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dorookie
dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
As much as I love this place, I was hoping I wouldnt have to return. A bit about me, I was 38 when I was DX May 2007, Stage 3 colon cancer, had surgery to remove the beast, 3 months of chemo, 2 months of radiation, another 3 months of chemo, was NEDS in june of 2008. Went for my 3 month check up and they found something in my right lung, had a PET scan and it lite up. My ONC has a lung biopsy planned for me this week. He suspects it is cancer, but hoping its not. I cant believe this is happening to me, I really thought I was finished with this, and that it was just a matter of time I would be completely cured, what a dumb **** I am. I cant even put into words how I feel, my mind is just racing with all kinds of thoughts. This time I will be financially wiped out, will probably have to forclose on my house, and I just hope and pray I will have the strength to be able to work while I go through the chemo again. I am praying it wont be as bad. Has this happened to anyone? SO soon after being NEDS? Was the second round of chemo worse? Is this going to kill me? If anyone has any advise, please talk to me. I am so afraid this is going to kill me, I just turned 40 and cant believe my life could be ending so soon. I hate to sound so down and hopeless its just how I am feeling right now. my email is DOROOKIE2003@yahoo.com I live in Coolidge Arizona, anyone live around here, I really feel I need to be able to connect with someone close. Someone who knows what I am going through, someone I can talk with, cry with, scream with and to get through this with. I do have a great family and lots of friends to support me, but its hard on them as well. It would be nice to have someone that is going through this to talk with. Okay I am rambling now, I will close and say I am so glad this board is here, everyone is so wonderful and I really appreciate all the advise and support I have received in the past. Beth

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  • jenjerandkatesmom
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    Peace be with you
    I don't live in your area but recently went through the same thing. I finished chemo in May 2007. 2 small nodules were found in my left lung on a follow up CT in August 2008. They did not light up on the PET because they were too small but fortunately my oncologist did not have a "wait and see" attitude and recommended the biopsy. Yes, they were colorectal cancer and now I have to fight again. All of the questions that are going through your mind were exactly the ones that I was asking. The death thing...get it out of your mind. What if you LIVE another 40 years? What if that nodule is NOT cancer? What's so frightening is the unknown. Only God knows when our journey on this earth will end and I just don't think he's going to send us a letter with that date on it. You need all of the positive energy you can find to make some good decisions about your future. Once I got past that, I was able to ask others on this board for advice on how to proceed. I felt empowered by the answers that I received and I was able to make a "battle plan" and you will be able to do the same. Take it one day at a time. Anything more is overwhelming and you just don't need that! You are in my prayers now and I am praying that you receive some peace. If I was right there, I'd give you a hug. Hope you can feel it.
    -Sharon
  • Monicaemilia
    Monicaemilia Member Posts: 455 Member
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    Take a deep breath....
    Beth: I was dx in November 2005 with mets to the liver. I'm one of those people that can't be without chemo for too long before I have something else pop up, but it's November 2008, my son is about to celebrate his third birthday, and I'm still here, feeling good. You can read my story on my web page. I do need to update it with the latest news that I had a recurrence in my liver, but I am dealing with that too. I'm starting chemo again and looking at the possiblity of surgery/rfa/or sir spheres. I know exactly what it feels like when you think you got it beat and then it surfaces again, but that does not mean you give up. One spot in the lungs can be surgically removed and you are still CURABLE. Colorectal cancer is the one cancer that responds very well to surgical removal. You need to keep your spirits up and believe that it WILL happen. I do not live close to you as I live in Toronto, Canada, but I will be happy to call you if you need someone with whom to bounce your feelings. Just send me your number through the e-mail system on this site. Take heart, be patient, and God bless. Monica
  • taraHK
    taraHK Member Posts: 1,952 Member
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    It's going to be OK
    I am so sorry that you are facing the possibility of a recurrence. Of course, I hope it is not -- but it sounds like you are already preparing for that possibility. I was diagnosed with Stage III rectal cancer and found out I had a recurrence in my lung about 2 years after my first surgery. I think learning about the recurrence was even worse than my initial diagnosis -- if that is possible! But, I want to assure you -- a recurrence is not a death sentence! A solitary lesion in the lung is often amenable to surgery (mine was) and, as my surgeon said "This is surgery with curative intent" (music to my ears). I did have to have chemo after the surgery. No, it was not worse -- in many ways it was easier, but I had been through it before and knew what to expect. Far of the unknown is usually harder than actually doing it! I have had further recurrences since then (you probably don't want to hear about that now!). But -- I have a very different perspective now -- a "chronic disease model". Of course we all want a total cure and complete remission. But, for some of us, we may be living with the disease for many years, and occasionally have to undertake some further treatment. Meanwhile, new drugs, surgical methods, and other medical advances keep appearing at an astonishing rate. It has been 5+ years since my original diagnosis -- I am having some "mop up" chemo now. But, I ALIVE, working, mothering, enjoying a social life, and carrying on. It is very , very hard to "get on that horse" again. But, you can do it.
    Best wishes,
    Tara
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
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    I'm sending BIG hugs...
    Aw, Beth...I wish I DID live close...I'm a whole state away in California.

