I HATE this recession~ my 90% from yesterday is only worth 70% today

chenheart
chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
in Breast Cancer #1
So...short and not so sweet! I met with my Breast surgeon today, who looked at my PET scan and felt my obvious lump. She unfortunately did not rule out cancer ( as I was dreaming she would), but even before doing the biopsy this morning ( may I just say OUCH?!) she already knew it was malignant, and needs to have that diagnosis verified.
I went from the biopsy to the cardiac center for an EKG, as I am having surgery next Tuesday morning to remove the offending node. Should only be there for half a day; I hate having to fast after mmdnight, go to the hospital at the should-be-illegal time of 5:45AM for an 8:45 surgery. I am doomed to suffer from caffeine deprivation headaches! LOL I know, maybe I should give up coffee! No No No...I have given up quite enough, thank you, as have the rest of you. I remain an unashamed coffee snob!

I thank you all for being there for me and with me; it is amazing how calm I was and am.

As you know "I am doing what I have to do, so I can do what I want to do."

Hugs and gratitude to you all!

Chen♥
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  • phoenixrising
    phoenixrising Member Posts: 1,508
    #2
    This has certainly been a
    This has certainly been a disappointment, however, other than that there is NO cancer visible throughout your body and once this is out, there will be NO cancer visible in your body and so you can pick up where you left off with NED :) Which is right where we need you to be. I will continue sending all positive energies your way. Please don't worry, it'll be OK...big hugs,
    jan
  • jessiesmom1
    jessiesmom1 Member Posts: 915 Member
    #3
    Been there
    Hi Chen,

    I am so sorry that you are having to go through all this. I must say that I truly admire your upbeat attitude. It is not always easy to be so positive. Don't you think that nobody should have to report to a hospital for surgery before 7a.m.? For my last surgery (11/10) I was told to be there at (gulp) 5a.m. My husband was not a happy camper.
  • dyaneb123
    dyaneb123 Member Posts: 950
    #4
    jessiesmom1 said:

    Been there
    Hi Chen,

    I am so sorry that you are having to go through all this. I must say that I truly admire your upbeat attitude. It is not always easy to be so positive. Don't you think that nobody should have to report to a hospital for surgery before 7a.m.? For my last surgery (11/10) I was told to be there at (gulp) 5a.m. My husband was not a happy camper.

    My last surgery wasn't until
    My last surgery wasn't until 1:00 and the surgeon was delayed so it was really about 2:00! No food, no coffee , no nothing!Torture! So at least you'll have it over early in the day...and allow me to repeat..70% is still a very good number!
    ....
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    #5
    I love that saying, it epitomizes you Chen!
    And gracious NO! Coffee is a woman's 2nd best friend! I struggle to break it off with Joe.

    Our prayers and positive thoughts continue to wrap around you and hold you tight. We all don't mind getting up with you at 5:45! Put your pink boxing gloves on and get that offending node outta there!

    Praying, as always for you and all the sisters and brothers. Please post soon but certainly rest up afterwards!

    Hugs and love,

    Sylvia
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    #6
    sea60 said:

    I love that saying, it epitomizes you Chen!
    And gracious NO! Coffee is a woman's 2nd best friend! I struggle to break it off with Joe.

    Our prayers and positive thoughts continue to wrap around you and hold you tight. We all don't mind getting up with you at 5:45! Put your pink boxing gloves on and get that offending node outta there!

    Praying, as always for you and all the sisters and brothers. Please post soon but certainly rest up afterwards!

    Hugs and love,

    Sylvia

    Then what?
    So sorry to hear about the node, Chen. Does she have any idea what she's going to do to you after she removes it? Or do we have to wait until after surgery? What will the surgery involve?

    You know you have my prayers for this turning out well. That node offends me, too!

    Suzanne
  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #7
    Hi Chen,
    Did you tell them that you will have lots of company in the operating room on Tuesday? Keep the positive attitude and hang in there!

    xoxo,
    Jean
  • cabbott
    cabbott Member Posts: 1,039 Member
    #8
    Thinking of You
    I will be thinking of you. Surgery is definately a bummer. But don't go for the headache if it is not necessary. Tell the anesthesiologist (did I spell that right?) you need your morning fix and see if he can't give you a pill with a minute amount of water so you don't have to get a headache in addition to whatever the surgeon has to do. I distinctly recall the anes.... I'm not going to try to spell that again!...asking me if I wanted a caffine pill at a time in my life that I tended to avoid coffee. I didn't but I remember the conversation. So ask about it. They might be able to help you out. Good luck with your operation!

    C. Abbott
  • cahjah75
    cahjah75 Member Posts: 2,631
    #9
    Chen
    you are a fighter! We are all here giving you support. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you face yet another surgery next Tuesday. I'm a tea totaler so I don't share your angst re coffee. I'm glad you feel calm and I agree with your comment. We do what we have to do in order to do what we want to do. You go girl!
    {{hugs}} Char
  • bjmom1
    bjmom1 Member Posts: 152
    #10
    Hi Chen
    Chen I see you are just like me u have a good sense of humor. I too use humor to get me through the rough time. I will keep u in my prayers. I will make sure I have that cup of joe for you.
    Barb
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
    #11
    bjmom1 said:

    Hi Chen
    Chen I see you are just like me u have a good sense of humor. I too use humor to get me through the rough time. I will keep u in my prayers. I will make sure I have that cup of joe for you.
    Barb

