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Pennymac02

zinniemay said:

I think
I personally think it is Greg and I we do not really know how to relate to people. I don't really blame them . I just don't understand people. We are a odd couple .We just are not very good in social things. If it is work we know how to do that. Trust me we do get calls for that. If someone needs something fixed . As friends we do that. So we assume they are friends but does not work that way. we end us feeling needed. So we just gave up.
I am sure you are right about the church but I would not feel comfortable there. I will figure out something.

Let us
Let us be friends, then. I can't hug your neck through the computer but I am sending loving thoughts and prayers your way. I can't bring you a coffee cake, but if you get one at the market for yourself, I'll have a cup of coffee at my side as I type. Cyber space isn't a great substitute for face to face contact, but it's better than nothing. I don't know about you, but I've felt more supported and connected by posting here than I did before I found out about CSN. I have local friends who offer to help, but we had to reschedule on of my husbands appointments this week because I couln't get out of work and no one else could drive him the 2 hours to the hospital. I don't feel dissapointed in them, well, wait a minute, maybe I do, a little...but at least I can talk to you about it and not feel completely isolated.
Penny

kimmygarland

Pennymac02 said:

Let us
Let us be friends, then. I can't hug your neck through the computer but I am sending loving thoughts and prayers your way. I can't bring you a coffee cake, but if you get one at the market for yourself, I'll have a cup of coffee at my side as I type. Cyber space isn't a great substitute for face to face contact, but it's better than nothing. I don't know about you, but I've felt more supported and connected by posting here than I did before I found out about CSN. I have local friends who offer to help, but we had to reschedule on of my husbands appointments this week because I couln't get out of work and no one else could drive him the 2 hours to the hospital. I don't feel dissapointed in them, well, wait a minute, maybe I do, a little...but at least I can talk to you about it and not feel completely isolated.
Penny

Hugs to you ZinnieMay
Take a day or two to digest the news. Let the tears flow and express your thoughts, as you have been doing so eloquently, here.

I'm kind of in pieces myself today, so I understand. ((Hugs))

PattyNC

kimmygarland said:

Hugs to you ZinnieMay
Take a day or two to digest the news. Let the tears flow and express your thoughts, as you have been doing so eloquently, here.

I'm kind of in pieces myself today, so I understand. ((Hugs))

ZinneyMay speaking from your heart -- you set the gold standard
Nothing can be more beautiful or more perfect that speaking right from that place deep inside you. That's where I feel God's hand working behind the scenes. Thanks for sharing your pure & moving thoughts with all here (as well as your pain & confusion). Let's take a moment and all snuggle up and comfort one another --- & especially our sister-in-need ZinnieMay.

God bless & comfort & protect us all.

PattyNC

PattyNC said:

ZinneyMay speaking from your heart -- you set the gold standard
Nothing can be more beautiful or more perfect that speaking right from that place deep inside you. That's where I feel God's hand working behind the scenes. Thanks for sharing your pure & moving thoughts with all here (as well as your pain & confusion). Let's take a moment and all snuggle up and comfort one another --- & especially our sister-in-need ZinnieMay.

God bless & comfort & protect us all.

Hugs & a cyber spa neck rub for KimmeyGarland
Kimmie sorry you too are having it rough & feeling in pieces. Wish somebody would treat you to a soothing professional spa massage. I myself have never had one but I hear they work wonders at draining tension & anxieties & are very healing. Over the years, I have always planned to give it a try but haven't scheduled yet. It's on my to-do list though.

Meantime sending out cyber-spa to all caregivers. Let us emerce ourselves in swirling whirlpools of comforting mental H20 with beautiful music, lathering on our favorite soothing & relaxing perfumed oils, getting positive vibes, smells & sounds from all around us.

Patty

zinniemay

PattyNC said:

Hugs & a cyber spa neck rub for KimmeyGarland
Kimmie sorry you too are having it rough & feeling in pieces. Wish somebody would treat you to a soothing professional spa massage. I myself have never had one but I hear they work wonders at draining tension & anxieties & are very healing. Over the years, I have always planned to give it a try but haven't scheduled yet. It's on my to-do list though.

Meantime sending out cyber-spa to all caregivers. Let us emerce ourselves in swirling whirlpools of comforting mental H20 with beautiful music, lathering on our favorite soothing & relaxing perfumed oils, getting positive vibes, smells & sounds from all around us.

