lost my mom to AML treatment, please help.
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ceesfire,
I am a survivor and caregiver for my dad. Have not gone through anything like you have, but just wanted you to know that I read your message and my heart and prayers are with you.
Professional help and grief counseling might be a good option for you. No one should try to handle these kinds of things alone.
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Hello,
I am very sorry about your Mom. I just lost my Mom two weeks ago. She died on her birthday. She was only 49. My Mom found out she was sick in June. We didn't even have time to really fight it. Before she got sick my Mom was the bikini wearing Grandma. She was amazing, never looking or acting her age. She was always so self assured and independent. By the time she passed, she couldn't even brush her hair or put her teeth in. To walk a few steps was painful. We took her in to see another new doctor. He hospitalized her on the spot. I work nights and when I left she was sitting up watching t.v., talking, laughing. She had an attack in the middle of the night while I was at work. They put her in ICU. I went to check on her and found that she was stable so I left to try and get a little rest before heading back to the hospital then to work again. My sister called me 1 hour after I left. Mom had taken another turn for the worse. When I got there, they were back trying to drain fluid from around her heart. She passed while I waited to see her. My sister blamed herself but it was no one's fault. I'm at the stage now where it doesn't seem real. I still have dreams about her. Most of all, I feel so alone without her. She was all my sister and I had growing up. She was strong and beautiful. I miss her so much. I understand what your going through. If you ever need to just yell or get anything off your chest give me an email.
Ellen0 -
I completely understand a lot of what you are going through. I'm 30 now, but when I was 21 my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She was cancer free 2 years later and then in 2002 she was diagnosed with secondary cancer in her ribs. In summer of 2004 it spread to her liver, lungs and brain and she passed away in aug. of 2004. I was only her caregiver at the end, but I watched it all end. I have a reoccuring nightmare in which my mom is really bad off, but then gets better and then gets bad again. I'm grateful for the extra time in my dream, but hate losing her over and over again. I find talking about it and telling anyone who will listen to help. I am always available as well for you. My stepdad quickly found another woman as well and I feel that though it is WRONG I think it's to fill the void of the women they are losing or lost you know? Not a day goes by that I don't think about all she went though. It's normal to think about it. I recommend a book called "Motherless Daughters" you can find it on amazon.com. My mom read it when she lost her mom to cancer and then I did too. Not all sections apply to you exactly, but you will find solace in a lot of the testimonials finding out that your deep dark saddness and fears are felt by many. I feel so much better when I talk to others about it. But I daily wish to have my mama back. quick questions: Do you ever obsess that you too might have cancer? sometimes even a cold gets me into a panic.
melinda0 -
Dear ceesfire,
I am so sorry for what happened to your mother and what you are going thru. If it is of any consolation to you, please know that your mother is in much better place right now with God, and she is not suffering any more and is free. My heart and prayers go out to you. I think that you really would benefit from grief counseling in your local area where you could meet face to face with other people and somebody who could professionally counsel you. I hope that your husband is supporting you. e-mail me any time if you feel like.0 -
AML Treatment
I just came across this thread even though it it now 2013. My sister was diagnosed with AML one year ago. I have no words to express the horror of what they are putting her through. I think her doctor could actually be classified as a serial killer with a license. I cannot believe what they have turned my sister into. She cannot walk or speak. she has no hair or eyelashes or eyebrows. She is anxious and cries and weeps all the time. And now they are myeoablating her entire system to ready her for a transplant. They are torturing her and I am feeling like doing something drastic to them. She has FLT3. They KNOW THAT WITH HER CYTOGENICS, A TRANSPLANT WONT HELP HER yet they still plow ahead on their money assembly line. I cannot believe this is legal. I do not know how these people sleep at night. I want to take her home and have her die in peace. They want to destroy any last shred of dignity that she has left. I thought the hippocratic oath that all doctors take says "DO NO HARM" That's the very first order of the business of being a doctor. They are doing a lot of harm. They are barbaric. And sick. And dangerous.
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