    If you read my page, you would see that even though I haven't had your experience with mets, I HAVE been told 'You have cancer' twice in a short amount of time. My stage III rectal cancer was followed by stage II breast cancer. Now, you might say this is easier...it's not the same...but I carry with me the possibility to have 2 Difference cancers return...and both of them were already in the lymph system...

    Oh, how I DESPISE this beast!!!!

    There are many programs that can financially help you with your chemo, and your treatment. Ask your oncologist about them. Some drug companies will actually totally underwrite the cost of their drugs...

    You are not going to die at 40! You are going to FIGHT this AGAIN!!! I know you are weary, I remember saying that when they told me about chemo for my breast cancer, 6 months after finishing the chemo for the rectal cancer. "Why didn't the first round get this cancer, too?" "Well",they said, "It's a different cancer, and although it weakened it, it is still there". My 5th (!) second opinion said it the best: "You fought so hard the first time around, why would you throw that all away by not fighting as hard as you can this time?"

    I'm throwing my arms around you, dearheart, and as you said in my post...you have seen so many things in this big world....you WILL see MORE!!!

    Hugs, Kathi
  • Kanort
    Kanort Member Posts: 1,272 Member
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    Thinking of You!
    Hi Beth,

    I am so sorry you are having to face more uncertainties right now. I had what my doctor was quite certain was a lung met, but after being biopsied, was found to be a hamartoma. The waiting is the hardest. Once you know for sure what you are dealing with, then your oncologist can map out of plan. I am thinking of you and sending you my best healing wishes.

    Hugs,

    Kay
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
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    Kanort said:

    Thinking of You!
    Hi Beth,

    I am so sorry you are having to face more uncertainties right now. I had what my doctor was quite certain was a lung met, but after being biopsied, was found to be a hamartoma. The waiting is the hardest. Once you know for sure what you are dealing with, then your oncologist can map out of plan. I am thinking of you and sending you my best healing wishes.

    Hugs,

    Kay

    Thank you, Thanks to all that replied.
    Kay, I so needed to see your post this evening. I have done nothing but cry all day as my partner held me and cried with me. The waiting and the unknown can be almost as bad as the cancer at times. You brought a light of hope into this day and thank you very much. Thanks to everyone that responded, I so appreciate all the support. I will keep everyone posted as to when my biopsy will be and of course the results. You are all in my prayers!! God Bless
  • butterfly23
    butterfly23 Member Posts: 256
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    dorookie said:

    Thank you, Thanks to all that replied.
    Kay, I so needed to see your post this evening. I have done nothing but cry all day as my partner held me and cried with me. The waiting and the unknown can be almost as bad as the cancer at times. You brought a light of hope into this day and thank you very much. Thanks to everyone that responded, I so appreciate all the support. I will keep everyone posted as to when my biopsy will be and of course the results. You are all in my prayers!! God Bless

    STAY POSITIVE!
    Hi, I am 38 yrs old with stage 4 colon cancer, I just had 12 rounds of chemo and surgery 2 weeks ago, my biggest fear is what you are going through now. I was sooo strong through everything and if it happens again I don't know how I will react...I do know we cannot let this beast get the best of us. BEAT IT AGAIN if need be... Try your hardest to be strong and positive.. GET MAD!!! It's not fair, why this has to happen to us. I wish you the best of luck and we are all praying for you!!!
    BIG HUGS!!!
    Karyn
  • CherylHutch
    CherylHutch Member Posts: 1,375 Member
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    Take a deep breath, my friend!
    Hey Beth,

