Good Morning ALL

dorookie
dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Its about 3am here in AZ, slept pretty much all day so I am now up and about. Had a rough day today. Only a few days until my PET scan and I was feeling sorry for myself, wondering what in the heck I am going to do it the scan lites up something. I don't get to see my ONC until the 30th so I have to wait for 8 days, I don't know if I can handle that. I have read where allot of y'all just go and get your results but Wendy was saying would I be able to read them, what if I had questions, so she is thinking its best to wait to see the ONC that way he could answer any questions that I might have, after he picks me up from the floor if something has come back. I hate to sound so negative, I am just really scared. I so badly want this over just as we all do.

Plus I have to say goodbye to a very good friend tomorrow, she is leaving for Texas for a Job, I am happy for her, she deserves this job and its a promotion for her as well. She has worked so very hard for this. She used to work for me as my assistant, then she got promoted to being the supervisor of all the assistants, and now she says I cant tell her what to do anymore...LOL....Thats what she thinks, I will continue to bug her every chance I get, we are always pulling pranks on each other. That wont stop no matter the distance between us. Its a shame this office here wasn't better because it is losing all its great people to other offices... well here I am rambling again... sorry....

My daughter is really stressing about becoming a mom, and when she stresses I stress. I try to make her feel better and that she will be just fine and that she will always have me and Wendy to help her out. I know all new moms go through this, just wish she was a little closer so I could see her more. anyway rambling again.

Please pray that my scan will be clear and that all this will be over for me real soon. I want my life back as soon as possible. I really appreciate everyone here on this board, you all are just great and wonderful people, I wouldnt have made it without you all. God bless each and everyone of you and my prayers will always continue for you all and for a cure.

*HUGS*
Beth
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  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    #2
    Beth
    It sounds like you have a lot going on in your life now. I hope that all goes well with your scan and that your loved ones have safe passage to their destinations. Try to focus on what you will do when your scan comes back looking a-okay.
    -phil
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #3
    PhillieG said:

    Beth
    It sounds like you have a lot going on in your life now. I hope that all goes well with your scan and that your loved ones have safe passage to their destinations. Try to focus on what you will do when your scan comes back looking a-okay.
    -phil

    Thanks Phil
    Yes I am trying to do that, trying to fight all the negative thoughts out of my mind and keep the positive ones in....Thank you sweetie

    Beth
  • lizzydavis
    lizzydavis Member Posts: 893
    #4
    dorookie said:

    Thanks Phil
    Yes I am trying to do that, trying to fight all the negative thoughts out of my mind and keep the positive ones in....Thank you sweetie

    Beth

    Good Thoughts are coming your way.
    Hi Beth,

    I just said a special prayer for you. Good thoughts and good wishes are also going your way. I hope you feel our support!
  • VickiCO
    VickiCO Member Posts: 917
    #5
    Beth
    You know that we have your back...and all the prayers are coming your way. I am thinking extra hard about you today.

    Today is my last day of chemo, and the anxiety is setting is as well. What IF??? Don't you hate that? I am fortunate that my doctor reads my scans the same day and calls me...can you call your doc and ask as well? 8 days seems sooo long to wait.

    Many, many hugs and thoughts. We love you....Vicki
  • nudgie
    nudgie Member Posts: 1,478 Member
    #6
    Nerves
    We all go through the anxiety of waiting on the results for scans and bloodworks. I am almost 3 years NED and I still get anxious about getting the results and actually flipped out once when the Drs office called me to tell me the results because I usually just tell them to mail them to me.

    Take a deep breath and enjoy TODAY. Smell the roses, run the grass through your toes, have a glass of wine or a bottle of beer, call your daughter and just be a mom.

