24 and dying,,,,why does it hurt?!

2yung2dye Member Posts: 1
edited March 2014 in Leukemia #1
I just need a little support.


  • curlee8661
    curlee8661 Member Posts: 56
    I'm so sorry that you are in pain, and that there's nobody here to answer you with experience on this topic. I'm an ovarian cancer survior. I was diagnosed last April, and now, after 2 surgeries and 4 months of chemo, I'm back to work and trying my best not to worry too much about the future, and just take life one day at a time. My Mom, who just celebrated her 80th birthday, was just diagnosed with leukemia, which is why I'm here looking for support as well. Unfortunatelly, it seams that this board is not being read very frequently. Are you looking for emotional support, or do you need help regarding physical pain? I don't think any of us are ever ready for illnes or the possible prospect of dying, but you being so young must make this even more difficult for you to deal with. Sometimes just letting all those scarry feelings out can make you feel better. If you need someone to talk to, please feel free to contact me!

    ((((A BIG HUG)))) ~Marianna~
  • Denise1
    Denise1 Member Posts: 1
    I haven't been on the message board for quite some time. I've actually been grieving over my father for the past 5 months and haven't slept for about 7. You need support and I can offer you a website that helped me when I was with my father during his illness. http://www.geocities.com/leukemia_lymphoma/
    Mike devoloped this site. He's a great person. If I can help in any way, let me know.
  • franmuso
    franmuso Member Posts: 4
    it hurts most because you are so young. the physical pain seems to be less than the emotional. the physical pain can be lessened by medication, but the emotional still remains. it is important to talk and reach out to anyone who will listen. this is my first time on this site i have acute myleoid leukemia and am on my last day of chemo to be followed by radiation and then a stem cell transplant. i will be in the hospital for about a month, so depending on how i feel in a couple of days, email me back and we can talk
  • tinabm
    tinabm Member Posts: 2
    You are so young, what hurts? I know emotionally it is tough but with all the treatments available and you are so young you can beat this thing and be just fine. Don't give up yet! you are not dying!
  • mikeyBB
    mikeyBB Member Posts: 3
    You can live still- there is no harm in trying this to give you a good chance at a 2 chance at life!!!
    For prevention and cure for all types of people with or without cancer. My name is Michael i live in Australia and i had bone cancer which spread to my lungs. I am alive and well. There are natural treatments that replace chemotherapy or can be used with chemot. In fact there was a study done not too long ago with 65 terminal patients with various cancers. 51 of them survived trying one natural supplemnet called zeolite. I am not saying this is a curall remedy but with the loads of other remedies if you combine them the chances of surviving are amazing. I say this to you becasue the doctors told alot of other people i know of through Phillip Day seminars that they were terminal. But are now healthy and alive years afterwoards! I am following these rules to life a healthy life. These natural treatments many of them proved by scientsits are not in the main stream because doctors are only taught about the chemotherapies and drug company funded products. These are natuaral supplements, you can only try them they cant do anything bad- so why not attempt it. I have had bone cancer and I must tell you natural treatments work more effectively than chemotherapy. There is hope for everyone please just read what I have to say!
    I know alot of people who've beaten cancer without so much as a doctors help. That's right the cure is through natural based therapies- ie Phillip Days teachings. Has anyone heard of Phillip Day? I wouldn't have expected you to. The battle in defeating cancer is over, it has been won, already. There are many natural treatments available which can allow one to beat the disease. In fact I am one of them, I beat it when the doctors could do no more. There have been tens of thousands many of which were told hey could do no more they were terminal and through these natural good health ways they are still alive. Phillip Day and his books show that many scientists and researchers have found natural ways to beat cancer itself. The books are a collection of many studies conducted my world renown scientists and doctors. For further information I found this site yesterday- not as well versed as it could be but good site http://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/ Further information is on Linus Pauling the multiple Nobel prize winner for science said in 1994 " All people should know that cancer in our society today is basically a fraud." It is known that the reason for cancer is the pollutants and chemicals in our environments foods, shampoos, etc. There are natural ways to cleanse the body of these. Things such as vitamin B17 found to be absent on all cancer sufferers is to be taken- it is found in apricot kernels. What is interesting is that the selling of apricot kernels has been made illegal by the government in the USA. Why may you ask- that's the very question we are all asking, why would they ban apricot kernels- the only true source of B17 vitamins? This one factor amoung others shows that one can rid of cancer, like me who is living three years after I shouldn't be am here to show it is proof it works. I was shown this when my cousin's friend had turned to natural supplements against the doctors wishes and is alive and well today. Phillip Day's books must be bought, you can find them on websites. The real reason why we have chemotherapy is that it is such a successful market for business a multi billion dollar industry in western countries like here in Australia. Doctors go to school and are taught about the drugs that are available, not natural treatments. I promise with all my heart this is true, I know that you all have a chance- Please find out more about these things it has saved me and can change anyone's lives.
