thankful

mollyz
mollyz Member Posts: 756 Member
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I had a melt down today,as some of you know i live on a farm ,well i took a long over due walk today in the pasture,i haven't done that since last summer right after the mastectomy well it's a big hill of dirt in the pasture and i always stand on it, well today i cried when i stood on it because after all I've been through i made it back to my hill silly right? but it felt g o o d I am so thankful. MOLLYZ

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  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #2
    Molly, sometimes it just takes a big hill of dirt!
    Glad you made it back up to that big hill of dirt and re-centered. We've all come such a long way--sometimes going back to what is familiar is therapeutic.

    Glad you got there.

    Hugs, Renee
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
    #3
    missrenee said:

    Molly, sometimes it just takes a big hill of dirt!
    Glad you made it back up to that big hill of dirt and re-centered. We've all come such a long way--sometimes going back to what is familiar is therapeutic.

    Glad you got there.

    Hugs, Renee

    Molly,
    I can see that this
    Molly,
    I can see that this was so much more than a hill of dirt. It was a reclaiming of life. There are so many songs and expressions about climbing mountains like It's The Ride, Climb Every Mountain, and one of my posters reads The man at the top of the mountain did not fall there. Life is a climb and sometimes like what you have been through a struggle but we just keep moving onward and upward. Standing on top of your personal mountain was life affirming. Tears are good also. Tears help to wash away our fears and give us strength.
    Thanks for sharing this moment with us. We are always here for you.
    Stef
  • cavediver
    cavediver Member Posts: 607
    #4
    I can visualize you on top
    I can visualize you on top of your hill and it lifts my spirits! You have reclaimed your place.......you have taken charge........ I can see you there in my minds eye.........Yeah!
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #5
    What a beautiful sentiment
    Isn't it amazing how the smallest things all of sudden seem so special?
    All these things we used to take for granted. I am so happy for you. I love
    the picture of you standing on your hill and crying tears of joy and relief!

    Love,
    Ayse
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    #6
    No, it wasn't silly. You're
    No, it wasn't silly. You're getting back to who you are. Feels good don't it. I think nature is healing. I like the sky.
  • aisling8
    aisling8 Member Posts: 1,627 Member
    #7
    Marcia527 said:

    No, it wasn't silly. You're
    No, it wasn't silly. You're getting back to who you are. Feels good don't it. I think nature is healing. I like the sky.

    You made my day!
    You and your hill of dirt and the tears and the remembering the fear but today the gratitude pouring out of you -- oh, I get it!!!

    Good story and good for you!

    xoxo
    Victoria
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    #8
    aisling8 said:

    You made my day!
    You and your hill of dirt and the tears and the remembering the fear but today the gratitude pouring out of you -- oh, I get it!!!

    Good story and good for you!

    xoxo
    Victoria

    I think what you did was
    I think what you did was great. There was someone on here once that told about buying a bunch of cheap glass dishes and she went into her kitchen and broke them all, yelling, screaming and even cussing I think. But, it got the rage out of her that she had been holding onto. She felt great afterwords.

    Glad you did it!
  • jessiesmom1
    jessiesmom1 Member Posts: 915 Member
    #9
    Hill of Dirt
    Hi Molly,

    It was absolutely NOT silly to cry when you made it out to that hill of dirt. Like others said, it was symbolic of the journey back to health. I think only someone who has been through what we have can truly understand what a big deal a seemingly innocuous pile of dirt can be. In my case, when I stood at the bottom of my daughter's dorm steps 5 weeks after finishing chemo and looked up toward her 2nd floor room (no elevator)and then got to the top, I also felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.

    Congratulations. May you walk to that big hill of dirt in the pasture often.
  • PinkPearl
    PinkPearl Member Posts: 280
    #10
    So glad you shared!
    I can just see you on your hill in the pasture! How special! I grew up on a farm and used to love to roam all over exploring every corner. I miss that now--but I do have some pretty places to walk so I need to get out and enjoy them. You aren't silly - you know how beautiful and good life can be.
  • ladyg
    ladyg Member Posts: 1,577
    #11
    That was not
    a silly thing to do. You did it because you wanted to go back to being you again. I felt kind of like that when I was able to return to water areobics after rads. It was just something I needed to do for me. You needed to walk that hill for you.

    Hugs,
    Georgia
  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    #12
    not silly at all
    it's a safe place for you...comfort...we all have something...Happy you got to take the walk
  • cahjah75
    cahjah75 Member Posts: 2,631
    #13
    Molly - not silly at all!
    That pile of dirt meant a lot to reach the top! You made it!
    {{hugs}} Char
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    #14
    ladyg said:

    That was not
    a silly thing to do. You did it because you wanted to go back to being you again. I felt kind of like that when I was able to return to water areobics after rads. It was just something I needed to do for me. You needed to walk that hill for you.

    Hugs,
    Georgia

    No, not silly, but, very
    No, not silly, but, very helpful! Happy you did it sister!
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    #15
    What a beauty there is this
    What a beauty there is this story, thank you for sharing it with us.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    #16
    Gabe N Abby Mom said:

    What a beauty there is this
    What a beauty there is this story, thank you for sharing it with us.

    Hugs,

    Linda

    Caner can sure put things
    in a whole different perspective. NOT silly in the least. I sometimes can hardly contain my tears when I'm in a grateful feeling. And it can be the simplest of things.

    That hill has meaning to you. It stands for something. Perhaps...maybe it was the realization that you stood at that hill, as you've done so many times but this time, you climbed that hill as a different person. It's overwhelming.


    Thank you for sharing.

    Hugs,


    Sylvia
  • 2Floridiansisters
    2Floridiansisters Member Posts: 384 Member
    #17
    sea60 said:

    Caner can sure put things
    in a whole different perspective. NOT silly in the least. I sometimes can hardly contain my tears when I'm in a grateful feeling. And it can be the simplest of things.

    That hill has meaning to you. It stands for something. Perhaps...maybe it was the realization that you stood at that hill, as you've done so many times but this time, you climbed that hill as a different person. It's overwhelming.


    Thank you for sharing.

    Hugs,


    Sylvia

    We totally understand
    Not silly at all.

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