Two months have passed since my final surgery, eight rounds of chemo and radiation. I feel as though I have stepped into the abyss and left behind that woman who dressed up for chemo and smiled through radiation. I am fearful of any bodily symptom that might arise and have given away so many moments, as of late, to fear. I so appreciate all the brave women before me who assure me that as time passes I will be able to put my canceritis to rest . . . I was just hoping see if anyone had any sage wisdom to help me not walk in fear. Somedays I feel as though I am monitoring every breath thinking the worst of thoughts. Any suggestions or thoughts would be greatly appreciated by this shrinking violet.