I'm not really for sure how anything works, I've only known that I've had cancer since Feb 6th. 2weeks after i had my daughter I was diagnosed with nodular sclerosing Hodkins. I have a 8 inch by 5 inch mediastinal mass, and a mass in my throat along with the lymph nodes on my right side of my neck. Its very terrifying to me as I am sure it was with everyone of yall. I'm a mother of 4 beautiful children and have only done one session of chemo. They have me on the ICE treatment because they feel as if my heart is not strong enough to withstand the other treatment that they would normally offer for this. I have already lost all of my hair, which is completely heartbreaking because now my oldest daughter who is 9, cries when i take my hats off. It breaks my heart to know that she knows how sick i am. I just hope that this gets easier, im so scared about chemo and the effects it will have on our lives. I just need to make it through.