terrible feelings or thoughts well after idcis

michellemac

Hi! I'm Michelle from Canal Winchester Ohio. I am a survivor. About 4 years. Now addicted to Vicodin. Never before a "user". Live with being treated as an addict. However, my question is I really concerned about my "depression". I've had it since my now 11 year old was born. Now I have been in the hosp. 2x's I have weird feelings, thoughts. A place where I hate in my head. Have been in the mental hosp. 2x's not sure what is going on. my thought is the "chemo" damaged my brain. something terrible happened to me right at the end on my radiation doc put me on Seroquel to help me get through "it". I got off of that crap finally after 3.5 years. still having the "bad feelings". anyone else or similar comparisons.

thanks

Aortus

My heart goes out to you
Congrats on being four years out, Michelle. I look forward to the day when my beloved Moopy celebrates her fourth year of survivorship... that's 3 1/2 years away though. I can't really offer you any advice there, but I sure know about depression. Diagnosed in 1995, probably born depressed, will be popping Zoloft the rest of my days. I thank God that it works.

My little baby sister the pharmacist has had to try every depression med under the sun. When she had our goddaughter in 1996, the docs weaned her off her meds. When she had our godson in 1999, she basically said "screw that" and stayed on her meds. No problem. Later on she got addicted to Vicodin and got her pharmacy license suspended. Went through rehab and has been clean and sober ever since, but every day is a fight for her. No cancer, thank God, but endometriosis, crushed vertebrae, nerve pain... you name it. We don't have the time to talk often enough, but I know she suffers from a lot of really terrible thoughts too. I wish there was something I could do for her, and for you too. At least I will pray for you too when I pray for her every day.

Best,
Joe