    I have learned to take one-day-at-a-time and to enjoy what life has to offer each day and for once, I am really learning to enjoy the little and simple things again.
  • ldot123
    ldot123 Member Posts: 272
    #7
    nudgie said:

    Nerves
    We all go through the anxiety of waiting on the results for scans and bloodworks. I am almost 3 years NED and I still get anxious about getting the results and actually flipped out once when the Drs office called me to tell me the results because I usually just tell them to mail them to me.

    Take a deep breath and enjoy TODAY. Smell the roses, run the grass through your toes, have a glass of wine or a bottle of beer, call your daughter and just be a mom.

    I have learned to take one-day-at-a-time and to enjoy what life has to offer each day and for once, I am really learning to enjoy the little and simple things again.

    Been there too
    I hate the wait-even though it is only a week. Know that I am sending positive vibes out to you and that all is well.

    Cheers, Lance
  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    #8
    ldot123 said:

    Been there too
    I hate the wait-even though it is only a week. Know that I am sending positive vibes out to you and that all is well.

    Cheers, Lance

    Thinking of You
    I am anxious about any test, including blood tests. It would be nice if you could get your results earlier than 8 days away. I don't think it's fair to the patient that the doctor makes them wait that long when they have the results earlier than that. Maybe doctors should schedule office visits for the next day after a test but I know that isn't always possibles. Sending good thoughts your way for a superb test result.

    Kim
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    #9
    Annabelle41415 said:

    Thinking of You
    I am anxious about any test, including blood tests. It would be nice if you could get your results earlier than 8 days away. I don't think it's fair to the patient that the doctor makes them wait that long when they have the results earlier than that. Maybe doctors should schedule office visits for the next day after a test but I know that isn't always possibles. Sending good thoughts your way for a superb test result.

    Kim

    Beth
    I hope eveything is gone and gone forever Sending my prayers..michelle
  • PamPam2
    PamPam2 Member Posts: 370 Member
    #10
    Scan report
    Hi Beth.

    You can request the REPORT for your scans, that is what I do, not the actual scans. The reports are pretty understandable and you can look up words you don't understand on the internet dictionary. It is hell waiting for days or a week or more after your scans to see the doctor, so I started asking for copies of the reports, they are usually available here the next day. If there is scary news on the report, at least you know, and if the news is good, your anxiety level drops instantly, so for me it is worth getting those reports right away. Hope yours has the best possible news!
    Pam
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #11
    VickiCO said:

    Beth
    You know that we have your back...and all the prayers are coming your way. I am thinking extra hard about you today.

    Today is my last day of chemo, and the anxiety is setting is as well. What IF??? Don't you hate that? I am fortunate that my doctor reads my scans the same day and calls me...can you call your doc and ask as well? 8 days seems sooo long to wait.

    Many, many hugs and thoughts. We love you....Vicki

    I am going to try
    and do just that, the 8 days will probably put me over the edge if I have to wait that long. Thanks for having my back I sure do need it, and prayers for you too.

    God Bless
    Beth
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #12
    angelsbaby said:

    Beth
    I hope eveything is gone and gone forever Sending my prayers..michelle

    Thanks Hon
    I really appreciate it, and I pray you are 100% right!!!!

    Beth
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #13
    PamPam2 said:

    Scan report
    Hi Beth.

    You can request the REPORT for your scans, that is what I do, not the actual scans. The reports are pretty understandable and you can look up words you don't understand on the internet dictionary. It is hell waiting for days or a week or more after your scans to see the doctor, so I started asking for copies of the reports, they are usually available here the next day. If there is scary news on the report, at least you know, and if the news is good, your anxiety level drops instantly, so for me it is worth getting those reports right away. Hope yours has the best possible news!
    Pam

    I have to do something
    I cant wait those 8 days, I will try and get that and find a way to read it. From my experience with my ONC if the needs is not good they wont give me the results, but if I am standing there maybe he will take a few minutes to see me. Cant hurt to try, but I am hoping and praying the results are good.

    Thank you
    Beth
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #14
    ldot123 said:

    Been there too
    I hate the wait-even though it is only a week. Know that I am sending positive vibes out to you and that all is well.

