I had surgery 9/10/03, a total thyroidectomy and partcial neck dissection. I had a high dose of I131 the end of October and so far my thryoglobulin levels have decreased remarkably. I have seen the surgeon twice with another check up for May. I just saw the Endocrinologist around Christmas and everything looks good...or so they say. I shouldn't need another scan until 9/04 as long as everything keeps goining as well as it has been. I have tried to keep a real good outlook. I know this is 98% curable. BUT...I am so out of sorts. I have a hard time being motivated, I think I am depressed, I want to cry all the time. I keep my self going as best as I can for my children (I have four). The doctors say my TSH is at normal levels so my synthryoid is probably going to stay at the current level. I really don't want to see a psyc I don't want to be on anymore meds. I know in my head I should not feel this way but try telling my emotions is another story. Did anyone else have a hard time coping once the main surgery and treatment had finished? I don't think I am fearful of the cancer. I just feel like my life fell apart for a few months and I can't seem to pull it back together. I would love to stay in bed all day but with a family and a pt job I can't. Its a vicious circle I don't want to do anything and then I feel guilty and disgusted that I feel this way. Does anyone have any suggestions?