    I don't think we've ever met... I may have come to this board later. But, if it's any consolation, I too was diagnosed with Colon Cancer, Stage III back in December 2006. I had the surgery, the 8 months of chemo, the 6 weeks of daily radiation and as far as I was concerned, that was enough poison/toxins to kill off anything that thought it might linger! So, you can imagine my surprise when, 3 months after I finished the 8 months of chemo, my CEA levels were "slightly elevated" and then a PET scan showed that my right adrenal gland (this itty bitty gland above the kidney) lit up... and lo and behold, a friggin' spot in my lung lit up too! Why hadn't the chemo killed off those two areas??

    So, at the end of June 2008, I had my right adrenal gland and tumour removed... and then my CEA levels plummeted down to a reading of 1.5. Now, we are dealing with the lungs. Not only is there the spot on my lung that lit up the PET scan but there are 6 others, too small to light up the PET scan. Now, out of the 6, they are thinking 2 are scarring from a bout of pneumonia I had when I was much younger, 2 are suspicious and 2 they are not sure what they are. But, either way, the one larger one is more than likely cancer and there's a possibility at least 2 out of the 6 are leaning towards being cancer.

    Am I ready to give up?? No way!! We are talking a couple of spots/lesions/tumours/scar tissue... whatever. So all I need is a plan... we all need plans to keep us on the fight for recovery! I will be seeing my oncologist tomorrow to get the latest CEA results. It appears that the lung stuff is small enough that it isn't even affecting my CEA. My onc has also sent my PET scans and CAT scans to this radiologist who specializes in "lung ablations"... that's where he uses a CAT scanner for guidance and a long needle thingie where he will go in and burn out these spots... whether they are cancer or scar tissue, let's just get rid of them. I'm not sure if he would be able to do that with the larger one... but if not, once the little ones are gone, then I will have the remaining one removed surgically.

    Is that any guarantee that others won't pop up in the lungs? No. Nor is it any guarantee they won't pop up in the liver or back in the intestine. That is why we go for 3 month scans/checkups and we are monitored like a hawk.

    So please don't give up hope or give in to the fear of dying. There is soooo much they can do, and so many different options of treatment. I, too, am in Canada, so I can't speak on behalf of how the medical/insurance is handled in Arizona. But as some of the others have said... there are programs that can underwrite some of the treatments, or is it possible that the American Cancer Agency can underwrite/pay for the treatments? Like I say, this certainly isn't my area of expertise, I only know how it's handled up here... but there has to be a way so that someone doesn't have to turn down treatment because they can't afford it.

    Hugggggggs,

    Cheryl
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
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    Take a deep breath, my friend!
    Hey Beth,

    I don't think we've ever met... I may have come to this board later. But, if it's any consolation, I too was diagnosed with Colon Cancer, Stage III back in December 2006. I had the surgery, the 8 months of chemo, the 6 weeks of daily radiation and as far as I was concerned, that was enough poison/toxins to kill off anything that thought it might linger! So, you can imagine my surprise when, 3 months after I finished the 8 months of chemo, my CEA levels were "slightly elevated" and then a PET scan showed that my right adrenal gland (this itty bitty gland above the kidney) lit up... and lo and behold, a friggin' spot in my lung lit up too! Why hadn't the chemo killed off those two areas??

    So, at the end of June 2008, I had my right adrenal gland and tumour removed... and then my CEA levels plummeted down to a reading of 1.5. Now, we are dealing with the lungs. Not only is there the spot on my lung that lit up the PET scan but there are 6 others, too small to light up the PET scan. Now, out of the 6, they are thinking 2 are scarring from a bout of pneumonia I had when I was much younger, 2 are suspicious and 2 they are not sure what they are. But, either way, the one larger one is more than likely cancer and there's a possibility at least 2 out of the 6 are leaning towards being cancer.