    Cheers, Lance

    Thanks Lance
    I appreciate your positive vibes I need all I can get...

    Thank you again
    Beth
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    #15
    Hey, Beth
    Hey, Beth.

    I can so understand your anxiety. Waiting is just the pits! First of all, I hope and pray that your results will be absolutely beautiful! And I also hope that you'll be able to get the report sooner and put your mind at ease.

    You sound like me, as far as your daughter is concerned. I feel like I can't breathe when something is concerning about one of my children. I'm not okay unless they're okay.

    Let us know as soon as you can about your results.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #16
    tootsie1 said:

    Hey, Beth
    Hey, Beth.

    I can so understand your anxiety. Waiting is just the pits! First of all, I hope and pray that your results will be absolutely beautiful! And I also hope that you'll be able to get the report sooner and put your mind at ease.

    You sound like me, as far as your daughter is concerned. I feel like I can't breathe when something is concerning about one of my children. I'm not okay unless they're okay.

    Let us know as soon as you can about your results.

    *hugs*
    Gail

    Will Do
    Thanks Gail, yes we are alot alike, I hate it and can just tell by the tone of her voice on the phone bu she will just say everything is okay...I keep tellin her she will be about 25 yrs old before realizes mom is not stupid, and that mom has gone through what she is going through. Only time will telll.....

    Thanks
    Beth
  • grandma2selena
    grandma2selena Member Posts: 199
    #17
    The Wait
    Beth,

    That dreaded waiting period is the worse, I know I had to wait a week and a half to get my PET scan results in. I don't know how I did it without driving myself nuts, somehow I forgot about it or put it to the back of my mind. I guess it helped that I had my colonoscopy still to go through, along with a vacation to see some family. Looking back on it I now realize it never entered my mind that I had to wait so long, normally I would be like you going out of my mind.

    I am praying your PET is clear and that you endure the wait. I also am praying for your loved ones. You wouldn't be a good mom if you didn't worry about all your daughter's worries. And you wouldn't be a good friend if you didn't recognize the fact that while this is a good move for your friend it will be a difficult one at the same time.

    Hang in there!
    Debbie
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #18
    grandma2selena said:

    The Wait
    Beth,

    That dreaded waiting period is the worse, I know I had to wait a week and a half to get my PET scan results in. I don't know how I did it without driving myself nuts, somehow I forgot about it or put it to the back of my mind. I guess it helped that I had my colonoscopy still to go through, along with a vacation to see some family. Looking back on it I now realize it never entered my mind that I had to wait so long, normally I would be like you going out of my mind.

    I am praying your PET is clear and that you endure the wait. I also am praying for your loved ones. You wouldn't be a good mom if you didn't worry about all your daughter's worries. And you wouldn't be a good friend if you didn't recognize the fact that while this is a good move for your friend it will be a difficult one at the same time.

    Hang in there!
    Debbie

    The wait sucks
    Thank you for your very kind words, I really appreciate them and I am hanging in there. Time will pass and it will be over before I know it.

    THank you
    Beth
  • BigPapaBear73
    BigPapaBear73 Member Posts: 10
    #19
    dorookie said:

    The wait sucks
    Thank you for your very kind words, I really appreciate them and I am hanging in there. Time will pass and it will be over before I know it.

    THank you
    Beth

    Prayers
    I will keep you in my prayers.

    Hector
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    #20
    BigPapaBear73 said:

    Prayers
    I will keep you in my prayers.

    Hector

    Thank you
    I am on my way to the PET SCAN in about 5 minutes. Thank you for your prayers, I totally appreciate them, and God bless you too.

    Beth
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    #21
    dorookie said:

    Thank you
    I am on my way to the PET SCAN in about 5 minutes. Thank you for your prayers, I totally appreciate them, and God bless you too.

    Beth

    Good Luck
    beth

    michelle

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