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I was told not to worry.................

Moesimo
Moesimo CSN Member Posts: 1,072 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
But, as you all know it doesn't take much for any of us to get concerned about any testing we have done. I had a routine cat scan in Nov., there was an area in the presacral space in my pelvis that was a little larger than my last scan. My oncology surgeon was not overly concerned. The area lit up on a pet scan last Jan. and during my surgery in Jan. it was biopsied and came back negative for cancer. He thinks it will still light up even though it is probably scar tissue. I saw my onc. yesterday for a routine appt. She was concerned about the area and thinks I should have a pet scan in Jan.

I was told not to worry, but I am freaking out. On 12/26 it will be 2 1/2 years since my original surgery for the tumor removal. I keep thinking, what if the cancer has come back.............

Maureen
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  • alihamilton
    alihamilton CSN Member Posts: 347 Member
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    Hi Maureen, I can imagine your concern, but if it was biopsied in January and was negative for cancer, it may well be scar tissue. I cannot tell you not to worry though I would like to!

    Ali
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  • alihamilton
    alihamilton CSN Member Posts: 347 Member
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    Hi Maureen, I can imagine your concern, but if it was biopsied in January and was negative for cancer, it may well be scar tissue. I cannot tell you not to worry though I would like to!

    Ali
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  • taraHK
    taraHK CSN Member Posts: 1,952 Member
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    I feel for you -- a difficult situation, and not nice to have this hanging over your head during the holidays. I can understand you freaking out. But, remember -- you are doing all the right things. You and your doctors. You are doing exactly what you are supposed to be doing. If there is a suspicious spot, check it out -- so (hopefully) you can put that to rest. Try to keep those fear-demons at bay. 'Starve the fear, feed the faith". I'll be thinking of you. It's probably scar tissue. (What's it doing lighting up?? Thinks it's a Christmas tree??). Love, Tara
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  • goldfinch
    goldfinch CSN Member Posts: 735
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    Moe,
    Try not to let this ruin your holidays. I know that is easier said than done, but worrying won't change the outcome. Never is the phrase "enjoy today" nmore appropriate than right now. Look at what you have "today". Your health, your family and friends, the abilty to enjoy all of that. "One day at a time". The future will take care of itself. Enjoy the present.
    I will be holding you in my thoughts. Please keep us updated.
    Mary
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  • Moesimo
    Moesimo CSN Member Posts: 1,072 Member
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    goldfinch said:

    Moe,
    Try not to let this ruin your holidays. I know that is easier said than done, but worrying won't change the outcome. Never is the phrase "enjoy today" nmore appropriate than right now. Look at what you have "today". Your health, your family and friends, the abilty to enjoy all of that. "One day at a time". The future will take care of itself. Enjoy the present.
    I will be holding you in my thoughts. Please keep us updated.
    Mary

    Mary,

    I will not let it ruin my holidays. I have only told my husband and 2 people at work I am close with. One is a radiologist who has reviewed my CAT scans. I am not going to worry my kids. My son came home from college last night and today after work my sister and I are going to the airport to pick up my brother who lives in LA. I haven't seen him in 2 years. I am looking forward to a happy Christmas. And I am cooking Christmas dinner. I haven't felt well enough the last few years.

    But, it is always in the back of my mind.............

    Moe
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  • jsabol
    jsabol CSN Member Posts: 1,145 Member
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    Hi Maureen,
    I sure can understand how worried you must be, but you have come through so much and coped so well with all that this beast has thrown at you, that now is the time to dig deep and keep all those "What ifs" at bay. I think sometimes being a nurse is very helpful in dealing with our own health issues, but I also know that for me, it's easy to have my thoughts fly to all those negative possibilities. Please remind yourself to breathe, and use this board as much as you need. You have some info that is quite reassuring; use that til you get more definitive info again. Hang in there; and remember how much you have accomplished!
    Enjoy every moment of time with your family this Christmas, Judy
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  • Kanort
    Kanort CSN Member Posts: 1,272 Member
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    Dear Maureen,

    I am so sorry that you are having to deal with yet another issue related to our disease. Just when we start to breathe a little easier something pops us to give us concern. However, most of these prove to be nothing to worry about and hopefully, this will be the case with you.

    Enjoy your holiday with your family. I'm so glad you are feeling well. That another good sign that all is well.

    Keep us posted.

    Hugs,

    Kay
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