Angelsbaby

Julie 44

Hey Michele,
How are you mmaking out??? Have not heard from you in awhile are you ok????? JULIE

angelsbaby

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

kristasplace

angelsbaby said:

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

Michelle
I think what you're doing is wonderful. Your kids should be helping you during this time, and not adding to your pain. I understand they're probably hurting too, but this is ridiculous! I'm glad you've chosen to sever your ties with your son. This is YOUR time, and you need it to heal. Surround yourself with people and things that bring you joy, not the opposite.

I'm sure it will eventually get better. I always think about you, and i consider you one of the bravest people i know.

I will be sending good vibes and prayers that you're out of your situation like lightening!

Many hugs,
Krista

angelsbaby

kristasplace said:

Michelle
I think what you're doing is wonderful. Your kids should be helping you during this time, and not adding to your pain. I understand they're probably hurting too, but this is ridiculous! I'm glad you've chosen to sever your ties with your son. This is YOUR time, and you need it to heal. Surround yourself with people and things that bring you joy, not the opposite.

I'm sure it will eventually get better. I always think about you, and i consider you one of the bravest people i know.

I will be sending good vibes and prayers that you're out of your situation like lightening!

Many hugs,
Krista

Thank you
Krista you have always been there for me and i love that.And you are my hero.

take care i will do the same
huggs
michelle I wish i could really hug you all.

PhillieG

angelsbaby said:

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

Michelle
I am saddened to hear about your situation. I had no idea any of that was going on. It certainly is that last thing you need to be happening at any time. Anti-depressants can do wonders. Sometimes it's just a matter of finding the right one for YOU. If this one doesn't quite do the trick maybe try a different one.
all my best to you
-phil

Buzzard

PhillieG said:

Michelle
I am saddened to hear about your situation. I had no idea any of that was going on. It certainly is that last thing you need to be happening at any time. Anti-depressants can do wonders. Sometimes it's just a matter of finding the right one for YOU. If this one doesn't quite do the trick maybe try a different one.
all my best to you
-phil

Yep.....
Phil's right. It may take a couple of weeks before you really start to notice anything but it does helps us cope a lot better without changing the person you are........Bless you and things do get better, promise...Clift

Annabelle41415

I'm so sorry
Awww Michelle I wish I could hug you. It sounds like you have been overwhelmed for so long and still continue. Having trouble with your children is very hard on you emotionally and physically and I'm glad that you are going to get something to help you. Distancing yourself from your children is going to be hard, but in your situation it sounds like the best thing. I am praying that things start turning around for you. I pray that your brother start responding to treatment. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Kim

angelsbaby

Annabelle41415 said:

I'm so sorry
Awww Michelle I wish I could hug you. It sounds like you have been overwhelmed for so long and still continue. Having trouble with your children is very hard on you emotionally and physically and I'm glad that you are going to get something to help you. Distancing yourself from your children is going to be hard, but in your situation it sounds like the best thing. I am praying that things start turning around for you. I pray that your brother start responding to treatment. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Kim

Thanks Guys
Life is not easy for me right now but i feel good today after reading all the post.And i will try to hang in there i am tough and whimpy at the same time , Thanks again i just love all of you.

michelle

donnare

angelsbaby said:

Thanks Guys
Life is not easy for me right now but i feel good today after reading all the post.And i will try to hang in there i am tough and whimpy at the same time , Thanks again i just love all of you.

michelle

Hi Michelle
I am so very sorry about the loss of your husband, and that things are difficult for you. I will keep you in my prayers Michelle. Please take good care of yourself.

Be well,
Donna

P.S. As other people mentioned - the antidepressants do help to take the edge off. I take Prozac - call it "Vitamin P" :-))))). It has really helped me cope with my husband's dx and treatment so far.

lizzydavis

donnare said:

Hi Michelle
I am so very sorry about the loss of your husband, and that things are difficult for you. I will keep you in my prayers Michelle. Please take good care of yourself.

Be well,
Donna

P.S. As other people mentioned - the antidepressants do help to take the edge off. I take Prozac - call it "Vitamin P" :-))))). It has really helped me cope with my husband's dx and treatment so far.

Hi Michelle.
Hi Michelle. I am sending my support and good thoughts to you. Please know we are with you in spirit and wish you strength and comfort at this time.

Shayenne

lizzydavis said:

Hi Michelle.
Hi Michelle. I am sending my support and good thoughts to you. Please know we are with you in spirit and wish you strength and comfort at this time.

