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I wrote bc a letter

bjmom1
bjmom1 CSN Member Posts: 152
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
I want to tell you up front that I hate you. Because you make me very tried, and in constant extreme pain, the memory I had is gone. You change my life and my future I can’t dream to far in advance because I know deep down you are waiting to surprise me again. Some call you the BIG C but I call you by every letter Cruel, Aggressive, Nasty, Crazy, Evil, Rotten disease. You never leave me alone because you stay in the back of my mind. I think you give pleasure in giving grief. But also like making a person think about life in a very unique way.

Even though I hate you I am also happy. Because I do not take life for grated anymore. You have brought me closer to God and help me have a stronger faith. Something that I probably would have taken for granted. For that I am happy. At time I can change those six letter into something positive. Like Courage ,Acceptance, Notice, Caring, Enrich, Rewarding. You gave me the courage to fight back and to accept that thing made have change but I can make difference on how I deal with it. Notice that life is too short and don’t sweat the small stuff live life don’t let life live you. Caring enough to fight this battle and by expression your love an appreciation for the people in life . Finally enrich and rewarding life experiences that has come from this disease once you realize it is going be part of your life. So cancer it going to be a long ride we have a love hate relationship until one of us get Trier of fighting. I guess you have a hell of a fight to battle against me. Until next fight see much later C.A.N.C.E.R.

Just something had to do get it off my chest
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  • sea60
    sea60 CSN Member Posts: 2,613
    #2
    My sentiments exactly!
    Well said. As horrible as cancer is, it also draws out the important things in life as you mentioned. It teaches us to have a grateful heart. Not to take life for granted.

    Keep fighting!

    A big hug to you,

    Sylvia
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  • aysemari
    aysemari CSN Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #3
    Please give cancer my regards
    and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
    It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
    together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
    Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
    much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
    I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
    What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
    they did not like the company I was in.

    So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

    Ayse
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  • ms.sunshine
    ms.sunshine CSN Member Posts: 707 Member
    #4
    aysemari said:

    Please give cancer my regards
    and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
    It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
    together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
    Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
    much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
    I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
    What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
    they did not like the company I was in.

    So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

    Ayse

    I WON!!! ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS
    I WON!!! ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL
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  • bjmom1
    bjmom1 CSN Member Posts: 152
    #5
    aysemari said:

    Please give cancer my regards
    and tell cancer that I am sorry but it's over. This relation ship was not good for me.
    It even made me sick. And not to mention all the mind games, is it over or will we be
    together again soon. But this was a one sided relationship, I feel as if I had no say.
    Cancer may have started this and took away so much from me and caused me so
    much pain and grief, but I am going to put an end to this unhealthy relationship.
    I mean COME ON! It took my independence, my health, hair and even my toe nails!!
    What's up with that? Some of my friends stopped coming around because
    they did not like the company I was in.

    So hit the road cancer and don't you come back no more!!!

    Ayse

    That was great
    I love what you wrote sister girl. That made me smile.
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  • chenheart
    chenheart CSN Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #6
    Thank you!
    I love this letter! Thank you for writing it...sounds like a load was lifted off of your shoulders. Bless your heart!

    Hugs,
    ♥
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  • KathiM
    KathiM CSN Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #7
    And friends...
    and sisters!!!

    I have met so many fantastic people because of these 6 letters! (one of them is YOU!)


    Hugs, Kathi
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  • tommaseena
    tommaseena CSN Member Posts: 1,769
    #8
    KathiM said:

    And friends...
    and sisters!!!

    I have met so many fantastic people because of these 6 letters! (one of them is YOU!)


    Hugs, Kathi

    Well written
    well written
    it sums up everything everyone is thinking about.

    Margo
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  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow CSN Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    #9
    Thanks for sharing, I can
    Thanks for sharing, I can relate very well. I also hope you feel better by getting it off your chest.
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  • arkansasgirl
    arkansasgirl CSN Member Posts: 84
    #10
    CANCER MIGHT HAVE WON THE BATTLE
    Cancer won the 1st battle because I got it, but I won the 2nd because now I'm cancer free
    but the WAR is not over for I will not give up.


    Arkansasgirl
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  • mimivac
    mimivac CSN Member Posts: 2,143 Member
    #11
    Very empowering
    Thank you for sharing!

    Mimi
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  • greyhoundluvr
    greyhoundluvr CSN Member Posts: 402
    #12
    bjmom1
    I think your sentiments echo for all of us - I know that I am in the same boat. While I hate this disease, it has also made me appreciate many things that I used to take for granted....
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  • Balentine
    Balentine CSN Member Posts: 393
    #13
    greyhoundluvr said:

    bjmom1
    I think your sentiments echo for all of us - I know that I am in the same boat. While I hate this disease, it has also made me appreciate many things that I used to take for granted....

    Wow
    Bj...very powerful and touches to our core. It was very freeing to read it....some things deep inside just were awakened and became very, very real. Sometimes all of these emotions are hard to put into words but you have done a most excellent job of doing just that. Thanks Bj and stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might. Remain consciously aware of His presence in your life and in an attitude of prayer without ceasing....be blessed of God. Love and hugs.
    Lorrie
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  • VickiSam
    VickiSam CSN Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    #14
    Balentine said:

    Wow
    Bj...very powerful and touches to our core. It was very freeing to read it....some things deep inside just were awakened and became very, very real. Sometimes all of these emotions are hard to put into words but you have done a most excellent job of doing just that. Thanks Bj and stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might. Remain consciously aware of His presence in your life and in an attitude of prayer without ceasing....be blessed of God. Love and hugs.
    Lorrie

    BJMOM1 .. Thank you for opening your heart, and
    thoughts to us all. Tears steam down my cheeks as your sentiments are shared by all of us.

    May you stay strong in your 2nd battle, along with our other dear sister chenhart and Meena 1.

    My love and prayers to you all.


    VickiSam
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  • Hubby
    Hubby CSN Member Posts: 325
    #15
    I think your letter A needs
    I think your letter A needs to be for Amazing, which is what this letter is; thanks for sharing it!!
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  • Ritzy
    Ritzy CSN Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    #16
    Hubby said:

    I think your letter A needs
    I think your letter A needs to be for Amazing, which is what this letter is; thanks for sharing it!!

    So happy you got this off of
    So happy you got this off of your chest! I think all of your bc sisters can relate to it!


    You are amazing!


    Sue :)
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  • lizzie17
    lizzie17 CSN Member Posts: 548
    #17
    wow
    You really expressed my thoughts and feelings, too. Thanks for sharing.
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  • ppurdin
    ppurdin CSN Member Posts: 1,181 Member
    #18
    Thank you.
    Me and everyone on these boards relate to this letter.Thanks again.
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  • bjmom1
    bjmom1 CSN Member Posts: 152
    #19
    thank you
    Thank you all for your kind words. It made my day to read everyone comment. If you could see me I have a big smile on my face.

    Your bc sista
    Barbara
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  • jnl
    jnl CSN Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    #20
    bjmom1 said:

    thank you
    Thank you all for your kind words. It made my day to read everyone comment. If you could see me I have a big smile on my face.

    Your bc sista
    Barbara

    Love your letter too
    Love your letter too Barbara! Glad you are smiling!

    How is your treatment coming along? And, how are you doing?


    Hugs, Leeza
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