When will it all end??

Kezzie62

Hi all,

I wonder where all this will end.. In March I had an abnormal mammo and had to have a biopsy came back with DCIS stage 0 grade 2 ER+ PR-, so I had a lumpectomy on my left breast in June followed by radiation treatment, I can not take tamoxifen as I have a history of DVT so my onc said we just watch and see. I had my first 6 month check in Nov, I had a MRI of both breasts. I got a call 3 days later to say they had found an area that needed to be checked by biopsy in my right breast. So I had a wire guided biopsy and the results showed DCIS & ADH, so I had another Lumpectomy, got the results back from that and it shows DCIS grade 3 and a micro invasion, my onc has said I now have IDC stage 1 ER+ PR- I am to have a BMX in March but my onc and breast surgeon both say they need to do SNB and we will not know if chemo is needed until after the BMX & SNB. I do not want any reconstruction, I just hope that after the surgery in March this nightmare will be over...

thanks for letting me vent.

Kezzie

betsymorgan

similar nightmares
Kezzie,
I understand the nightmare feeling. Bad news after bad news after bad news. Most of 2010 was like that for me: March mammo showed something that needed a biopsy, then a surgical biopsy (aka lumpectomy). diagnosed in May as DCIS stage 0. Get ready for radiation. But wait, there's more: I had to go back for a follow-up mammogram since the normal pre-surgery mammo wasn't done in my case. Dunno why. But they found a tumor about 1cm. So that was removed in a second lumpectomy with sentinel node biopsy. clean margin and no node involvement: YAY. Radiation scheduled. But wait: there's more. A baseline mammogram to distinguish swelling from various lumpectomies and future radiation finds a "suspicious area of calcification." I was advised to get another biopsy, then called at 4pm July 3rd and was told everything was cancelled, and I would be consulting with radiation oncologist and surgeon the following week. At that point, they recommended mastectomy, since my breast seemed to be generating suspicious areas. I opted for the reconstruction, and in August I had the mastectomy/reconstruction. No cancer was found in the tissue, but there were some cells that had started to change. So it was the right decision.

My Christmas present to myself was a nipple. I'm recovering from that surgery now. I'm tired, too, of doctors finding more and more things...and of the nightmare not ending. I'm feeling disfigured now, but I know that in a few years, the scars will have faded. If your MDs feel you can wait until March for SNB, the chances of it spreading probably aren't that high. Let me know if I can give you more info on my case....it sounds similar to yours. Keep positive; I know it's hard when its seems you don't get a break, but it's important for you (but you know that already!).
hugs--
betsy

disneyfan2008

sorry you have to go through all this
I am thinking of you....

Marcia527

Hang in there. Grasp the
Hang in there. Grasp the good moments and remember them. For they are the moments that will carry you through the bad. Take your treatment one step at a time. I was stage 3a. Diagnosed 2003.

Betsy13

Hi Kezz~
I'm sorry you are getting wham after wham after wham...it's not fair.

My thoughts and prayers are with you for strength and endurance. I can't imagine what you are going through. Please feel free to vent all you want. I have found this is the place to do it. The ladies here don't mind and are very supportive!

Hugs to you,
Betsy

Gabe N Abby Mom

This is a great place to
This is a great place to vent, and to bring your questions, worries, anger, fears, etc. I'm hoping your journey becomes smoother, and I'm sending strength and positive energy to you.

Hugs,

Linda

Kezzie62

Gabe N Abby Mom said:

This is a great place to
This is a great place to vent, and to bring your questions, worries, anger, fears, etc. I'm hoping your journey becomes smoother, and I'm sending strength and positive energy to you.

Hugs,

Linda

Thank you all so much for
Thank you all so much for your support, Its nice to know I have somewhere I can come and vent and the people here understand what and how I am feeling..

Hug
Kezzie

Pinkpower

Hi Kezzie, sending you good
Hi Kezzie, sending you good thoughts and prayers that March will be the month you will have no more bad news. Stay strong my sister. And any time you need to vent here on out, we will be here for u.

Lupe

DianeBC

Kezzie62 said:

Thank you all so much for
Thank you all so much for your support, Its nice to know I have somewhere I can come and vent and the people here understand what and how I am feeling..

Hug
Kezzie

I'm so sorry Kezzie that
I'm so sorry Kezzie that your cancer came back. You can always come here, as, we all understand exactly how you feel. Praying for you and sending you encouragment!

If you don't mind, is this a new cancer or a recurrence?


Hugs, Diane

DebbyM

Gabe N Abby Mom said:

This is a great place to
This is a great place to vent, and to bring your questions, worries, anger, fears, etc. I'm hoping your journey becomes smoother, and I'm sending strength and positive energy to you.

Hugs,

Linda

I feel so bad for you. You
I feel so bad for you. You have been through so much. But, feel free to come here anytime and vent, ask questions, or, just read. We are all sisters in pink here and help each other however we can.

Praying for you,

Debby