sepsis

8isenough
8isenough Member Posts: 16
edited March 2014 in Ovarian Cancer #1
Hi to everyone,maybe this could help and avoid this for someone with same issues.I dont know.
My father has said that the infection is in my mothers blood.apparently its the cancer.Its in her chest cavity.They have taken her off the TPN,Can not give it to her,it was fueling the infection.Her count is still relatively low considering (122) and no fever.But they arent looking at the number only how fast it is going up,i was there 7wks ago it was 66.The Dr's are going to give her blood & different antibiotics to try to treat the infection.They also said something about giving her something for strenght intravenously.I am afraid with no chemo for months that the cancer just did its thing with nothing to stop it or get in its way.Why didnt they know this?if she wasnt given something to fight it then how the %$@! would they expect her to do it on her own?It really makes no sense and angers me,ive cried till i didnt think i had any tears left,my chest so tight i felt i would suffocate,but no,the tears keep on coming and i keep breathing.I here the phone ring & I get a shock throughout my entire body,instantly i feel as though im on fire and breakout in a sweat.
My Father is in the chapel,i dont know how he can even be walking,he probably hasnt eaten since they took my mother to the ER sunday.He said to let all of my brothers and sisters know that just to be prepaired at a moments notice to come home.
My tears have now turned into anger thinking about this and what it is doing to my Dad.Hes watching the only thing he has loved,his best friend for over 53 years,the one woman he has devoted his entire life to and gives credit to her for his.He says "without your mother i probably would not be here today and neither would any of my 8 children."She is his strenght,what has kept our family together.I can not see life without her,my family will fall apart,one by one.I know it will.I dont want to be around to watch it happen.Life is not good,its not a gift,its punishment for something,im not sure what.

So sorry Mom,I wish i could take it all from you,if it could be me instead,i would,in a half of a heartbeat. I Love you,Your daughter Kara

I Pray God that youare listening and will cosider my next request,i wont ever ask for another thing,i promise,my heart and soul. K.S

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  • 8isenough
    8isenough Member Posts: 16
    #2
    sepsis
    Just found out that the infection is called sepsis,infection i nthe blood when immune system is weakened.Has anyone had this?or knows of it?
  • saundra
    saundra Member Posts: 1,370 Member
    #3
    Anger
    Try not to waste your energy with anger. There are times when we realize that God is in control and how much more peaceful things are when we quit struggling with our human emotions and acceptance steps in. I know this is hard on the family but your mother would not want you to be angry or resentful, do you think? Saundra
  • 8isenough
    8isenough Member Posts: 16
    #4
    saundra said:

    Anger
    Try not to waste your energy with anger. There are times when we realize that God is in control and how much more peaceful things are when we quit struggling with our human emotions and acceptance steps in. I know this is hard on the family but your mother would not want you to be angry or resentful, do you think? Saundra

    yes and im sorry
    Saundra,i know your right,today i am going to fly to boston Im hopeing my mom will hangon till i get there,they took out the port and tpn.so thats it,they said she might not make it thru the day,i dont know if she knows ,shes unresponsive.I m sorry if i was negative,i know so many others are going thru this and my mothers situation just happened to be one of those that couldnt be fixed,I will still pray for everyone here.I just cant believe im going to have no mother anymore,im scared. god Bless

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