Cancer stinks and I would rather have my old body back, but these are some of the things I keep telling myself to help me through it all. First perk is I lost weight and can now, for the 1st time in about 20 yrs, eat anything and everything I want. One night I actually sat down and ate a whole gallon of chocolate chip mint ice cream! I had to have a double masectomy, so I keep telling myself, well I always wanted a boob reduction(was 34DDD)!Now although they are not finished and they still hurt and still need another surgery eventually they will be better(I hope). I now have a very flat stomach which I haven't had since I was in my 20's. I moved back close to my family and old friends and left a very mean controlling abusive husband which I don't think I would have had the guts to do prior to getting cancer. He showed me what he really was about-himself! Always knew this but was slapped in the face with it when I got sick. The new beautiful head of hair I am still waiting for. Lastly as soon as the soon to be ex starts paying support I will get to buy myself lots of new clothes since theones Ihave now don't fit(been borrowing my daughters for the time being). Lastly, even though I hate being tired I now have a reason tojust go take a nap or skip and event without as much guilt for doing so! I know this may seem strange but this is the way I have been getting through all this. New body and new life ahead! I get depressed,sad, tired ,discouraged, but then go back to telling myself all this and just keep trying to move foward.