About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I fought through this with analyis and medication and have been off the meds for about 12 years now. I am almost 6 months post surgery and chemo therapy and I find myself deeply depressed again. I am on an antidepressant already (since the oncologist took me off my hormone meds and I needed something for the moods due to menopause). Should I just ride this out and chalk up that my depression is due to the bc journey or should I go back to therapy. I haven't gone to groups because there are no groups in my area. No one here seems to understand depression and just say "buck up" and that I need to focus on the positive. They tell me to be glad I made it through the chemo - but I have this black cloud over my head that is the fear of cancer coming back. Do others feel like this? I feel like I am drowning in the black cloud of cancer.