It's Going To Be Long, Fret-Filled Weekend...keep me in your thoughts please!

chenheart
chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
It is really hard to be 50' tall sometimes, and this is one of those times~my knees are buckling, making it difficult to stand.

After almost 7 years post dx, and all good labs, mammos, MRI's etc etc...my "affected" breast is hot, a bit swollen, achy and sensitive to the touch , for lack of a better word, I am "aware" of it, if that makes sense. Of course I called my oncologist as soon as the office opened at 8AM; you knew I would do that!

They transferred the call directly to the Surgeon who did such a beautiful job on me way back in 2003. That actually scared the daylights out of me, but as the wonderful scheduler ( who has also been there since I became a patient) said, my surgeon is the Breast Specialist, and that my onco doc would have sent me there anyway~ this way I am going right to her and by-passing the onco doc.

So, my appointment is TUESDAY at 3:45, thus the long, fret-filled weekend.

I know we all have things to do, places to be, and our own frets and worries, along with celebrations, too~ but if you could find a small place for me in your hearts? I would really appreciate the good vibes.

And not jumping the gun, but this morning, my sweet Reggie said, IF IF IF we have to do this again, he will shave his head too. Which may not seem like a big deal to many, but my Native American man has thick, braided hair to the middle of his back~ so yeah, it's a major sacrifice which he is willing to do to show solidarity with me. But let's hope it doesn't come to that....

Anyway~ Tuesday is both a along way off and snapping at my heels at the same time.

Hugs,
Claudia
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  • lolad
    lolad Member Posts: 670
    #2
    Claudia
    I most certainly will keep a place in my heart for you and pray alot that all goes ok. What a wonderful support you have with Reggie with him saying he would shave his head too with you. Wow! You are most definatly in my prayers. A big hug to you as well and hug Reggie for me as well!! HAHA

    laura
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #3
    lolad said:

    Claudia
    I most certainly will keep a place in my heart for you and pray alot that all goes ok. What a wonderful support you have with Reggie with him saying he would shave his head too with you. Wow! You are most definatly in my prayers. A big hug to you as well and hug Reggie for me as well!! HAHA

    laura

    Thank you so much, Laura~
    Thank you so much, Laura~ and I will hug Reggie from you! He has gotten a lot of hugs from unknown BC posters over the years! And he deserves them!

    Claudia
  • Nufferz
    Nufferz Member Posts: 55
    #4
    Here to hold you up!
    Claudia, I am SO sorry for what's going on with you but just know that we're here with/for you hoping for the best. And Reggie is a saint!
    Hugs to you both.
    Nuff
  • lolad
    lolad Member Posts: 670
    #5
    chenheart said:

    Thank you so much, Laura~
    Thank you so much, Laura~ and I will hug Reggie from you! He has gotten a lot of hugs from unknown BC posters over the years! And he deserves them!

    Claudia

    claudia
    I just want to say one more thing. Your words are always so kind and wonderful to everyone on the board. You deserve much support for all the support you give to everyone here. God will bless you for this one way or another. Hugs and prayers again!

    laura
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #6
    lolad said:

    claudia
    I just want to say one more thing. Your words are always so kind and wonderful to everyone on the board. You deserve much support for all the support you give to everyone here. God will bless you for this one way or another. Hugs and prayers again!

    laura

    Thank you so much, Laura and
    Thank you so much, Laura and Nuff; I am surrounded by well-wishers, and yes, my Reggie is indeed a saint! I just need an extra dose of courage! :-)

    Hugs,
    Claudia
  • Kat11
    Kat11 Member Posts: 1,931 Member
    #7
    Nufferz said:

    Here to hold you up!
    Claudia, I am SO sorry for what's going on with you but just know that we're here with/for you hoping for the best. And Reggie is a saint!
    Hugs to you both.
    Nuff

    Claudia
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
  • zahalene
    zahalene Member Posts: 670
    #8
    Kat11 said:

    Claudia
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Ms CC,
    HERE...if u need me.
  • tasha_111
    tasha_111 Member Posts: 2,072
    #9
    zahalene said:

    Ms CC,
    HERE...if u need me.

    Claudia
    I'm thinking of you.... Huge Hugs Jxxxxxxxxxx
  • Moopy23
    Moopy23 Member Posts: 1,751 Member
    #10
    Not a small place, dear Claudia
    Oh, Chen, you have a permanent place in my heart and in Joe's. We treasure the ode that you wrote to us. You were one of the very first to respond to his call for help way back in January, and you have been there ever since. When wisdom and hope or healing humor are needed, you are there. You're a true champion for us all. Henry V had Shakespeare to help him really the troops; we have you to inspire and rally us.

    No shears will be needed for your brave Reggie. Because you will be fine. I hope that you will spend the time between now and Tuesday doing what you always do: loving your man and your friends and family and participating in all life has to offer.
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #11
    Dear, witty Claudia... you
    Dear, witty Claudia... you already have a place in my heart... and I will most definately be keeping you in my thoughts all through the weekend and into next week... I am sending extra postive thoughts and energy your way my friend... and what a wonderful man your sweet Reggie is... however... with all the positive thoughts and energy coming your way, your Reggie will be able to hold on to that long braided hair.... no matter what we are here for you, as you my friend, have been there for all of us...

    Sending you love, hugs, and positive energy...

