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Hasn't been my day or weekend with this machine. If it wasn't for sites like these I probably wouldn't want to put up with the frustrations this PC gives me. Sure I can buy another but I would still have to put up with virus scares and so forth some getting through it seems.
I just wanted to say how nice it is to still bump into names and chat with old friends that still come to this site to see how others are making out.
I think we still all can realize the impact each of us can have on another's life. This site has grown to such amazing new levels of support and chat is finally used and appreciated for what it too can bring.
After being on this site for over 5 maybe even 6 years now I still am educated and able to keep on top of things because of other's experiences and willing to share. I still come here to talk with others like myself since I have been too tired to make the trip into meet with my support group. Working still takes it toll on me after all these years but I wouldn't change it for anything. I always say to people if I go to bed at 7 does it really matter, I am getting rest and sleep and that turns out to be one of the most important things and one I neglected most of my life. I work hard and now sleep hard too is all. Yes I wish I could do things after work and cooking and cleaning but I can't. Sometimes it takes great planning to get out and do something different. I have found accepting and coping is truly the best that I can do and I think I am doing a fine job of it. I have truly learned to live in the good and the bad and personally don't think it gets any better than that.
Love to all,
Thanks for being here and sharing with us all who need to feel connected when most often we feel disconnected.
Be good to yourselves always,
Tara

krkath

Hi Tara,
I HAD to go out and get a new computer.
And frustrating as it is I'm grateful I could afford it.
I'm still at 7 months recovery from Taxotere with A/C / radiation, am tired and have trouble walking with the leg pain. It is very nice to catch up and read what others are going through.
Like going to bed at 6 pm and being at work at 6:00 am. But believe, on the weekends I have no problem sleeping in 'til 8:00. Ya do whacha gotta do.
Acupuncture has helped with my leg pain, but listening to others problems, it may just take more time. The wish that my body will be back to normal is somewhat dashed but like you say, rest and understanding what others go through, makes the journey bearable. We are not alone.
Hope your computer is acting better.
:-)
Kathy

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krkath said:

Hi Tara,
I HAD to go out and get a new computer.
And frustrating as it is I'm grateful I could afford it.
I'm still at 7 months recovery from Taxotere with A/C / radiation, am tired and have trouble walking with the leg pain. It is very nice to catch up and read what others are going through.
Like going to bed at 6 pm and being at work at 6:00 am. But believe, on the weekends I have no problem sleeping in 'til 8:00. Ya do whacha gotta do.
Acupuncture has helped with my leg pain, but listening to others problems, it may just take more time. The wish that my body will be back to normal is somewhat dashed but like you say, rest and understanding what others go through, makes the journey bearable. We are not alone.
Hope your computer is acting better.
:-)
Kathy

It is still acting up but can use it so will go with it. Normal is something I have never found and learned to accept things as they are. Probably the hardest thing I have had to do.
I am glad you are finding things to help yourself along the way. Quality to our lives is what is the most important.
Be good to yourself always,
Tara

mssue

Hi Tara and Kathy,
I have or was having problems with my computer too-I emailed You Tara before my computer crashed,I think it must of been that big virus everyone was talking about on the news-all I know is that the Friday before I went out of town my computer was not acting right so I tried to restart it-wrong thing to do once it shut down it killed my hard drive and it never came up again.I don't even know how it got there in the first place but anyway I ended up getting a new computer-it's really nice I justed hated to have to get one, You know what I mean.


You know I just returned from Mississippi ,being with my Sister for her surgery.Everything went well those first shots of chemo worked and shrunk down the tumors,they think they got all of the cancer,now she is suppose to have 3 more rounds of chemo and a years worth of Taxol.

I'm still having a hard time with several things like my Sister looks to have aged 15 years,I can't believe it,I know people in my family don't age well but that much change so suddenly???I felt terrible and I know it didn't make her feel any better when she finally got her room at the hospital almost every nurse that came in thought I was her daughter,there is only 7 years difference between us, I think word finally got around and that all stopped.She has been through soooo much, she hasn't had time to greive for her Husband yet. And to top it all off they look to be at a stand still with the clean up of Hurricane Katrina. I parked down at the beach and just cried--there are still people living in tents,some have fema trailers others don't -what few restuarants are open close at 2 or 3 in the afternoon because they don't have people to work.Alot of the people that lost everything aren't coming back and all of the trees that were left along the beach still look like they've been ravished with cotton and debri,all of the beautiful old homes that survived Camille back in the sixties are gone now.The beaches are still full of debri ,in the water and sand and can You believe they are still finding bodies. I am soooo glad to be back home(NC), but sad at lifes circumstances.Please remember to pray for all the people down there that everyone else seems to have forgotten.

God Bless You All

(((HUGS)))

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Sue

krkath

mssue said:

Hi Tara and Kathy,
I have or was having problems with my computer too-I emailed You Tara before my computer crashed,I think it must of been that big virus everyone was talking about on the news-all I know is that the Friday before I went out of town my computer was not acting right so I tried to restart it-wrong thing to do once it shut down it killed my hard drive and it never came up again.I don't even know how it got there in the first place but anyway I ended up getting a new computer-it's really nice I justed hated to have to get one, You know what I mean.