You have it so hard!
....here we are talking about our problems with our diseaase, and poor Michelle is going through her own hell, I'm so sorry to hear about your situation, tough love it on the son, it's the only thing that will work, even though it's hard to do, and my prayers are with your brother, there are so many people out there who have it worse then me, and you're one of them! I can't complain about my family, but those anti-depressants should help you out. I am on zoloft, and the dr. said it would take like a month to be all in my system, and it does help, so give it some time. I wish I was there giving you a hug, hope you can settle on my cyberhugs for now!

Hugsss and Blessings!
~Donna

VickiCO

angelsbaby said:

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

Michelle
We are here for you, my friend. Please, if there is anything I can do, just ASK. (Except the alarm thing...I set mine off all the time!) Seriously, I want to help. Let me know how I can...

many hugs, Vicki

2bhealed

(((Michelle))))
Didn't know you were going through such a rough patch. Glad you come here and get some lovin'.

Sundanceh

angelsbaby said:

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

Thinking of YOU
Michelle

We got a chance to talk a little bit the other night when you responded to my post and then I posted back to talk to you and then you responded back to that.

When I got here, it was right after Angel's passing...and I was new and did not know anybody or have a relationship with anyone at that time...I was just trying to see where I could fit in with my treatments and cancer experience and such.

I had posted my condolences, but left it at that, because I wanted to respect your space and I figured one day we would talk and then it would be appropriate to say something to you. All of you were friends and I just did not want to butt in - like who is this guy?

I was concerned when I read about your RJA issue with your granddaughter and I immediately got hold of a lady who knew about RA and that webiste link and got it to you ASAP. I really want to hear back from you on how that turns out - I'm hoping that will be an answer that will help treat her condition...children should not have to go through so much strife at such a tender age.

I continue to be saddened about your husband's loss...listening to you and everybody talk about him, I feel like I know of him...I know he liked his beer

Anyway, you are very courageous and were a wonderful caregiver, and a good Mom and Grandmother. I'm so sorry to read your post about your son...that stuff he's doing is very unpredictable and you have to look out for yourself at this point.

I'm saddened by you having to sell the bike and move out of your house...life is just not always fair, we've all been told. I wish I had a magic wand and sweep all of your heartbreak and anguish away - it would already be done.

I must say that your attitude is refreshing and you are handling everything superbly. I respect you and what you're doing - you've been dealt a bad hand of cards, but it has not got you down.

I know you have alot of friends here and I don't want to butt in, but I would also like to be considered a friend of yours too - if you got room for one more?

I've thought of your brother since I read that post too and hope that things turn around for him and you too. You have had enough for all of our lifetimes...a good woman like you will have more good days coming, I feel it.

Take care of yourself...I really do want to hear about how the RJA treatments work out.

-Craig

lisa42

angelsbaby said:

I just
Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

have a wonderful day

michelle

when it rains it pours
Remember that old saying "when it rains it pours"? Well, it sure seems like you've been hit with way more than your fair share of difficulty in life lately. I'm so very sorry with all you're having to go through. I suppose if we follow the logic of the above saying, we could also go with the one "the sun will come out tomorrow!" (I could now break into full course on that song from "Annie", but I'll spare us all
Anyhow, I'm not trying to make light of your difficulty in any way, shape, or form- just that things have to start getting better.
I do think it sounds like a wise thing for you to move out and separate yourself from you son for a while until he can hopefully get his act together. (Maybe it would take an extended family intervention to get him the help he needs? Something to consider).

You take care and I'll be thinking of and praying for you and also for your son.

Hugs,
Lisa

Kathleen808

Michele,
Michele, I am so sorry you are going through all this. I know you need to mourn the loss of Angel and it sounds like things are just so hard right now. It will be very good for you to have some time and a place for yourself.
I will keep praying for you and your brother.
Aloha,
Kathleen

johnnybegood

Kathleen808 said:

Michele,
Michele, I am so sorry you are going through all this. I know you need to mourn the loss of Angel and it sounds like things are just so hard right now. It will be very good for you to have some time and a place for yourself.
I will keep praying for you and your brother.
Aloha,
Kathleen

hey michelle
sorry you are having rough times but just remember we are all here for you day or night.i think about you often as you know i am originally from scottsdale and my mom still lives there.things will get better you are a fighter and i know angel is watching over you .Godbless.....johnnybegood

angelsbaby

PhillieG said:

