Well I relized how this cancer has made me bitter and how it changes your life. first I relized how you live week to week. one week all i do is lay around and sleep. And the next week all I do is try to catch up on all the stuff i did/t do. Second thing I relized is that is an up hill battle when u get cancer. With chemo, sideffects, money, insurances , medicines. I lose my medical insurace on the 28 and I have to find some so I can finish my treatment. And Third I relized I am getting mean, I yelled at this poor lady on the phone last night she called to ask me to donate money for breast cancer and I told her at this time I could not . And she would not take no for an answer and I kinda snapped and said I have colon cancer and Im loseing mu insurance and maynot be able to finish my chemo. Now I feel really bad... And I now found out that our wealfare office has medican ****. for women who have breast cancer. WHAT ABOUT US!!!!!! Sorry just venting..