    Am I ready to give up?? No way!! We are talking a couple of spots/lesions/tumours/scar tissue... whatever. So all I need is a plan... we all need plans to keep us on the fight for recovery! I will be seeing my oncologist tomorrow to get the latest CEA results. It appears that the lung stuff is small enough that it isn't even affecting my CEA. My onc has also sent my PET scans and CAT scans to this radiologist who specializes in "lung ablations"... that's where he uses a CAT scanner for guidance and a long needle thingie where he will go in and burn out these spots... whether they are cancer or scar tissue, let's just get rid of them. I'm not sure if he would be able to do that with the larger one... but if not, once the little ones are gone, then I will have the remaining one removed surgically.

    Is that any guarantee that others won't pop up in the lungs? No. Nor is it any guarantee they won't pop up in the liver or back in the intestine. That is why we go for 3 month scans/checkups and we are monitored like a hawk.

    So please don't give up hope or give in to the fear of dying. There is soooo much they can do, and so many different options of treatment. I, too, am in Canada, so I can't speak on behalf of how the medical/insurance is handled in Arizona. But as some of the others have said... there are programs that can underwrite some of the treatments, or is it possible that the American Cancer Agency can underwrite/pay for the treatments? Like I say, this certainly isn't my area of expertise, I only know how it's handled up here... but there has to be a way so that someone doesn't have to turn down treatment because they can't afford it.

    Hugggggggs,

    Cheryl

    Are you ready
    Are you ready to go through the chemo and radiation again if need be? That is the question that is haunting me. Actually it scares the hell out of me. My partner wants me to continue to fight. The last round was the strongest regimen possible, my ONC was very aggressive with my treatment because I was so young and had no family history of any kind of cancer. I am praying really hard that this will not be cancer, there is a slight hope it wont be, but I know I will be just devastated if it is the beast again. I am not sure or better said I am not educated on any programs out there that will help with the cost of the treatment. I do have pretty good insurance, its just all the other stuff I have to have money for; co-pays, gas, getting to and from treatment (which is over 60 miles away), will I be able to work so that i will have some kind of income coming in to support my family. I am currently the sole provider. All these things weigh heavy on my mind and soul. I appreciate the time you took to write to me, it means a lot. I am off to bed, need to try and get some sleep, I have a long week ahead of me. Again thank you. GOD BLESS.
  • msccolon
    msccolon Member Posts: 1,917 Member
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    Be strong!
    I also had a recurrence. I was initially dx'd in August 2004, recurrence on my ovary 2006. Surgery again, chemo again. Then, chemo again this year, ended in May. I know for a FACT, chemo sucks, cancer sucks, surgery to remove cancer sucks, but I WILL do it again if I have to! I have so much to live for and plan on doing it as long as God allows! I have always received the strength I need when I needed it, and so will you IF you need it! Just remember that it could be something benign and you will be dancing with joy! Come back often and we look forward to hearing how things are going.
    mary
  • kmygil
    kmygil Member Posts: 876 Member
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    Strength & Love
    Hi Beth,

    I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I know it sounds easy to tell you to stay strong, but if you don't, then you're letting the beast OWN you. Don't give it that doorway. You are stronger than you ever imagined you would be. Look at what you already have done. It's another battle in the war and you are going to WIN!!! All my prayers and hugs are with you. I'm not in the Arizona area, but in spirit I am, and all the positive energy is coming you way right now and all through your battle!

    Hugs,
    Kirsten
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431
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    I am beginning to sound like a broken record because I am always prmoting the Wellness
    Community. So here I go again. I looked at where Coolidge is in reference to Phoenix.
    If you are having to drive to Phoenix for treatments then there is a Wellness Community located there. The programs are for cancer survivors and their caregivers and they are FREE.
    They have counseling services; programs and people you can talk to about financial resoources,
    programs to help you deal with your treatment and social events. If you would like to know
    more the website is thewellnesscommunity.org. Also the American Cancer Society has a program
    where they can discuss with you options for financial resources and they also, in some places,
    have a transportation program where volunteers can help get you to your treatments. I hope this helps. Each ACS area is different I think so you would have to check out your local
    chapter or the chapter in Phoenix.
  • kimby
    kimby Member Posts: 797
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    Been There, Doing That
    Beth,

    Been there, doing that. I was diagnosed IIIc August 07, surgery, 6 mos folfox, colostomy reversal surgery...I was so confident that we had an "I finished chemo" party. Rising CEA, bad PET, August 2008 (one year to the day of my original dx) I was told I have 10+ tumors to the liver (currently inoperable) and 2 to the lung. This week will be round 5 folfiri w/erbitux. I'm hoping to make my liver resectable.