    Faithfully Michael- free of cancer.
    Just try it its natural - it wont hurt.
    P.S I need some cancer warriors to help the fight and pass on this critical information to others after you have read it,
  • HarlenSV
    HarlenSV Member Posts: 1
    Hey man, I am a Leukemia survivor and i don't know if what i tell you will ease your pain but I'll try my best. I had it when i was 8 years old, i can remember the pain i had all over my body. I was going to the doctors frequently, but they don't normally find it from a blood test. At least they didn't back then (I'm Currently 19). After a few my family though i was faking it since it appeared at some inconvenient times, the pain that is. But then this pain wouldn't go away and my mom was going crazy, hell she even took me to a fortune teller, or something like that. She told my mom that i had evil sprites within me. Might not have been the truth but at least we were getting some type of answer right? So the pain didn't go away and doctors couldn't tell me anything. September 18 it was my moms birthday. I fainted in the her car while going to my grandmothers house. not sure what it was, maybe i couldn't handle the pain or was taking some weird meds at the time. That same day I was diagnosed with A.L.L Leukemia "happy birthday mom, i have cancer!". I spend many days on the hospital, got a port insert in my chest. they had to put a 2nd one in because the first one wasn't working properly. Hell while i was at the hospital i even got a bonus. The doctors saw a black spot on my head (they believed it was a tumor). It was nothing, a false call. I woke up a few days after looked in the mirror and didn't recognize myself. I gained a lot of weight, I was bald, and i had a 4 in scar on my head which was swollen at the time. I remember laughing at myself, like i didn't believe it. I stayed in the hospital for like 30 days, which ended up seeming like a home. My family always came to visit me, there wasnt day i wasn't alone my mom worked from 8-6 every day and then drove an hour to visit me. people i never knew even came to visit me. I met many people in the hospital with different types of diseases. A few who had passed soon after i met them. Doctors and nurses would walk in and out of my room day and night. When i was drugged up i even had nightmares and even when i was awake i would think that nurses were trying to get me. Sorta like the effect shrooms has on people, not that i have ever done but I've seen my share of youtube videos. Well yea man, when i was alone.... i didn't want to die, the thought of not being with my family, especially my mom was really painful, i was sorta abandoned when i was a 2 years old or something so i didn't meet my family till i was 5 and i didn't want to be separated again. By the way Im not an English teacher or anything so excuse me for my bad writing, I'm just writing what ever comes to mind. Like i said my mom was with me everyday, every time she came she was in a joyful mood, not to brag or anything but i have the best mom ever, haha i guess i am bragging. Everyone that meets her just falls in love, she really is an Angel. How could i return her tears to her when she smiles upon me? thats what i thought to myself. Death scared me at the start, because thats what happens at a hospital and i spend alot of time there, i didnt know much of what cancer was other that i had it and that people can die from it. But my family all came together, sort of like the How the people of the U.S became stronger after 9/11. soon after death did not scare me, i thought i was invincible. how can something i cant even see kill me? was i ignorant? definitely. But let me tell ya man if by any chance i was to get something like Cancer again i would still believe that i am invisible i have too many guns on my side to lose to it, and an angel on my side. I never believed in god so i cant tell you anything religious, i had my family, so i don't feel like i need to look for a god, having them is way more than enough for me, if i was to have anymore i would just be plain greedy. So all i can tell ya man is look at those that you love, and ask yourself are you ready to leave them? And if not for yourself try for them. you cannot win a war you have given up on and though there are times when it may look bad, there is still hope as long has you haven't given up.

    There has been much more that has happened but thinking back to it made me some tears ha ha. if you have any question you wish to ask just send me a message and i'll try my best to answer it. Not sure if this mini story helped you out at all but hopefully you enjoyed it.