Patty

As I
As I read your sweet notes I looked up , out the window (as we all say winder) I see the sun shining on a old pine tree heavy weighted by the pine cones. Why I write thiis ? This is how my mind wonders, Some times It thinks how beautiful life is when you share is the good times and the bad. Oops looked up agaun and a bird pooped on the tree! No just kidding so the tears will stop as I picture you reading this and think Oh God sounds like me. I wonder Why and then I wonder again Darn that hurts (had a flu shot today and the little silly pain is kicking) I think oh my what must he be going thru, Why can't I take his pain. Why can't I pull it together then my mind is off and running I oh boy I got Debbie cakes ! Oh what was I thinking as I wipe the tears away. Kind of funny whe you acturally say what your mind it thinking , I wonder why I can not focus. Thank you all for reading my post and helping me make it thru the day.

Noellesmom

zinniemay said:

As I
As I read your sweet notes I looked up , out the window (as we all say winder) I see the sun shining on a old pine tree heavy weighted by the pine cones. Why I write thiis ? This is how my mind wonders, Some times It thinks how beautiful life is when you share is the good times and the bad. Oops looked up agaun and a bird pooped on the tree! No just kidding so the tears will stop as I picture you reading this and think Oh God sounds like me. I wonder Why and then I wonder again Darn that hurts (had a flu shot today and the little silly pain is kicking) I think oh my what must he be going thru, Why can't I take his pain. Why can't I pull it together then my mind is off and running I oh boy I got Debbie cakes ! Oh what was I thinking as I wipe the tears away. Kind of funny whe you acturally say what your mind it thinking , I wonder why I can not focus. Thank you all for reading my post and helping me make it thru the day.

Focus
I wonder the same thing about myself, Jennie. I don't seem to be able to focus on work, on play, on anything for very long.

Guess it is just a toll of not enough sleep, too much worry, nights that are too long and days that are too short.

Sometimes I don't even remember driving myself to work, but, whoops! there I am!

ms.sunshine

zinniemay said:

As I
As I read your sweet notes I looked up , out the window (as we all say winder) I see the sun shining on a old pine tree heavy weighted by the pine cones. Why I write thiis ? This is how my mind wonders, Some times It thinks how beautiful life is when you share is the good times and the bad. Oops looked up agaun and a bird pooped on the tree! No just kidding so the tears will stop as I picture you reading this and think Oh God sounds like me. I wonder Why and then I wonder again Darn that hurts (had a flu shot today and the little silly pain is kicking) I think oh my what must he be going thru, Why can't I take his pain. Why can't I pull it together then my mind is off and running I oh boy I got Debbie cakes ! Oh what was I thinking as I wipe the tears away. Kind of funny whe you acturally say what your mind it thinking , I wonder why I can not focus. Thank you all for reading my post and helping me make it thru the day.

Jennie (Zinnie)
Your husband has a best friend, it is YOU. He has the best care, and it comes from you.
Isn't it funny how the little things such as Debbie cake can make one happy. I remember after I went thru months of chemo and nothing tasted good when it was over I went to McDonalds. I was like a kid going thru the drive thru getting my Big Mac. Pure joy.

Doctors gotta love em. I never had alot of dealings with drs. until I was dx with cancer a year ago. Now I use to think drs. were so smart, after all there drs. right. I've realized they say the dumbest things.

We are here for you whenever you need to talk or vent.
Take care
Jennifer

zinniemay

ms.sunshine said:

Jennie (Zinnie)
Your husband has a best friend, it is YOU. He has the best care, and it comes from you.
Isn't it funny how the little things such as Debbie cake can make one happy. I remember after I went thru months of chemo and nothing tasted good when it was over I went to McDonalds. I was like a kid going thru the drive thru getting my Big Mac. Pure joy.

Doctors gotta love em. I never had alot of dealings with drs. until I was dx with cancer a year ago. Now I use to think drs. were so smart, after all there drs. right. I've realized they say the dumbest things.

We are here for you whenever you need to talk or vent.
Take care
Jennifer

Me
Jennifer,
I know all to well about doctors will not go into it but I have had over 30 sugeries . My husband was nevr sick until caancer came to visit. He always so strong to me and he held me up all these years . It is funny the little silly things that make our day a smile from a stranger . Almost any one can make me smile. I am not a fan of the Big MAc ! I don't eat any condements! Wouldn't you know It I am the little old lady who goes to McD's and gets a plain burger in a Happy Meal! Love the toys!