    You can fight this. You CAN win this! Every single member of my team (docs, family, friends and ESPECIALLY ME) must do everything - thought, word, deed - only toward the goal....CURE. Anything less and they are off the team. I changed oncologists until I found that team, including the liver surgeon I want. He is and will remain part of that team. I live in a small town in the middle of nowhere, so I drive 90 min to get there and would do that everyday if I had to.

    I found a book (Crazy, Sexy Cancer Tips by Kris Carr) that reminds me, and encourages me, to have fun. Fun is ok. Fun makes life worthwhile for me. My motto: If it's not fun I'm not doing it - especially cancer!

    My finances are a mess. I'm 44 and an independent contractor. I worked full time last year, but just can't now. I work about 30 hrs a week, so my new boss (previous boss promoted and this guy started between treatments and is trying to prove himself) cut my territory, and my ability to earn a living, by 2/3. By email. I made it through the first year of treatments and was prepared to work more to pay down the accumulated debt and rebuild the depleted savings. No time for that before I'm back in treatment. We will be in bankruptcy soon. Not pleasant and never, ever dreamed that this could happen to me, but it has. Life will go on. Life must go on --- I can't afford to die! LOL

    I think my journey this time was formed by one single event. When I got the call about my mets I was an hour from home and had only my 17 yr old son with me. How do I react? What do I want him to see? I told him it wasn't the news we had hoped for and that I would need more chemo, turned the radio to a 70's channel and we sang, danced and gyrated all the way home. It set the stage for my current treatments. Last year was difficult and I couldn't face that again. I have fun every.single.day. It's a rule. Chemo days are more laid back fun, but fun none the less. You can decide how to get through this. It won't be the same as me or anyone else, but it can be how you want/need it to be. You are strong enough because of the support system you have. People love you and want to help you. Let them.

    Best Wishes,

    Kimby
  • johnom
    johnom Member Posts: 86 Member
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    fighting back
    Hi. I have a slightly different post than the others, but with the same theme. We simply can't control everything and especially this sneaky disease.
    I am 4 years out from Stage II (b) with chemo, surgery, radiation, etc. I have had lots of problems re-training my parts. Finally, I felt I had gotten there and after seeing the onc. in the Spring was feeling great.
    On August lst I suffered a spinal cord stroke while listening to Pavarotti and relaxing at my lake house. There is a less than l% chance of suffering this type of stroke. I have been incredibly lucky.....I am able to walk fairly well and am only paralyzed in my mid section and right leg and foot. I am in pain sometimes. As you can guess, though, the big problem was my bladder and sphincter. Since it was already compromised, all the cancer problems seem to have returned once again.
    I fought back the cancer only to have this stroke. (I'm 60) It has given me a lot of time to ponder and challenge myself to fight back. Meanwhile, my mother passed away.
    My sympathy is strong for your situation. I don't blame you in the least. Please take strength from the other survivors and fighters here. You can and will win over this!!!
  • CherylHutch
    CherylHutch Member Posts: 1,375 Member
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    dorookie said:

    Are you ready
    Are you ready to go through the chemo and radiation again if need be? That is the question that is haunting me. Actually it scares the hell out of me. My partner wants me to continue to fight. The last round was the strongest regimen possible, my ONC was very aggressive with my treatment because I was so young and had no family history of any kind of cancer. I am praying really hard that this will not be cancer, there is a slight hope it wont be, but I know I will be just devastated if it is the beast again. I am not sure or better said I am not educated on any programs out there that will help with the cost of the treatment. I do have pretty good insurance, its just all the other stuff I have to have money for; co-pays, gas, getting to and from treatment (which is over 60 miles away), will I be able to work so that i will have some kind of income coming in to support my family. I am currently the sole provider. All these things weigh heavy on my mind and soul. I appreciate the time you took to write to me, it means a lot. I am off to bed, need to try and get some sleep, I have a long week ahead of me. Again thank you. GOD BLESS.

    Are You Ready?
    Beth... you asked the question "Are you ready to go through the chemo and radiation again if need be?"

