A Really Stupid Embarrasing Thing

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  • Buzzard
    Buzzard Member Posts: 3,043 Member
    #22
    kmygil said:

    NEVER ALONE!
    Hi Krista,

    It's so funny. I thought I was a unique idiot and went to great lengths to hide it from others for a while. I did tell my doctors, and they just look at me with that, "Wow, how stupid are you!" look. It's reassuring to know that I'm not alone in this battle. Even if you don't have cancer, you feel like a dumba-- for doing it, but now I feel sort of like a super dumba---! I do feel a lot better and re-inspired after reading all the posts. This is what makes this forum so excellent!!!!

    Hugs,
    Kirsten

    Heres My Story about the Smoking........
    OK...I quit after 18 years of 2 packs a day on December 18th 2007, threw em down. Got mad because I have young children and I wanted to make sure I did everything I could to see them grow up. I am not or will not be a slave to cigarettes,or cancer and will not succumb to either. It was not for me , it was for those who love me that want to keep me around. If they love me that much the least I can do for them is quit smoking. Tell ya what, take a piece of white cloth like a pillow case and take a draw off a cigarette and then blow it through the mesh of the pillow case and look at what is left behind. YUCKKKKK.....that goes into your body. Also, look at the money I have saved by quitting, $250 per month. I don't stink anymore, food taste way better, etc, etc. Alright, I'm really doing great then BOOOOM, I was diagnosed with cancer in March. Talk about making ya mad. OK, I have now quit smoking to save my life and they tell me I have cancer. Might as well start smoking again, right ? WRONGGGGGGG...I am going to beat them both, the smoking and the cancer because I am a lot stronger than they are. The cancer is a monster and so are the cigs but they have never come up against someone like me before.....I took my life back when I quit smoking and I will be damned if cigarettes or cancer will kill me. Thats how I fight my battle...head on. Get mad, throw em down and tell yourself thats the first step in beating it all, and it is.......
    God Bless ya.........and Good Luck
  • kmygil
    kmygil Member Posts: 876 Member
    #23
    Buzzard said:

    Heres My Story about the Smoking........
    OK...I quit after 18 years of 2 packs a day on December 18th 2007, threw em down. Got mad because I have young children and I wanted to make sure I did everything I could to see them grow up. I am not or will not be a slave to cigarettes,or cancer and will not succumb to either. It was not for me , it was for those who love me that want to keep me around. If they love me that much the least I can do for them is quit smoking. Tell ya what, take a piece of white cloth like a pillow case and take a draw off a cigarette and then blow it through the mesh of the pillow case and look at what is left behind. YUCKKKKK.....that goes into your body. Also, look at the money I have saved by quitting, $250 per month. I don't stink anymore, food taste way better, etc, etc. Alright, I'm really doing great then BOOOOM, I was diagnosed with cancer in March. Talk about making ya mad. OK, I have now quit smoking to save my life and they tell me I have cancer. Might as well start smoking again, right ? WRONGGGGGGG...I am going to beat them both, the smoking and the cancer because I am a lot stronger than they are. The cancer is a monster and so are the cigs but they have never come up against someone like me before.....I took my life back when I quit smoking and I will be damned if cigarettes or cancer will kill me. Thats how I fight my battle...head on. Get mad, throw em down and tell yourself thats the first step in beating it all, and it is.......
    God Bless ya.........and Good Luck

    Talk about a fighter!
    Man, you are a warrior! I can't imagine taking that step, going through all the effort of quitting, and then being smacked upside the head with the diagnosis. I would have ranted and raved...and probably lit up.

    Makes me very ashamed to be addicted like this. I have done the blowing through the white cloth thing, and it is soooo gross. This was part of the aversion therapy I did for a while. They also stuck you in a tiny booth that was filled with all the residue of smoke, filled with cigarette butts, and made you smoke cigarette after cigarette without inhaling. That kept me off the smokes for at least 3 days every time. But alas, addiction is not rational. I have to make my rational mind overcome the chemical receptors telling me I need this when I don't.

    You and everyone who responded to this post make me feel like I CAN DO IT! I WILL DO IT! Thank you so much!

    God bless,
    Kirsten

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