Thyroid cancer - scared

Momof2plus1

I have to go for surgery on Monday and I have been trying to handle everything ok considering that my husband hasn't really been home because he's been working late hours, and my 8 and 6 year old have been sick for the past week and a half. I went through anger, crying and then just trying not to think about the fact that I have cancer, but as the day gets closer I am feeling very scared. I'm tired of everyone saying "Well, if you are going to have cancer, it's the best one to have." I understand that and am grateful, but I am still scared and maybe still in denial. Today my son had a dizzy spell 'cause his fever was so high and it just started me on an emotional rollercoaster. I'm shaking and have been crying and my head can't stop thinking about 'worst case' scenarios. What if something goes wrong and I die? What about my kids? I don't want them to suffer. Maybe I'm just selfish but I'm just really, really scared and my husband, can't seem to understand that and just told me to watch a movie with the kids. Hence, I thought I could find a support group or someone to talk to who has gone through this. I've never been on a discussion board so I don't know if I'm doing this correctly.

usljh10

Your at the right place
Your at the right place to let all your feelings out. I had thyriod cancer in March 2008. I was scared like you, not sure of what to expect. Not knowing what's going to happen is the worst. On this site you will meet people that have had it, still got it and trying to get rid of it. All in all any questions you may have someone can answer. My life took a while to get back to normal. I take a pill everyday, have bloodwork every 3-6 months. I had 2 surgeries,RAI treatment, Whole body scans. Thyrogens shots and I know the girl at the lab by name. It's not fun, but it's not the worst thing that could happen to me. I did
what the Doctors told me and I feel good,it take a little while. Just read all you can about it, ask questions. It's going to be OK.
Lisa

mystik_spyral

I was diagnosed last year
I was diagnosed last year with Thyroid cancer. They removed my Thyroid during 06/09. Then in 08/09 I received the radiation treatment, followed by the scan. So far things look good. This September I'm supposed to have the Thyrogen shots and another scan. If it is clean I should be cancer free for a long time. The closer I get to the appointment the more frightened I become that it won't be clean though.

It's lonely, feeling like you can't talk to your partner. My boyfriend and I have been together for years, living together for most of our relationship now, but this is the one thing we just can't communicate about. When I try to share how frightened I am he just dismisses it or tries to logic it out of me. I just end up feeling awful, even though that wasn't his intention.

If you'd like to talk sometime I'd love someone to correspond with about this. I'd be willing to send you my personal email if you are interested. If not, good luck, and you really aren't alone out there. We understand.

grateful1

thyroid cancer scared
I hope by now you have had successful surgery. It is normal to be scared especially when you have children. That is what gets to me most. I feel I can't leave them in this world without my protection. But they say this is a big motivating factor to get well. I would love to hear how you are doing--and that things went well. God Bless.

vickihol

I just joined this site
I just joined this site today, and read your blog. I hope you are okay. Please let us know.