    ~T
  • SoftBallMom2
    SoftBallMom2 Member Posts: 56 Member
    #12
    Just wanted to tell you I
    Just wanted to tell you I will be thinking about you and praying everything is fine.
  • tgf
    tgf Member Posts: 950 Member
    #13
    SoftBallMom2 said:

    Just wanted to tell you I
    Just wanted to tell you I will be thinking about you and praying everything is fine.

    Weekend plans
    My weekend plans will be to continue non-stop thinking positive thoughts for you. You have been there for all of us when we've needed it ... and we are there for you now ... 100%.

    hugs.
    Teena
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159 Member
    #14
    tgf said:

    Weekend plans
    My weekend plans will be to continue non-stop thinking positive thoughts for you. You have been there for all of us when we've needed it ... and we are there for you now ... 100%.

    hugs.
    Teena

    Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale....
    I hope that all of you here know just how much your prayers, thoughts, and loving responses to my less than 50' of courage is already making me stand with more confidence. Reggie actually said I have it in me to be 51 feet tall if need be...and I sure hope so!

    Hugs and gratitude coupled with love!
    Claudia
  • mimivac
    mimivac Member Posts: 2,143 Member
    #15
    Thinking of you, Claudia
    Oh, Claudia, I will of course be thinking of you. But I just know this will be something benign. I've heard this story time and again and it's almost always just fine. But I know you are very worried. Our previous histories makes us worry about all of these things, big and small. Your Reggie will not have to shave his head and neither will you, dear. Positive, healing thoughts coming your way.

    Mimi
  • bfbear
    bfbear Member Posts: 380
    #16
    chenheart said:

    Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale....
    I hope that all of you here know just how much your prayers, thoughts, and loving responses to my less than 50' of courage is already making me stand with more confidence. Reggie actually said I have it in me to be 51 feet tall if need be...and I sure hope so!

    Hugs and gratitude coupled with love!
    Claudia

    It's good to breathe, breathe, breathe...
    and I will also be thinking of you and sending good prayers to God/Buddha/the Great Spirit all the way through Tuesday, for your peace of mind and good health.

    XOXOXOX,
    Debi
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    #17
    Ow! So sorry you are having
    Ow! So sorry you are having a scare! I was diagnosed in 2003 also. Could Reggie do a healing dance for you? Hang in there. Hugs.
  • Jeanne D
    Jeanne D Member Posts: 1,867
    #18
    Dear Claudia :)
    I will hold in my heart, the biggest prayer for you that everything will be just fine, and, I am sure it will be!

    I am so happy that you will get in Tuesday to see the doctor, which I know, doesn't seem soon enough, but, at least you are on top of this Claudia.

    Just do what you tell all of us to do. Think good positive thoughts and relax. I know it will be hard, but, please try.

    I so enjoyed hearing your voice yesterday and talking to you! It really does add to the bond that we all share even more!

    Lots of hugs, thoughts and prayers just for you!

    Love, Jeanne
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #19
    I'm sending warm hugs...
    Oh, dearheart....I will be walking each step with you....

    Please, please let us know as soon as you do...and, of COURSE you were right on top of it...

    It may well be nothing...at one point, my breast was hot, and red, and I saw my oncologist...she did some scans, but said she REALLY didn't think it was anything other than a slight pull on the breast...some physical thing I had done...she gave me antibiotics, just in case, but the whole thing was over in a matter of 3 weeks...

    BIG hugs, Kathi
  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    #20
    Jeanne D said:

    Dear Claudia :)
    I will hold in my heart, the biggest prayer for you that everything will be just fine, and, I am sure it will be!

    I am so happy that you will get in Tuesday to see the doctor, which I know, doesn't seem soon enough, but, at least you are on top of this Claudia.

    Just do what you tell all of us to do. Think good positive thoughts and relax. I know it will be hard, but, please try.

    I so enjoyed hearing your voice yesterday and talking to you! It really does add to the bond that we all share even more!

    Lots of hugs, thoughts and prayers just for you!

    Love, Jeanne

    My 50 foot friend
    I understand your anxiety over this, and I am glad you have your sweet Reggie beside you, He is your "rock" and will be beside you through the good and the bad, although I am certain he will not have to shave his beautiful braid, it just shows how loved you are. You are not just loved by your man, but by every one of us here.

    You will have my prayers and best wishes always..and especially now. Tuesday seems a long way from now when you are worried, but try to focus on the positive. I know you will. You have been such an inspiration to us all.. my kinded sister, and I will keep you in my heart.
    love and hugs,
    jackie
  • cruf
    cruf Member Posts: 908
    #21
    KathiM said:

    I'm sending warm hugs...
    Oh, dearheart....I will be walking each step with you....

    Please, please let us know as soon as you do...and, of COURSE you were right on top of it...

    It may well be nothing...at one point, my breast was hot, and red, and I saw my oncologist...she did some scans, but said she REALLY didn't think it was anything other than a slight pull on the breast...some physical thing I had done...she gave me antibiotics, just in case, but the whole thing was over in a matter of 3 weeks...

    BIG hugs, Kathi

    HUGS and more HUGS!
    I'm so sorry you are going thru this but I feel that this is just a small inconvienence for you right now and will turn out to be nothing! I'm not a praying woman but have been doing alot of it lately and you are now in my group! Please try to keep yourself busy and not panic . Please let us know ASAP what is happening. I'm hoping this redness goes away in a few days. HUGS!!! Cathy

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