You know I just returned from Mississippi ,being with my Sister for her surgery.Everything went well those first shots of chemo worked and shrunk down the tumors,they think they got all of the cancer,now she is suppose to have 3 more rounds of chemo and a years worth of Taxol.

I'm still having a hard time with several things like my Sister looks to have aged 15 years,I can't believe it,I know people in my family don't age well but that much change so suddenly???I felt terrible and I know it didn't make her feel any better when she finally got her room at the hospital almost every nurse that came in thought I was her daughter,there is only 7 years difference between us, I think word finally got around and that all stopped.She has been through soooo much, she hasn't had time to greive for her Husband yet. And to top it all off they look to be at a stand still with the clean up of Hurricane Katrina. I parked down at the beach and just cried--there are still people living in tents,some have fema trailers others don't -what few restuarants are open close at 2 or 3 in the afternoon because they don't have people to work.Alot of the people that lost everything aren't coming back and all of the trees that were left along the beach still look like they've been ravished with cotton and debri,all of the beautiful old homes that survived Camille back in the sixties are gone now.The beaches are still full of debri ,in the water and sand and can You believe they are still finding bodies. I am soooo glad to be back home(NC), but sad at lifes circumstances.Please remember to pray for all the people down there that everyone else seems to have forgotten.

God Bless You All

(((HUGS)))

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Sue

Hi MS,
I sypmothize with you completely.
From what I get is your sister is going through all this after losing her husband?
I'll never foreget the day I started chemo (Dec. 1st 2005. My best friend who took care of me throughout my chemo came in and told me my sister was in the hospital. My niece found her unconcious and called 911. So, right after my very first chemo I went to see her in the hospital and she was in a coma and on life support. She was 48, 2 years younger than me. She lost her husband 6 months previously and I don't think ever got over it, even at that age, grief can kill you. She also aged and looked 10 years older than me. So, the day I started chemo, I can't forget since I lost my sister. Before I found out I had B.C. we all had to deal with his death and I had to uthanize my 12 year old Springer Spaniel because she had Pancreatic Cancer. That alone was too much, then it was the snowball affect. I coped, they say God only gives you what you can handle and I'd say that was pushing it.
I'm at 7 months recovery and still have terrible leg bone and nerve pain, but reading your e-mail I couldn't help but remember the beginning of chemo. My roomie at times told me I looked like a corpse after treatment, especially toward the end of the 5th & 6th treatment. I feel so sorry for your sister, but if she can hang in there through the treatment, time heals... and I looked awful! I'm much better now and even dealing with the side effects, people tell me how good I look. So, your sister has been given a hard deal, but there is hope. I hope you can relay this to her. Like some of the other survivors tell me. You ARE MIGHTY and we are all with you and her in our prayers.
HUGS!!!
Kathy

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krkath said:

Hi MS,
I sypmothize with you completely.
From what I get is your sister is going through all this after losing her husband?
I'll never foreget the day I started chemo (Dec. 1st 2005. My best friend who took care of me throughout my chemo came in and told me my sister was in the hospital. My niece found her unconcious and called 911. So, right after my very first chemo I went to see her in the hospital and she was in a coma and on life support. She was 48, 2 years younger than me. She lost her husband 6 months previously and I don't think ever got over it, even at that age, grief can kill you. She also aged and looked 10 years older than me. So, the day I started chemo, I can't forget since I lost my sister. Before I found out I had B.C. we all had to deal with his death and I had to uthanize my 12 year old Springer Spaniel because she had Pancreatic Cancer. That alone was too much, then it was the snowball affect. I coped, they say God only gives you what you can handle and I'd say that was pushing it.
I'm at 7 months recovery and still have terrible leg bone and nerve pain, but reading your e-mail I couldn't help but remember the beginning of chemo. My roomie at times told me I looked like a corpse after treatment, especially toward the end of the 5th & 6th treatment. I feel so sorry for your sister, but if she can hang in there through the treatment, time heals... and I looked awful! I'm much better now and even dealing with the side effects, people tell me how good I look. So, your sister has been given a hard deal, but there is hope. I hope you can relay this to her. Like some of the other survivors tell me. You ARE MIGHTY and we are all with you and her in our prayers.
HUGS!!!
Kathy

I am so glad that your sister had you there and even though difficult situations came about I am sure she felt a little bit of hope having you there. It sounds as though we all have had to face many losses during and after our fights and I am very sorry Kathy that your sister had to face so much pain, also at a very young age.
I find my hope in words spoken. I resigned myself to facing all I must and prayed only to have the strength to continue. With each day came a new appreciation and gratitude now was so much apart of my life.
I know one thing and it is this: "We are truly living when we can live in the good and bad in our life."
No matter what Sue going and being with her will make the difference it should. The two of you are great sisters and that is what it is all about.
Thanks,
Tara