I was living in Lexington,N.C...working as a Certified Nursing Asst.I have only been away from Wilmington for around 7 years.Anyway...Once I found out I had BC, I had to reach out to my family...we had ben astranged for a while...nothing bad...So I got in touch with my sisiter which is really mt cousin....but her mother which is my Aunt addopted me whwn I was 3 1/2 years old. anyway...I immediatly started reading..test after test and moved down hre with my sister, its what she wanted...well she is a very busy person as well as her husband and they both sem to just go own about there lives for the day,gone alot of times...I wish I could as well...I don't like being here....but it is a safe place.....they own a farm..and she has a business she runs from home...but there both so,so busy.They have helped in many ways....but sometimes I don't really think my sister understands this is real...even though she goes to all surgeries and doc. Appt.If I look good ..then I think she thinks Im able to do so many things for myself....only to end up paying for doing to much later.Well ...let me get to the point.What I need is not to be told how to feel...or not to get all my hair cut off...or only hugs when I cry.Out of both surgeries I've only had food from the kitchen brought to me once...so I'm just wondering when I do start Chemo 3 weks from now....will she be able to truly help me if I don't handle it so good.I've heard she reads once and a while...but what is she reading....alI really need is a good listner....love....mental and amotional support...I'm getting the basic support and have had to push myself physidally when I didnt feel like it at other times, to take care of myself....will this be the case when I'm doing Chemo...????If I get sick....will she come from behind that orderly way and bring me drink or food ...love...a hand to hold...Talking with her just won't work.I just want to feel secure about my care when the Chemo starts...do I sound selfish??Has anyone else had these worries ...what do I think...what do I do????