    I think of you so often,
    I think of you so often, Barb~ I remember that you , Meena and I were rudely summoned to put on our boxing gloves and get back into fight mode at about the same time. Well, hopefuly, if all of us keep fighting, we will beat it into oblivion! GRRRRRRRR!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥
  • Katz77
    Katz77 Member Posts: 598
    #12
    Im so sorry chen
    I am very glad your calm. Guess we just deal with whats been handed to us. I look at this as a chronic condition now. You and the others are always in my prayers.
    I get those "lack of caffiene" headaches. I took a caffiene pill around 0100 and the headache wasnt hardly noticed. Maybe anesthesia can give you a hit of versed since you have to wait. That also helps the head and body relax. Good luck tomorrow. Hugs, Katz
  • Marsha Mulvey
    Marsha Mulvey Member Posts: 597 Member
    #13
    Katz77 said:

    Im so sorry chen
    I am very glad your calm. Guess we just deal with whats been handed to us. I look at this as a chronic condition now. You and the others are always in my prayers.
    I get those "lack of caffiene" headaches. I took a caffiene pill around 0100 and the headache wasnt hardly noticed. Maybe anesthesia can give you a hit of versed since you have to wait. That also helps the head and body relax. Good luck tomorrow. Hugs, Katz

    may I ask
    How could she tell it's malignant? Maybe the earlier result of NED is correct. Just wondering, I probably missed something you said. Best wishes next Tuesday.
    Marsha
  • Christmas Girl
    Christmas Girl Member Posts: 3,682 Member
    #14
    Gosh, darn it!
    I was certainly dreaming that same dream, Chen...

    Yeah, OUCH! (Again - darn it!)

    On Tuesday, your surgery room is gonna be awfully crowded - jam-packed with Kindred Spirits. Including me. xo

    P.S. to Marsha - They can often (not always) tell by sight alone. And wouldn't say so if not already sure.
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #15
    Katz77 said:

    Im so sorry chen
    I am very glad your calm. Guess we just deal with whats been handed to us. I look at this as a chronic condition now. You and the others are always in my prayers.
    I get those "lack of caffiene" headaches. I took a caffiene pill around 0100 and the headache wasnt hardly noticed. Maybe anesthesia can give you a hit of versed since you have to wait. That also helps the head and body relax. Good luck tomorrow. Hugs, Katz

    Excisional biopsy .. Ouch, been there -- done that
    rest easy and try not to over do things. As for the 70%, I would take those odds any day of the week -! Damn === node. Sounds like you are in excellent hands, medically and at home with Reggie.

    Excellent news, again, about the Pet scan!


    I'll be with you on Tuesday ..early am .. this time I am bringing caffeine via infusion bag --I hope your OR nurse hooks it up for you.


    Vicki Sam
  • Dawne.Hope
    Dawne.Hope Member Posts: 823
    #16
    I concur
    d@*# node!

    But I'm with the rest of the sisters ... I'd take 70 odds anyday!

    Prayers for you, sister! Peace, hope & healing!

    And wasn't it VickiSam who had coffee on the day of her exchange surgery? Ask her about it, Chen! ;) Maybe she'll tell you how to sneak some in! ;)

    Truly, much prayer coming your way!
    xo
  • pinkflutterby
    pinkflutterby Member Posts: 615 Member
    #17
    Dawne.Hope said:

    I concur
    d@*# node!

    But I'm with the rest of the sisters ... I'd take 70 odds anyday!

    Prayers for you, sister! Peace, hope & healing!

    And wasn't it VickiSam who had coffee on the day of her exchange surgery? Ask her about it, Chen! ;) Maybe she'll tell you how to sneak some in! ;)

    Truly, much prayer coming your way!
    xo

    always tell myself, it could
    always tell myself, it could be worse!!! sending much love hugs and prayers your way as always Chen!!!
    ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
    #18
    I will be right in there
    I will be right in there with you dear Chen :) You have been on my mind lately -im sending you lots of hugs & love & positivity across the country to you!
    *HUGS & HUGS & HUGS*
    heather
  • GayleMc
    GayleMc Member Posts: 311 Member
    #19
    Heatherbelle said:

    I will be right in there
    I will be right in there with you dear Chen :) You have been on my mind lately -im sending you lots of hugs & love & positivity across the country to you!
    *HUGS & HUGS & HUGS*
    heather

    Thinking of you and sending
    Thinking of you and sending the warmest, most loving thoughts your way.
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
    #20
    GayleMc said:

    Thinking of you and sending
    Thinking of you and sending the warmest, most loving thoughts your way.

    Insult on injury to have to
    Insult on injury to have to be up and there so early but it's true that means you don't have to wait until the afternoon with an empty stomach and coffee deprived body. Sorry that this wasn't a swollen sweat gland but then you know you knew it wasn't. And you are handling this in true Chen Style, with grace and acceptance and fight. It will be so crowded in that operating room and we will have to watch Tracy closely because I just know she will be playing with all the instruments and wanting to do some of the surgery. Don't worry we will keep her away from anything sharp or pokey. We let her put on a mask and scrubs but that's it. Seriously, you know we will all be there in spirit and we will also be lighting the candles, sending the good vibes and positive spirits and loving prayers for you.
    Stef
  • sausageroll
    sausageroll Member Posts: 415
    #21
    fauxma said:

    Insult on injury to have to
    Insult on injury to have to be up and there so early but it's true that means you don't have to wait until the afternoon with an empty stomach and coffee deprived body. Sorry that this wasn't a swollen sweat gland but then you know you knew it wasn't. And you are handling this in true Chen Style, with grace and acceptance and fight. It will be so crowded in that operating room and we will have to watch Tracy closely because I just know she will be playing with all the instruments and wanting to do some of the surgery. Don't worry we will keep her away from anything sharp or pokey. We let her put on a mask and scrubs but that's it. Seriously, you know we will all be there in spirit and we will also be lighting the candles, sending the good vibes and positive spirits and loving prayers for you.
    Stef

    Chen
    Yes, you know we'll be there with you Chen. Stay strong and take care. Pat

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