I cannot thank the people who replyed to my post enough. Thank you for undestanding, for caring, for taking the time to respond. This has been a horrendous time for me. My family only wants to keep me alive forever and I just long to be at peace. I love them so much and I want to be here but not like this. I was feeling selfish and had to reach out to people I knew would understand and you do. Thank you so much. I am not too computer saavy or I would have written toeach one of you. GOOD LORD SOMEONE REALLY HEARS ME!!! Thank you.