Hello

Btrcup

Hi all. Hope everyone is doing well. Today is not a good day for me. It is my 41st birthday and would have been mine and Scott's 10th wedding anniversary. I miss him so much! Every year he would send me flowers. A couple of the girls from the office took my out to lunch and when we got back, there was a basket of flowers on my desk!! I just broke down and started crying. The flowers were from my girlfriend up in NJ, but it was so freaky. Scott used the same florist every year and a few days ago he got a postcard from the florist reminding him about the upcoming special event.

I'm trying to keep busy this weekend. My daycare mom's grandson is spending the night tonight with my kids and she picked me up a birthday cake so we can have a little party. Then tomorrow night, I am having.....ok how do I put this delicately.....an "adult toy" party! There will be about 20 women and lots of alcohol. I'm sure I will be quite entertained. Wish some of you girls lived closer!!

Anyway, I feel better just coming here. Hope you all have a great weekend.

Linda

alihamilton

Firstly, I have to say Happy Birthday, Linda, even though you are feeling so sad. It makes it more distressing that it is also your wedding anniversary. In spite of your sadness, you are doing the right thing in keeping busy and with some interesting activities planned, I see!!

You have shown such courage and continue to do so, but of course you will miss Scott and you will shed tears. Take care of yourself.

Love, Ali

themis01

Happy Birthday Linda! I hope that you conyinue to keep busy and that your children are also doing well.
Erika

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crazylady

Hi Linda,
Happy Birthday! I hope that you have a great party tomorrow. I've always wanted to attend an adult toy party. Keeping busy is a really good idea.
Take care,
Jamie

StacyGleaso

Hi Linda,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I guess my question is, "Since we can't attend personally, can we place mail orders?" lol...I think that is just what you need right now, a get together with your friends to try to get some sort of normalcy.

Have a great weekend, take each day as it comes,

Stacy

kerry

Linda,

Happy Birthday. What would we do without our girlfriends? Enjoy your evening with them, wish I could be there with you. You seem to be doing well. You will always miss Scott, especially on those special days, but cherish his memory and know that he is always close in your heart.

Fondly,

Kerry

wendy_21

Happy birthday Linda. I'm sorry that you also have to feel sad today. I hope you stay busy and remember all the people who love you.

Moesimo

Happy birthday Linda!!!!!

Your post reminds us all how terrible this stinking disease is.

Hug your kids and remember the good times you shared with Scott.

Moe

oneagleswings

Hi Linda"
First of all Happy Birthday...secondly...I don't believe it was a coincidence that your girlfriend sent you flowers (unless she always does each year?) if not- then I believe it was just another way that Scott had of keeping the tradition (ask your friend what made her think to send you flowers?)
I really really believe that when our loved ones die they are not "gone" but their spirit or whatever stays around to be with us...I have a really strange story attesting to that- just try to believe that our loves will find a way to continue to communicate with us..all we have to do is listen..
Sorry if this sounds "really out there"- no I don't believe in seances- contacting "the dead" etc...just that the power of love lives on and death does not stop it.
Bev

rthornton

Happy Birthday, Linda

I am always so impressed when I read your posts, and am reminded of the support that we patients get from those that love us. I hope that you have the best birthday possible and that they only get better over time. It sounds like you have some people who are there to support you. May you find healing during this difficult time. It's nice that you can come here and feel better.

Best and warmest regards,
Rodney

kangatoo

rthornton said:

Happy Birthday, Linda

I am always so impressed when I read your posts, and am reminded of the support that we patients get from those that love us. I hope that you have the best birthday possible and that they only get better over time. It sounds like you have some people who are there to support you. May you find healing during this difficult time. It's nice that you can come here and feel better.

Best and warmest regards,
Rodney

Happy birthday Linda. Many of my friends here in OZ know how much I think of you guys over the briny. In conversation there are always the names of our dear friends who have passed on mentioned..and Scott is one of them. We will never forget our departed friends nor those that are left behind. That will be with us for the rest of our my lives. Hold on to your memories Linda..and to those who shared your grief.
Our love, Ross and Jen

tkd3g

Linda, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I am so sorry that is late in coming. Haven't been here in a while.

I think of you and Scott often. How are you doing? It must have been a couple of tough days.

I agree with Bev, about the flowers. I SO believe in signs thatguide us.

So....what did you get? Want to tell?

I hope you enjoyed yourself. Youknow that's what Scott wants for you. Happiness.

Love to you, my friend,

Barb