    Without hesitation... YES! YES! ABSOLUTELY!! Why am I so adamant that I would put myself through that again? Because I have sooooo much to live for and soooooo many people that I LOVE. Not just enjoy, have fun with, are good friends, but LOVE! And most important, I'm not ready to leave this planet yet.

    Chemo sucks! Radiation sucks! But I also strongly believe that it sucks so much because it is doing what it is meant to do... attack and destroy everything in it's path. If killing off the cancer cells means killing off the good cells as well, then so be it... the good will grow back and hopefully the bad won't.

    Will the chemo/radiation/treatments give me more time? I don't even like talking about "time"... how much time does anyone have on this planet? No one really knows... and that's exactly how I want it with me. I don't need to know when I'm leaving, thank you very much. I just want time to do the things that I want to do... and trust me, some of those things I want to do when I'm in my 60s, and 70s and 80s! So if modern medicine and positive thinking can give me that time... then that is what I am putting to work here.

    I DO look at reality. The reality is this damn cancer spread to my adrenal gland... and then spread to my lungs. Because of this spread, I'm staged at a STAGE IV. If I were to take the negative road... I'd have to believe that Stage IV is the end of the road... it's just a matter of time. But I'm saying, "Skroo that! No one tells ME when I'm going to get to the end of the road!!" :) And if that's what it takes to get you into a positive fighting mood, then so be it!! Get mad! Get angry... and most of all, you tell that beast that YOU are in control, thank you very much, and only YOU will decide when you've done everything you want to do on this planet, even if all you want to do is take each day and soak up the love around you.

    Hugggggs,

    Cheryl
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
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    dixchi said:

    I am beginning to sound like a broken record because I am always prmoting the Wellness
    Community. So here I go again. I looked at where Coolidge is in reference to Phoenix.
    If you are having to drive to Phoenix for treatments then there is a Wellness Community located there. The programs are for cancer survivors and their caregivers and they are FREE.
    They have counseling services; programs and people you can talk to about financial resoources,
    programs to help you deal with your treatment and social events. If you would like to know
    more the website is thewellnesscommunity.org. Also the American Cancer Society has a program
    where they can discuss with you options for financial resources and they also, in some places,
    have a transportation program where volunteers can help get you to your treatments. I hope this helps. Each ACS area is different I think so you would have to check out your local
    chapter or the chapter in Phoenix.

    The wellness community
    Thank you for this information, I looked them up and they are in Phoenix. My partner and I will be going to the next beginners orientation class next week. We both are very much looking forward to it, and we believe we need it and that it will help us out a lot.
    Thank you
    Beth
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431
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    Wellness
    That's great; hope you find the group as wonderful as I have. Each Wellness Center
    is different so I don't know all the programs that will be there but just this next
    week I am going to a program called Frankly Speaking. One will be on dealing with side
    effects and the other one will be a top local doc talking about colorectal CA with a
    light free dinner included. Then on Saturday night they are having a jokefest and
    a couple of weeks ago they had a Ladies Night Out which included a wonderful dinner;
    tai chi experience, art class for an hour; then a Lebed experience and then they saw
    some movies; some of the ladies brought their bedrolls and spent the night with breakfast
    offered the next morning. I moved my treatment up a day this next week so I could go
    to the programs and definitely plan to get to the colorectal CA program even if I have to
    drag myself.....Ha.
  • msccolon
    msccolon Member Posts: 1,917 Member
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    dixchi said:

    Wellness
    That's great; hope you find the group as wonderful as I have. Each Wellness Center
    is different so I don't know all the programs that will be there but just this next
    week I am going to a program called Frankly Speaking. One will be on dealing with side
    effects and the other one will be a top local doc talking about colorectal CA with a
    light free dinner included. Then on Saturday night they are having a jokefest and
    a couple of weeks ago they had a Ladies Night Out which included a wonderful dinner;
    tai chi experience, art class for an hour; then a Lebed experience and then they saw
    some movies; some of the ladies brought their bedrolls and spent the night with breakfast
    offered the next morning. I moved my treatment up a day this next week so I could go
    to the programs and definitely plan to get to the colorectal CA program even if I have to
    drag myself.....Ha.

    I am SOOO jealous!
    I looked it up and don't have one in my area :(. It sounds like they are doing an EXCELLENT job of reaching out to cancer survivors! Have fun and here's hoping you don't have to drag yourself to the events! ;)
    mary