I wrote bc a letter

bjmom1

I want to tell you up front that I hate you. Because you make me very tried, and in constant extreme pain, the memory I had is gone. You change my life and my future I can’t dream to far in advance because I know deep down you are waiting to surprise me again. Some call you the BIG C but I call you by every letter Cruel, Aggressive, Nasty, Crazy, Evil, Rotten disease. You never leave me alone because you stay in the back of my mind. I think you give pleasure in giving grief. But also like making a person think about life in a very unique way.

Even though I hate you I am also happy. Because I do not take life for grated anymore. You have brought me closer to God and help me have a stronger faith. Something that I probably would have taken for granted. For that I am happy. At time I can change those six letter into something positive. Like Courage ,Acceptance, Notice, Caring, Enrich, Rewarding. You gave me the courage to fight back and to accept that thing made have change but I can make difference on how I deal with it. Notice that life is too short and don’t sweat the small stuff live life don’t let life live you. Caring enough to fight this battle and by expression your love an appreciation for the people in life . Finally enrich and rewarding life experiences that has come from this disease once you realize it is going be part of your life. So cancer it going to be a long ride we have a love hate relationship until one of us get Trier of fighting. I guess you have a hell of a fight to battle against me. Until next fight see much later C.A.N.C.E.R.

Just something had to do get it off my chest

sea60

My sentiments exactly!
Well said. As horrible as cancer is, it also draws out the important things in life as you mentioned. It teaches us to have a grateful heart. Not to take life for granted.

Keep fighting!

A big hug to you,

Sylvia

aysemari

Please give cancer my regards
and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
they did not like the company I was in.

So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

Ayse

ms.sunshine

aysemari said:

Please give cancer my regards
and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
they did not like the company I was in.

So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

Ayse

I WON!!! ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS
I WON!!! ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL

bjmom1

aysemari said:

Please give cancer my regards
and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
they did not like the company I was in.

So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

Ayse

That was great
I love what you wrote sister girl. That made me smile.

chenheart

Thank you!
I love this letter! Thank you for writing it...sounds like a load was lifted off of your shoulders. Bless your heart!

Hugs,
♥

KathiM

And friends...
and sisters!!!

I have met so many fantastic people because of these 6 letters! (one of them is YOU!)


Hugs, Kathi

tommaseena

KathiM said:

And friends...
and sisters!!!

I have met so many fantastic people because of these 6 letters! (one of them is YOU!)


Hugs, Kathi

Well written
well written
it sums up everything everyone is thinking about.

Margo

MyTurnNow

Thanks for sharing, I can
Thanks for sharing, I can relate very well. I also hope you feel better by getting it off your chest.

arkansasgirl

CANCER MIGHT HAVE WON THE BATTLE
Cancer won the 1st battle because I got it, but I won the 2nd because now I'm cancer free
but the WAR is not over for I will not give up.


Arkansasgirl

mimivac

Very empowering
Thank you for sharing!

Mimi

greyhoundluvr

bjmom1
I think your sentiments echo for all of us - I know that I am in the same boat. While I hate this disease, it has also made me appreciate many things that I used to take for granted....

Balentine

greyhoundluvr said:

bjmom1
I think your sentiments echo for all of us - I know that I am in the same boat. While I hate this disease, it has also made me appreciate many things that I used to take for granted....

Wow
Bj...very powerful and touches to our core. It was very freeing to read it....some things deep inside just were awakened and became very, very real. Sometimes all of these emotions are hard to put into words but you have done a most excellent job of doing just that. Thanks Bj and stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might. Remain consciously aware of His presence in your life and in an attitude of prayer without ceasing....be blessed of God. Love and hugs.
Lorrie

VickiSam

Balentine said:

Wow
Bj...very powerful and touches to our core. It was very freeing to read it....some things deep inside just were awakened and became very, very real. Sometimes all of these emotions are hard to put into words but you have done a most excellent job of doing just that. Thanks Bj and stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might. Remain consciously aware of His presence in your life and in an attitude of prayer without ceasing....be blessed of God. Love and hugs.
Lorrie

BJMOM1 .. Thank you for opening your heart, and
thoughts to us all. Tears steam down my cheeks as your sentiments are shared by all of us.

May you stay strong in your 2nd battle, along with our other dear sister chenhart and Meena 1.

My love and prayers to you all.


VickiSam

Hubby

I think your letter A needs
I think your letter A needs to be for Amazing, which is what this letter is; thanks for sharing it!!

Ritzy

Hubby said:

I think your letter A needs
I think your letter A needs to be for Amazing, which is what this letter is; thanks for sharing it!!

So happy you got this off of
So happy you got this off of your chest! I think all of your bc sisters can relate to it!


You are amazing!


Sue

lizzie17

wow
You really expressed my thoughts and feelings, too. Thanks for sharing.

ppurdin

Thank you.
Me and everyone on these boards relate to this letter.Thanks again.

bjmom1

thank you
Thank you all for your kind words. It made my day to read everyone comment. If you could see me I have a big smile on my face.

Your bc sista
Barbara

jnl

bjmom1 said:

thank you
Thank you all for your kind words. It made my day to read everyone comment. If you could see me I have a big smile on my face.

Your bc sista
Barbara

Love your letter too
Love your letter too Barbara! Glad you are smiling!

How is your treatment coming along? And, how are you doing?


Hugs, Leeza