I know where to come when I'm feeling overwhelmed and you ladies are it. I need some GOD info...that stands for Good Orderly Direction since my emotions are getting the best of me. I had a double mas June 18 with expanders put in at the time of surgery. Didn't think I needed radiation but turns out I did. Finished radiation October 8. I was so looking forward to getting rid of these concrete blocks in my chest and moving on with the implants. My skin has healed very well. I have a bit of tenderness on the side of my one breast but nothing severe. I'm back to exercising and yoga. My plastic surgeon said that the basic rule is to wait one month for every week of radiation before doing more surgery and the implants. Do these Drs not understand what a life time feels like?! That will take be back to the time when this whole aweful ordeal started. I feel like I'm just chasing myself ragged in a circle. It's like being on the not so merry merry go round while everything else just seems to continue on it's way and pass me by. The radiation oncologist feels my healing process is going well and would let the surgeon know that perhaps that a bit sooner would be OK. I'm hoping for a "spring fling". My birthday is the first day of spring and I think that would be a great gift but how will I make it until then? How will I look at 2009 not being a New Year but just a continuation of this same bad year?