Had to do something crazy today

ms.sunshine
ms.sunshine Member Posts: 707 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Going thru all treatments known to man to "cure" me of cancer has taken its toll. I feel sidelined from life, excluded from fun that others are having as I watch from the time-out bench. I had to do something just to prove to myself that my life is more than treatments.
So today it was raining, and I went to the beach. I walked out onto the pier in the rain, of course I had the pier all to myself. The closer I got to the end I was jogging and laughing so hard. As I stood at the end looking out into the ocean I felt so free, so strong, and so at peace. The presence of God was there, and He comforted me and spoke within my spirit, and heart.

Then I had to get my tired butt back to my car. As I walked back I realized I was still in the game of life. And no I am not crazy, although I probably looked like a fruit-loop to any passerbyers, but I didn't care.

You know I never liked the rain, and hated to get wet, but that changed today. I learned today that rain (what I always saw as negative) is just as important for the growth of things as much as the sun (positive) In my life rain must fall so I will grow, and know how good the warmth of the sun (son) is.

With all that I have been thru, and still enduring. I feel so blessed, and so loved by God.
Take care
Jennifer

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  • 2Floridiansisters
    2Floridiansisters Member Posts: 384 Member
    #2
    awww Jennifer
    That was beautiful, I've always loved the rain and going out playing in it, thanks for sharing your story.

    Goodnight all, Love Ronda
  • Mariannemm
    Mariannemm Member Posts: 136
    #3
    I love the rain...
    I live in Oregon and I have always loved the rain. Everyone thinks I am so weird. There is just something about it for me. I loved your post! It made my heart smile! Marianne
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    #4
    Mariannemm said:

    I love the rain...
    I live in Oregon and I have always loved the rain. Everyone thinks I am so weird. There is just something about it for me. I loved your post! It made my heart smile! Marianne

    I think this is great!
    I think this is great! Hubby and I love walking in the rain, well, not a pouring down rain, but a little rain. It just feels good and clean!

    What you did was freeing to you and that is what you needed!

    You go girl!


    Sue :)
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    #5
    That was an absolute
    That was an absolute beautiful story. I continue to be amazed at the "growing" we all seem to go through as we endure our treatment schedules and life after. It truly is a life-changing situation and the joys of life become so much more evident!! Thanks for sharing.
  • Christine Louise
    Christine Louise Member Posts: 426 Member
    #6
    ms.sunshine in the rain
    I love your story, Jennifer. I'm going to finish this coffee, get up from the computer, and take a walk. Thanks!
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    #7
    MyTurnNow said:

    That was an absolute
    That was an absolute beautiful story. I continue to be amazed at the "growing" we all seem to go through as we endure our treatment schedules and life after. It truly is a life-changing situation and the joys of life become so much more evident!! Thanks for sharing.

    I loved reading this!
    I loved reading this! Beautiful story!


    Hugs, Leeza
  • heidijez
    heidijez Member Posts: 441
    #8
    doesn't sound crazy to me ; )
    i love rain and i love the ocean! and sometimes you just gotta do what makes you feel good!
  • Jean 0609
    Jean 0609 Member Posts: 2,462
    #9
    Good for You!
    It's funny how we see things differently now!
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #10
    If you are crazy, you're in great company!
    I just was reading some quotes and one of them had YOUR name all over it:

    "Anyone who thinks that only sunshine can bring happiness has obviously never danced in the rain!"

    You sound renewed and refreshed~ thank you for sharing this delightful experience with us!

    Hugs,
    Claudia
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    #11
    chenheart said:

    If you are crazy, you're in great company!
    I just was reading some quotes and one of them had YOUR name all over it:

    "Anyone who thinks that only sunshine can bring happiness has obviously never danced in the rain!"

    You sound renewed and refreshed~ thank you for sharing this delightful experience with us!

    Hugs,
    Claudia

    Don't they say...
    "Dance Like No One Is Watching!"

    That is what you did!

