Aren't we all just such amazing people. aaaaaargghhh! I am so frustrated and angry! I have done everything that I should have. Read my books on breast cancer, talked about it, prepared for the op, lived through it. And I have been strong strong strong. But I feel like a cannot handle one more second with this internal bleeding. My blood boob is huge and painfull with every move I make. Yes, I'm going to the oncologist now. Yes, she will sort it out (for now). But right now I am ready to kill someone. I am really very angry.