Michelle
I am saddened to hear about your situation. I had no idea any of that was going on. It certainly is that last thing you need to be happening at any time. Anti-depressants can do wonders. Sometimes it's just a matter of finding the right one for YOU. If this one doesn't quite do the trick maybe try a different one.
all my best to you
-phil

Thanks phil And cliff
just another day in my life can't let it get me to down. And you do help by always reading and responding you are awesome . Have a good day talk to you soon.

michelle

angelsbaby

VickiCO said:

Michelle
We are here for you, my friend. Please, if there is anything I can do, just ASK. (Except the alarm thing...I set mine off all the time!) Seriously, I want to help. Let me know how I can...

many hugs, Vicki

Vicki
you just did help, another great person who has always been there for me and i can't thank you enough. I am at a big mountain right now once i get over the mountain things will get better i just no it. I hope all is well with you to vicki..

michelle

angelsbaby

Sundanceh said:

Thinking of YOU
Michelle

We got a chance to talk a little bit the other night when you responded to my post and then I posted back to talk to you and then you responded back to that.

When I got here, it was right after Angel's passing...and I was new and did not know anybody or have a relationship with anyone at that time...I was just trying to see where I could fit in with my treatments and cancer experience and such.

I had posted my condolences, but left it at that, because I wanted to respect your space and I figured one day we would talk and then it would be appropriate to say something to you. All of you were friends and I just did not want to butt in - like who is this guy?

I was concerned when I read about your RJA issue with your granddaughter and I immediately got hold of a lady who knew about RA and that webiste link and got it to you ASAP. I really want to hear back from you on how that turns out - I'm hoping that will be an answer that will help treat her condition...children should not have to go through so much strife at such a tender age.

I continue to be saddened about your husband's loss...listening to you and everybody talk about him, I feel like I know of him...I know he liked his beer

Anyway, you are very courageous and were a wonderful caregiver, and a good Mom and Grandmother. I'm so sorry to read your post about your son...that stuff he's doing is very unpredictable and you have to look out for yourself at this point.

I'm saddened by you having to sell the bike and move out of your house...life is just not always fair, we've all been told. I wish I had a magic wand and sweep all of your heartbreak and anguish away - it would already be done.

I must say that your attitude is refreshing and you are handling everything superbly. I respect you and what you're doing - you've been dealt a bad hand of cards, but it has not got you down.

I know you have alot of friends here and I don't want to butt in, but I would also like to be considered a friend of yours too - if you got room for one more?

I've thought of your brother since I read that post too and hope that things turn around for him and you too. You have had enough for all of our lifetimes...a good woman like you will have more good days coming, I feel it.

Take care of yourself...I really do want to hear about how the RJA treatments work out.

-Craig

Craig
Haley my grandaughter did go to the jra dr the best in az And said the pros out way the cons in haleys case she is in remission but has to be that way 1 yr to be in remission 5 months to go. Then the dr will see about rducing her meds so we are all ok with that but still worried about the cancer . Craig i did go to that website got the info and haleys mom did show it to the dr. again thank you for that. And you are my friend and i am the lucky one. Angel did love his beer too , You are awesome to have remebered everything about my situation. God Bless you ,I will keep my chin up . but really you all our fighting a hard battle and i want everyone to win so bad. So talk to me when ever you want i will look foward to that.

michelle

angelsbaby

lisa42 said:

when it rains it pours
Remember that old saying "when it rains it pours"? Well, it sure seems like you've been hit with way more than your fair share of difficulty in life lately. I'm so very sorry with all you're having to go through. I suppose if we follow the logic of the above saying, we could also go with the one "the sun will come out tomorrow!" (I could now break into full course on that song from "Annie", but I'll spare us all
Anyhow, I'm not trying to make light of your difficulty in any way, shape, or form- just that things have to start getting better.
I do think it sounds like a wise thing for you to move out and separate yourself from you son for a while until he can hopefully get his act together. (Maybe it would take an extended family intervention to get him the help he needs? Something to consider).

You take care and I'll be thinking of and praying for you and also for your son.

Hugs,
Lisa

Lisa
We tried the ex family thing for my son didn't work but thanks angel and i have delt with this on and off for about 4 yrs now. I think i will be ok if nothing else big happens. And I really like your picture too. Thanks lisa for being there for me.

take care

michelle