    Silly, inspiring, wonderful and so refreshing! ( oh yea, and a little wet LOL )



    ♥ KYLEZ
  • greyhoundluvr
    greyhoundluvr Member Posts: 402
    #12
    Jennifer -
    That was beautiful - there are those moments when we realize that life is still going on around us and we can either be a part of it or let it pass us by. For me, it was a morning when I heard the birds singing outside my window. I love watching and listening to birds but hadn't noticed them in some time - I was too wrapped up in getting from one doctor's appointment to the next. It awoke something in me that needed to be awakened. I love the beach and the rain although I am nowhere near it like you are - it always brings a sense of peace and perspective. I am so glad that you had this "moment."

    Chris
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    #13
    I love your story, Jennifer.
    After reading it, I am inspired to do something special as well. I just got through telling a friend today that I feel like fighting breast cancer has become my "job." It's all-encompassing and seems to take up most of my time--between appointments, tests, resting, etc., it has become a job. I'm going to tell my wonderful husband that next weekend we are going away--just the two of us--to reconnect and forget about cancer!

    Thank you--you've helped me and I'm sure many others on this site.

    Hugs, Renee
  • Balentine
    Balentine Member Posts: 393
    #14
    missrenee said:

    I love your story, Jennifer.
    After reading it, I am inspired to do something special as well. I just got through telling a friend today that I feel like fighting breast cancer has become my "job." It's all-encompassing and seems to take up most of my time--between appointments, tests, resting, etc., it has become a job. I'm going to tell my wonderful husband that next weekend we are going away--just the two of us--to reconnect and forget about cancer!

    Thank you--you've helped me and I'm sure many others on this site.

    Hugs, Renee

    You go Giiiirrrrrllll!
    I am so proud of you and happy that you were touched by the very hand of God today. It made me think of a quote that someone else posted the other day.....life is not about waiting for the storm to be over....it about dancing in the rain.....be blessed.
    Lorrie
  • Boppy_of_6
    Boppy_of_6 Member Posts: 1,138
    #15
    I love this story God
    I love this story God blessed you with this and you in turn blessed all of us by sharing! God is good all the time!! God Bless
    (((Hugs))) Janice
  • waffle8
    waffle8 Member Posts: 234
    #16
    Crazy Train
    All aboard...... I want to buy a ticket....What a great story thanks for sharing...Next time try singing in the rain that will surely raise some eyebrows......
    Many Blessings!
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
    #17
    Thanks for sharing your
    Thanks for sharing your story :) I too have found myself more appreciative of life and all the "little things" that I may have previously taken for granted. Keep on splashing around in the rain!
    -Heather
  • lynn1950
    lynn1950 Member Posts: 2,570
    #18
    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in
    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in the rain).
  • ms.sunshine
    ms.sunshine Member Posts: 707 Member
    #19
    lynn1950 said:

    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in
    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in the rain).

    Thanks ladies. Yeah I needed
    Thanks ladies. Yeah I needed that boost I could feel myself loosing steam. Starting to have a pity-party so I had to shake that off.

    btw We are starting to have signs of the oil rolling onto our beaches. Just makes me sick. Gulf Shores has black waves. They have shut down that beach. I pray that someone can stop that oil from spewing.
  • jo jo
    jo jo Member Posts: 1,175 Member
    #20
    ms.sunshine said:

    Thanks ladies. Yeah I needed
    Thanks ladies. Yeah I needed that boost I could feel myself loosing steam. Starting to have a pity-party so I had to shake that off.

    btw We are starting to have signs of the oil rolling onto our beaches. Just makes me sick. Gulf Shores has black waves. They have shut down that beach. I pray that someone can stop that oil from spewing.

    Ms. sunshine, i love playin
    Ms. sunshine, i love playin in the rain too and i usually have to do it by myself cuz no one will do it with me...so call me crazy. I think its spiritually uplifting.
    Awesome story thanks for sharing...to bad once you got to the end of the pier you had to see the evidence of the oil spill...thats really sickening!
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    #21
    lynn1950 said:

    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in
    Thank you, Ms. Sunshine (in the rain).

    Thanks for sharing this with
    Thanks for sharing this with us! You keep doing whatever makes you feel good!


    Hugs, Megan

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