Better update than earlier-Please read and pray!!!!

grandma047

This is a better update. I'm sorry I was so vague earlier. Thinks have not really sank in yet.

Hi everyone, Got my biopsy report today. Cancer is back for a third time. I go to chemo doctor tomorrow and then Friday I have Hickman cath put back in to infuse 4 very strong chemos at once. Then they will TRY to remove the cancer. Doctor is not sure if he can. I asked if this was going to kill me and he said it could. I'm so scared. My husband and I have been talking of going to a major cancer center for a second opinion. I have had cancer of the rectum 3 times in 1 1/2 yrs. Doctor said very unusual. We have talked to our church about helping us with expenses in travelling for a second opinion. So far, I've talked to Dana Farber in Boston, MA. I talked to a place that will fly cancer patients for free, so I'm trying to get that arranged. I have to have medical records faxed, pathology films mailed and bring radiology reports with me. My husband has been laid off since October, so funds are lacking. I am praying, if it's God's will, that He will provide the funds. Please lift your prayers to Heaven for me and you may share this request with others. The more I have praying the better. I'm also very depressed and in quite a bit of pain because of the cancer recurrence, so also pray for my pain to at least ease some. Thanks to all of your for caring. I love you all. I pray that God will heal me, because I want to see my grandkids grow up, and my family saved. If He chooses to send me on to Heaven, I pray that the pain is minimal. I'm not scared of dying because I know I'll be in Heaven, pain free. I just don't want to feel pain now. I have a high pain tolerance, but know that I'm really going to be going through a lot. Again, sorry so long. I probably won't be on here much, so I thought I'd tell you all what is going on. Again, Thanks for your prayers and support. You'll never know how much I love and appreciate you all.
Love, Judy

jsabol

Judy, you remain in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong.
the other Judy

jana11

Judy,

you amaze me... you are so strong... keep up the fight.
Please try to keep us posted. But take all the time you need.
jana

steved

I was sad to read your recent news of another recurrence- I had hoped you would be spared this extra stress at this time. You will reallyneed to focus on drawing on your inner strength that has been so evident through your postings here on this site to deal with what is to come. My thoughts will be with you and if you find the time do let us know how things progress.
Steve

Moesimo

Judy, i will send extra prayers your way. May you find the strength you need to continue on this terrible journey. I think a second opinion sounds great. Good luck. If there is anything I can do for you let me know. Love, Maureen

taraHK

Dear Judy,
I am thinking of you and sending prayers and best wishes your way.
Love, Tara

andreae

Dearest Judy,

I don't really know what to say except that I'm very, very sorry that the monster is back. I can understand your frustration, but hang in there. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Hang tough, sweetie.

Love and hugs,
Andrea

2bhealed

Hey judy,

As always you will remain in my prayers. Keep us posted when you can and I hope you get to the second opinion.

May the hand of God continue to guide you and comfort you.

peace, emily who is also a believer :-)

oneagleswings

My thoughts and prayers are with you Judy. God will help you through this trying time- just lean on him.
Bev

livin

Hi Judy Iam sorry for your reacurrence. I understand how you feel, I also have had 3 recurrences. Breast-Colon-Liver. Stay strong positive and keep the hope and faith. My prayers are with you. Livin