahead of time now I can forget about it...If it comes, im ready if it don't Im ready...its a mental thing but it works for me.....
    Tom, You most likely will always look back over your shoulder . Its something all of us try not to do but hard not to...In any form or fashion that will keep you from doing that very thing you need to find something as I have done to allow you to really truly enjoy your life and be able to plan for 5-10 even 20 years out...and be serious about being there to do those things...What ever it takes to allow you to forget cancer do it...If it means leaving this site, do it, we'll miss ya but do it. I know that dismissing yourself for a while does let you go a lot longer not thinking about this. Do what you must to enjoy 110% of life...You have been through enough and we need a great success story, might as well be you...LOL. Im sure you agree with that one...You have been through the worst, now its time for a little payback...be your best at enjoying what you have worked so hard for....Life....Love, Hope, and a cure for us all in 2011..................buzz.....

    Yeah, what Buzz said...
    Couldn't say it better myself :)
    Janine
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    #7
    good to hear!
    Hi Tom,

    It's really good to hear that you're hearing good things from your oncology team.
    I sure hope that you will truly be able to stop the chemo forever!
    Hang in there!

    Lisa
  • pete43lost_at_sea
    pete43lost_at_sea Member Posts: 3,900 Member
    #8
    it's the only way to keep my sanity
    hi tom,

    its great news and I pray your clear of our curse for good.

    I am glad you have keep your sanity, mine is questionable.

    living in the moment and enjoying today is probably the best thing we can learn out of this.

    cheers,

    Pete
  • belindahill
    belindahill Member Posts: 144
    #9
    good luck
    My husbands on his last round of chemo, CT 28th march results 7th april. Can understand how you are feeling at the moment. I hope its all looks good for you. Wishing you the very best.
  • Lovekitties
    Lovekitties Member Posts: 3,364 Member
    #10
    Good news for sure
    I am glad you are down to the last treatment. I am sure it was a hard road, but you made it. Sounds like you need to be planning a celebration!

    As for the future, the way I look at this is if I am not actively in the fight then I am doing good. If things change, then I will worry about it then. That way this disease doesn't eat into the good days.

    Take care and be sure to remind us when you get to that magic day of the last treatment!

    Hugs,

    Marie who loves kitties
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117 Member
    #11
    Lovekitties said:

    Good news for sure
    I am glad you are down to the last treatment. I am sure it was a hard road, but you made it. Sounds like you need to be planning a celebration!

    As for the future, the way I look at this is if I am not actively in the fight then I am doing good. If things change, then I will worry about it then. That way this disease doesn't eat into the good days.

    Take care and be sure to remind us when you get to that magic day of the last treatment!

    Hugs,

    Marie who loves kitties

    congrats
    you deserve it i know you have been thru a lot.just think you will be doing the happy naked dance soon...Godbless...johnnybegood
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #12
    johnnybegood said:

    congrats
    you deserve it i know you have been thru a lot.just think you will be doing the happy naked dance soon...Godbless...johnnybegood

    well done
    oh Tom what good news.....soon over....yayyyyyy

    mags
  • Kenny H.
    Kenny H. Member Posts: 502 Member
    #13
    maglets said:

    well done
    oh Tom what good news.....soon over....yayyyyyy

    mags

    Congrats....
    I go in for round #10 today, getting close.
  • dianetavegia
    dianetavegia Member Posts: 1,942 Member
    #14
    Tom
    I'm really glad you went ahead with the chemo. I was concerned because you said you were stage III prior to surgery and then they said stage I after radiation, chemo and surgery. Well, many times, most times, staging after radiation and chemo sounds 'lower' but the first staging is always the lowest TRUE staging. You can go UP, but you can never go DOWN. Your chance of never being sick again is very, very high! I'd love to have our odds when playing the lottery! LOL

    Hang in there kiddo! 14 days and you're done!
  • hopeforcure49
    hopeforcure49 Member Posts: 111
    #15
    Happy for you Tom
    I'm glad your almost over. I know how good it feels to be off that chemo. Your body just gets a breath of fresh air. And don't forget to do just that. Have fun, enjoy, and think healthy. I've been away from the site while, trying to focus on treatmets and family issues. I'm going for my 6th treatment after my liver resection. up coming cea levels and ct scan in April, then will figure something out. Hope all goes well for you, keep you in my thoughts. Blessings Lourdes. Hey Now you can get back on your motorcycle. Give me a buzz and we can get together. My husband and my 3 kids ride, and I met a friend at chemo she rides a Yamaha 1700. A trip to Canada Niagra Falls sounds good to me. :))
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #16
    EZ Post and Not Long:)
    Semper Fi, Tom!

    -Craig
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238 Member
    #17
    Congratulation's Tom :) you
    Congratulation's Tom :) you have been very strong in this unwelcomed journey and a big inspiration to me. Makes me smile when I get to read others had positive conversations with their Dr's. You're going to do great my friend!

    Love and hugs, Gail
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238 Member
    #18
    Buzzard said:

    Yeah, Its hard to tell that you are a little bit happy......LOL
    Don't blame you bud...I certainly hope that you never have to deal with this again either, but something to think about...Myself, so that if something might actually ever happen to me again. I have already picked the place, my option for removal (if tumour) (Canuck spelling) my treatment regimen will hopefully be RFA ...I just get kind of a pre plan simply to trick my sub conscious into thinking that if it happens a plan is in place. There should be less of a jolt if it does. If it doesn't then by getting a plan pre planned out it helps me to forget it all a little easier cause it has me with all of my ducks in a row...everything planned ahead of time now I can forget about it...If it comes, im ready if it don't Im ready...its a mental thing but it works for me.....
    Tom, You most likely will always look back over your shoulder . Its something all of us try not to do but hard not to...In any form or fashion that will keep you from doing that very thing you need to find something as I have done to allow you to really truly enjoy your life and be able to plan for 5-10 even 20 years out...and be serious about being there to do those things...What ever it takes to allow you to forget cancer do it...If it means leaving this site, do it, we'll miss ya but do it. I know that dismissing yourself for a while does let you go a lot longer not thinking about this. Do what you must to enjoy 110% of life...You have been through enough and we need a great success story, might as well be you...LOL. Im sure you agree with that one...You have been through the worst, now its time for a little payback...be your best at enjoying what you have worked so hard for....Life....Love, Hope, and a cure for us all in 2011..................buzz.....

    I love what Buzz said :)

    I love what Buzz said :)
  • Lori-S
    Lori-S Member Posts: 1,277 Member
    #19
    Congratulations!
    Hey Tom, how happy you must be! Last FOLFOX treatment coming? Talk of port removal?? woo hoo!
  • Nana b
    Nana b Member Posts: 3,030 Member
    #20
    Lori-S said:

    Congratulations!
    Hey Tom, how happy you must be! Last FOLFOX treatment coming? Talk of port removal?? woo hoo!

    Almost done, yeah!
    Yes, what they all said!! Buzzard you need a picture where you are smiling you look too mean, and I know that you aren't!
  • Friendinpenn
    Friendinpenn Member Posts: 70
    #21
    WOW.................
    This is great news...I wish you well friend...

    Your Friend-in-Penn

    Jim

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