I want to know if you ever stop thinking and reliving your experience with breast cancer. I was diagnosed in sept of 2002. I had 5 surgeries including a mastestomy. I have been done all my treatments for a year and I still relive what I went through and get upset over it all of the time. I question why it happen and if I will ever feel normal again and not worry about it coming back. I have to go for a mamogram next week and I am so afraid of the results. I also have to have a colonosopy and I as worried about that. It seems like it never ends. I am on four different medicines. I just want to be normal again!!!