Scared, confused need answers and support
I feel really badly that I haven't been posting as much as I can so .........
First let me start by welcoming all the new people here that I have failed to post on......I've read all your posts and for once am caught up......
So Welcome!!!!! to the best place every for comfort and support. You'll find everything you need here from answers to to compassion.
Also I wanted to tell DMC that I'm sorry that you had such and upsetting day. I think in the long run you're going to feel better than you've got it off your chest (no pun intented) but now that your parents and your daughter know, it will be better for you not to carry that wieght on you, I wish you luck, hope and everything I have that your tests come back good. Your in my thoughts and prayers.
Taleena, I've wanted to respond to your last two posts, but to be honest I just haven't been able to find the words in me, I guess I've been a little pre-occupied with my own anxiety and fears. When you mentioned smoking in one of your posts, I realized that I'm not alone. When I found the lump on 5/13 I quit smoking the next day by using the patch. It worked great for 4 weeks but when I was DX'd on 6/12, I went straight home and grabbed a cigerette from my HusBro (I call him that because we're not married, but have been together a life time it seems hence Hus-Bro)anyway that lasted for 2 weeks smoking under 5 a day, and then I quit(again with the patch) for about another week. And am back at it again.......I don't know whats the matter with me,I know I have cancer, but the anxiety of waiting is killing me, or like you said making me want to kill something. I'm sorry your test results are taking so long, but that trip sounds like just the medicine you need, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers also.
Now to the reason for this really long post, my insurance finally approved the first step of my treatment. I go for an MRI tomorrow and my surgury is scheduled for the next day (Wednesday) at 5pm. I have to get there at 2pm for ?????????..........now suddenly I'm scared out of my mind I've read everyone posts (including yours Pammy Chapters 1,2,3, etc.) But I don't know what to expect.
Can anyone help me out here, I'm having a lumpectomy and also the sentiel node removed. .........
I have lots of questions like how long after I start the actual surgury will it be over?
What should I wear?
Will they remove more nodes if the find cancer in the first one?
And Why am I gettingt there 3 hours ahead of time? what is the firsty thing that happens?
I know I should be calling my surgeon, which I will tomorrow but meanwhile I'm going out of my mind. I didn't think I would react like this but here I sit looking for comfort from my peers. Please help the imediate waiting is over for me......and now I'm scared
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